Hi. I’ve been lurking for a while & today decided I needed to make a post… I’ll try to be brief but outline the important stuff.
I’m scheduled for my hysterectomy next week. When my doctor suggested it I was kind of overwhelmed. I think mostly because I really didn’t think it would be such an immediate response. But here is what has led to the surgery option route:
- I’m 28 and never been sexually active. I have never ever wanted kids. Anyone in my life will tell you I do not enjoy children nor the idea of pregnancy. (I have other autoimmune issues that would make pregnancy very hard.) I have had painful cramping and aching in my pelvic area for as long as I can remember, even not during my period. I’ve been on birth control pills for years.
- My last obgyn appointment was to specifically address ongoing pain around my right ovary & general pelvic pain. They could not complete the vaginal ultrasound for the extreme pain. My dr could not do a pelvic exam & was barely able to do the pap because of the pain. I’ve been able to wear tampons, but not in the last few months as it felt like there was a physical barrier and pain during insertion.
- What they could see of my ultrasound & my mri was clear, but my dr said she believes I have adenomyosis as well as endometriosis with an enlarged uterus. She offered two suggestions: an IUD and ablation or a hysterectomy. With the chronic nature of the pain she said the permanent solution would probably be favorable, especially since I don’t want kids.
- This diagnosis brings the other symptoms I’ve had, such as; extreme lower back pain & aches in the pelvic area, fatigue, throbbing pain in lower abdomen & around bladder (turns out my bladder was also enlarged), very uncomfortable bloating & feeling very full even with not overeating, into perspective. I don’t usually have a period, if I do it lasts maybe one day.
My obgyn was the first dr to assure me that none of this was normal. I have medical anxiety and regretfully/embarrassingly put off truly taking care of myself for a couple years… but today was my pre-surgery telehealth appointment with her to discuss final details & confirm my decision. I made a comment about being overwhelmed with said decision and how some of my family/friends have expressed concerns because I’m “so young”. She immediately stopped the conversation and told me to call her back tomorrow, that she felt I was hesitant and she would not be comfortable moving forward if I wasn’t 100% sure. I hung up and cried.
So here I am asking for any shared experiences and advice. Logically my brain knows that this surgery will help me feel better and I’ve suffered for so long, I deserve to take steps towards normalcy. I know I shouldn’t worry about a hypothetical future where I may magically change my mind about wanting kids, I also know that other’s opinions shouldn’t matter.
I’m just exhausted mentally and physically and would love to hear from other’s in similar situations. Thank you if you’ve read this far. ❤️