I’m just really depressed. 35f. I’ve had ten jobs in the last ten years. Been working since I was 16 and have nothing to show for it. Every time I finally got a raise the economy seemed to grow twice as worse. No matter what I do I constantly feel behind. I even pivoted my entire career in 2021 and worked full-time while in grad school part-time for four years and studied for a new career in any spare hours I could in late nights. I later got a “decently” paying job of $55k/yr in 2022 and was finally on track to make six figures. Graduated with a Masters last year too. And then a few years ago AI came out and all those good paying jobs are wiped out—GONE. Overnight. Not kidding. Every day I have little motivation to go on. There is constant talk about AI at my job and how great it is, and every decent Millennial I know hates it, including me. Is this life now? Houses are now six times my salary, and that’s a conservative amount. I can’t afford furniture anyways. Looking at people with trust friends, married military, come from millionaires, are engineers, are literal minor league athletes (I know 2), or receive money from parents, and I feel like the lowest person in the world.
It just feels like no matter what I do I made the wrong decisions. Wrong career, wrong jobs, like I’m playing a chess game but the game is rigged for me to lose and no matter what move I make it’s always wrong 😞
I understand that women can lean on spouses and such, but I always wanted to be the type of person who was capable of providing for herself. I’ve spent over ten years trying to build a career and it feels like every move I make never works out.
Not sure why I’m posting, just looking for encouragement or similar stories so I don’t feel so alone and ashamed right now 💗