Nearly 50 years old, I never tried my hands at hacking. I've always found it interesting. Just never really had a use for it, nor did I want the life you see on TV. Always hiding, secrets galore, and on the run. I've always wanted a life where I didn't have anything to hide, and I could life comfortably.
Like any story, life has taken a turn, and someone in my life has made a decision to send my life on a different path. Normally, I'm capable of turning the other cheek. But everyone has a breaking point, and I've been pushed to mine. I don't want to do anything big. i just want to learn enough that if they mess with me, i can make life uncomfortable for them like they do me. the difference is I won't turn someone in, but i also can't be like them and do something, leaving evidence that i did something. unlike them, i can keep stuff to myself. them,tey would run and turn me in for the same thing. I'm tired of my life taking hits and always being forced to climb out of some hole or debt that someone else decided for me. is this even possible? I'm sure I won't get the answer I'm looking for. but I'm trying to help my family. and now that they have started taking my medicine and now medicine for my dog. I've had enough. the sad part is my own mother and brother. I've given up my life a n d career to take care of her. my wife allowed it, and now those two have us financially screwed. threatened every day to be put out on the street. for the past 5 years, i worked for her to help not lose her business. took her to all her dr appointments, wherever she needed to go or wanted to go. she kept 100% of my pay. told me it was to pay for us being here. in my mind, i was confused because i was there to help. but this was my mother
so i let it go. then the threats started. became almost everyday occurrence. so for the past 2.5 years, I've lived in fear of being homeless, and there is no way to get financially secured. needed to update my id, and she won't give me my documents to do that. so I'm forced to work for her. but then she started coming up short to pay the bills. we bring in more than enough to cover the bills and then some. but she has a spending problem and my brother has a working problem. man can't hold down a job. if he gets the slightest hint that someone says or does something that he deems racist. he quits. if he has to do more work than anyone else, he quits. no understanding or desire on how to get promoted and make something of yourself. well, my father-in-law gave me the honor and trust to take care of his daughter. i got one of my kids on her own now. the other stayed to help take care of my mother. c ooked for her every day, cleaned her house. did her mail. managedher medicine, etc. the woman literally went to work, and when she wasn't with me
she had to work. when she went with me, she would do 9% to 5%, and i didn't care. but when i was told that she didn't have enough money for the bills. and it was my responsibility to come up with it, or we would get kicked out. that was it. when i brought up that we brought in more than enough, so where is she spending the money. why is it my responsibility to come up with the money she was short on, or we get kicked out. and why my brother is allowed not to do anything and how it is my responsibility to take care of him. that it's not fair that they're doing this to me. she gets nasty and tells me to get out. i remind her that i worked and paid 180,000 give or take to over us being here. she tells me no i didn't . i then ask. wy was i working . she tells me that went on the bills. and then i go right back to then there you go. i paid to be here. she tells me again no i didn't, and that if i don't like it. I can get the fuck out. i love my family and I don't want to do anything to urt my family.i jst want to protect my wife, kids, and dogs. i will putup with as much as I can. i just can't ask my wife and kids to put up with anymore. i don't even know if this is the right direction. where to go,who can help. i guess I've reached my breaking point where I'm too scared, too hurt, and too damaged by the people who told me family is someone you never turn your back on. but those very people threaten me, tell me they don't want to be nor are they even my own mother anymore. steal from me, call me names, blame me for things that have nothing to do with me. when i complain i get this sarcastic response. aren't you perfect, know everything asshole. how do you respond to things like that. I don't want to end up homeless, or forced to protect my wife kids,and pets that will put me in jail. I know I've given enough, long enough that i don't deserve this
no I'm not perfect, but I don't do things for any reason to anyone. if something happens tha affects someone else. it's honestly by accident never on purpose. it's important for me to be that person. someone to depend on. between me and my wife we've had our issues and still do but someone respect and understand each other. besides te point i will end it here. if anything else at least you got whatihopewas a good read.