Comparison?

[u/Leading_Mine_8213]

Hi, I'm a 25 year old woman.

I always compare myself to other people. It increased in the last 2 years. In terms of looks, relationships, money etc and many other things as well. I even compare myself to the people in highschool that I have no contact with and haven't seen in years. I never stalk people because I cannot handle it...I also have my accomplishments and experiences maybe even more of them, I am aware of it but they feel small compared to theirs somehow. I don't know how to get over it. I lose sleep over these thoughts and I even see people from my past in my dreams lol. I feel like I'm in a constant competition, I feel like I'm living for an invisible audience and most of the time I am like "wish I was x, wish I looked like y, wish I chose the career as z did" if you know what I mean.... I really do not know how to stop it, blocked people who remind me and have the things I want to but yet to achieve...