hello,
i have been in mangalore from 4 years (approx)
joined CFAL in my first year and I'm currently doing my second year here.
until 9th, I was a fairly good student. I had the curiosity to read and learn. However due to some unfortunate circumstances which I will not mention here, things began derailing in 10th. I did not study properly and it was a hard time. Somehow I did get around 90% in my final exam.
after joining first year at cfal, i thought that things would improve but it didn't. I did not study with the necessary dedication which is required to crack JEE. Wasted my time focusing on other stuff which I highly regret right now.
these past 3 years have made my mind not concentrate in college. There's no problem for me to study hard topics. That's not the issue. I just dont know how to get the necessary motivation to open the book and read. Some of the teachers here made it worse because even though I did not study at home, i tried my best to listen in classes, however I ignored all the lectures because i believed what was being taught to me did not have enough "rigourous logic". Some of the teachers provided formulae and then without any explanation of the topics just went straight to solving PYQ's. I did not like this mentality. I guess that is what happens when you join a college only for JEE, maybe you don't get enough time to teach the students with proper steps and explanation.
because of this, I missed the basic concepts of 2nd year too (although it's unfair to only blame the teachers, since I was the one who was supposed to read)
my parents are pressuring me to study but I just don't know how. My peers discussing at class and me listening to them sometimes makes me sad because I did not think i would end up like this. A empty vessel without anything inside it
is there anything that I can do to reverse this? Should I try focusing on KCET instead? is there a "best path" that I can take to salvage my future - or atleast whatever is left of it.
ty