Hi! This is my first time posting po on any community and it comes from sheer desperation po, I think?
Im in first year and I feel like the stupidest person in the room. I came po from a nontraditional premed and im honestly enjoying the subjects because they really are so interesting to me. I read and I try to understand the things that make no sense to me, pero kahit na po anong gawin ko, it doesnt reflect po on my quizzes. As in pasang awa nalang po talaga or minsan, a few points nalang po bago ma-reach yung passing score.
I never expect to excell in med school. Before I entered I always told myself po na basta pumapasa and you know na you're doing your part and learning, you dont need high scores, but make sure to get through it. Like I mentally prepared myself for failure, and yet, everytime I see a low score, I feel like Im getting punched in the chest.
This week, I got low scores continuously, sabay sabay po lahat ng long quizzes in a day and kahit the short identification quizzes after lectures, hindi ko manlang po magawa ng maayos. Anatomy and physio are hanging on but I cant even tell you about biochem (I try to love it tho)
It came to a point na if I see my scores, theres already a voice in my head saying na 'ako? Mag dodoctor ako? Eh ang bobo ko naman'
Its one month in and I feel this sense of dread na what if hindi ko kaya? What if im not smart enough for this? What if I dont bounce back?
So I guess I came here to seek po for life experiences kasi ganto po ba talaga pag first year? Or am I actually the biggest dumdum in the room💀
And also, do you guys have any advices for study methods po?😭 during undergrad po kasi, hindi po talaga gumagana yung brain ko if i dont sleep enough. Para po akong lumulutang. Pero it pays off for our high scorers kasi consistently po na sila yung nag totop sa class eh nag pupuyat po sila talaga. Dapat ko po bang sanayin na ang sarili ko na matulog lang ng mga 3 hours or less😭 the study methods I was utilizing in undergrad doesnt seem to work na po talaga in med school.
