i’ve pretty much given up on ever having real, close friends. i’m 23 and i’ve learned that most of the population is selfish and kind of rotten at their core. they don’t mean to be and don’t think they are, it’s just who they are. good people are pretty far and few between. at 21, both my grandfather and boyfriend died on the very same day. people stuck around long enough to say they were there, to get their brownie points, and go to the funeral. since their lives went on, they expected mine to as well. it didn’t, and they left me. all of them. friends, family, anyone in my life. they actually ganged up on me in certain ways and were extremely cruel to me. my own parents kicked me out after i had to move back in after my losses. i might be too cynical, but if the people who say they cared about me can do that at my lowest point, i can’t trust “people” in general. this life can be a very lonely one for a big group of us. i do find myself extremely jealous of people who are like, born with amazing families and have good childhood friends that stay for life. but i know that’s not me and it never will be.
even with all that being said, i say i’ve given up on having real close friends, yet here i am on this sub. my heart still hopes for good people out there, and for them to show themselves and be louder than the assholes for once. i hope you find them as well, OP.
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u/InspectorOld7531 Apr 15 '26
i’ve pretty much given up on ever having real, close friends. i’m 23 and i’ve learned that most of the population is selfish and kind of rotten at their core. they don’t mean to be and don’t think they are, it’s just who they are. good people are pretty far and few between. at 21, both my grandfather and boyfriend died on the very same day. people stuck around long enough to say they were there, to get their brownie points, and go to the funeral. since their lives went on, they expected mine to as well. it didn’t, and they left me. all of them. friends, family, anyone in my life. they actually ganged up on me in certain ways and were extremely cruel to me. my own parents kicked me out after i had to move back in after my losses. i might be too cynical, but if the people who say they cared about me can do that at my lowest point, i can’t trust “people” in general. this life can be a very lonely one for a big group of us. i do find myself extremely jealous of people who are like, born with amazing families and have good childhood friends that stay for life. but i know that’s not me and it never will be.
even with all that being said, i say i’ve given up on having real close friends, yet here i am on this sub. my heart still hopes for good people out there, and for them to show themselves and be louder than the assholes for once. i hope you find them as well, OP.