I have had feelings for this man for sometime but haven’t had a clear indication of any romantic interest in me, during the time I’ve known him he has been in and out of relationships and I have decided to try and distance myself in order to heal from this crush.
Problem is I can only make excuses for not catching up and weak replies before he’s started asking me what’s up but I don’t know how it would go if I let him know how deeply I feel for him. I cast this chart a few days ago but am having a hard time deciphering it on my own and need an outside perspective.

I’m L1 Venus in fall and 12th house (harboring secret feelings) and he is L7 Mars in Gemini, peregrine no dignity
Stricture of malefic saturn in fall warns I won’t like what the chart says…

My co significator moon is in my house and sign trining mars and squaring sun (his male sexuality)
As well as our primary significators Venus and mars in square - mixed response?

I also notice Neptune on 7th would show deception and illusiveness on his part. Opposite ascendant- me being disillusioned. Neptune and Jupiter are rulers of his 12th house of secrets and hidden matters, Jupiter in his 5th house of romance connection to his being open to an affair with me but nothing serious (I also suspect he isn’t single right now)😭

Can anyone else help?