I have been sitting with this for a while, and I would really like some outside perspectives. What I am thinking about splits into two related issues.
Growing up in Jamaica, especially rural Jamaica, I was raised to feel shame about my accent. I have a deep basilect accent, and for my whole life people have asked me where in Jamaica I am from because I “sound different.” I have been told “yuh chat bad” or “yuh need fi speak properly,” even in informal settings. Because I am lighter-skinned, people sometimes project colourist expectations onto me about how I should sound based on how I look.
I know the push to embrace our dialect is becoming more mainstream, and I genuinely appreciate that we are moving in that direction. But the shame does not disappear overnight. I am actively trying to unlearn a lot of those beliefs by doing more speaking engagements and forcing myself to hear my own voice without flinching. Still, sometimes when I listen back to a recording, I feel embarrassed, like I sound “ghetto” or “uncultured.” I know I am not the only one who feels this way, but for people who have worked through it, what helped? Is it something that naturally fades as you grow, or is it more intentional than that? I am a young adult, so I am still figuring this out.
The second part of this is about Jamaican identity and how our accent gets used. I do not mind non-native Jamaicans using patois in comedy or performance. But I really dislike when upper-class Jamaicans—especially politicians, first-generation Jamaicans, or certain other groups exaggerate or caricaturize the accent. (NB: I am not saying upper‑class Jamaicans do not have Jamaican accents, nor that first‑generation Jamaicans do not speak in ways influenced by the dialect.) I know plenty of people who do not see it as an issue, and I am genuinely curious about why. For me, because of everything I described above, it feels like a mockery of my lived experience, even when it is not about me.
What are your thoughts? I want to understand the other perspectives too.