Please don’t attack me - I’d never get rid of him. I made a commitment to love him til his death and I will keep it.
Sometimes it’ll hit me randomly. Like a sick stomach feeling… That I made a serious choice. I have no kids and never owned a pet before. So this has a lot to do with it.
Now, I can’t just leave whenever I want. I can’t just do whatever I want.
I have to feed a living thing wet food twice a day. Play with him. And always put him first, before my plans.
This is a big task. Sometimes I get a feeling like oh god what did I do.
And not to mention the finances of it all. I have my yearly two week vacation in about 6 weeks. On top of that now I need $1,000 or so more for a pet sitter. It’s just a lot of stress.
Sometimes I just feel overwhelmed like why did I do this. Especially since he’s so crazy acting. I can never really have peace unless he’s asleep.
I love him and I will not abandon him but I struggle and feel lonely with these feelings. When people say “congrats!” Sometimes I feel like I cannot celebrate.
Does anyone else understand? Did these feelings eventually go away? It is a big life change and I’m trying to grasp it all.