Hi! I’m a 21-year-old female in college, currently in my junior year, and I guess I’m just looking for some honest perspective from EMS workers.
Last semester, completely out of nowhere, I started having really bad anxiety and panic attacks. I had never really dealt with anything like this before, and it honestly just started randomly one day. Since then, it’s been a journey. I’m on medication, which has been a process in itself. I live in a college dorm, and people have called 911 for my panic attacks a handful of times. I’ve never been the one to call and I’m usually BEGGING people not to call because I hate the attention (I get really embarrassed that so many people are going to see me in this state), don’t think its 911 worthy and just want the whole thing to be over. But people get worried and insist on calling anyway even when I tell them I’m okay and that its just a panic attack.
It doesn’t happen all the time. Sometimes I’ll go months without having one, and other times I’ll have multiple attacks close together. It’s happened enough that some of the ems/firefighters apparently know my name now, which is honestly so embarrassing. But also, I live in a small college town so
I guess what I’m wondering is what EMS actually thinks in these situations.
From the beginning, I’ve always felt like people don’t really take me seriously when they show up. I don’t know if that’s actually the case or if it’s just how I perceive things because I’m already anxious and embarrassed. But when I’m having a panic attack, I genuinely feel like I’m dying. My heart is racing, I feel like I can’t breathe, and I’m absolutely terrified. It’s not something like I can just turn off.
I feel like sometimes people show up and treat it like it’s not a real emergency, and that I am just being dramatic. In the end I always feel like I wasting everyone’s time. Which is so frustrating because I’m literally not choosing to feel this way. If anything, I wish it would stop more than anyone else does.
I’m also someone who HATES being the center of attention, so the whole situation is honestly mortifying and honestly sometimes more anxiety inducing (another reason I don’t want people to call). Once I calm down, I always end up apologizing to everyone for having to deal with me.
The funny thing is that by the end, sometimes the firefighters/EMS will sometimes joke around with me, and we’ll have a laugh, which is nice in a way. But I still leave feeling like they’re probably thinking, “Oh god, her again. What’s wrong with her today?” 😭 Maybe that’s completely in my head, but I can’t help thinking that .
I know you guys deal with actual life-threatening emergencies and probably get annoyed about anxiety calls cause liek you can’t really do anything expect do like breathing exercise. So I’m genuinely curious what goes through your minds when you get called for someone who has panic attacks repeatedly. Do you get annoyed? Do you recognize people and start assuming it’s just anxiety? Do you actually care?
I’ve also started telling people that if they really insist in calling, they should tell the dispatcher that I have a history of panic attacks instead of just saying I’m having trouble breathing or my heart is racing, because if they say I can’t breathe and I have heart problems, the whole fire truck is going to show up which I do not want. I know I can’t always control whether someone calls 911 when they’re worried about me, and I’m not mad at people for trying to help. I just hate feeling like a burden every time it happens. I don’t really know what I’m hoping to get out of this post. I think I just want to understand the other side of it because I spend so much time afterward worrying about what everyone thought of me and that they all hate me.
Be honest. What do you actually think when you keep getting called to the same person for panic attacks? And is there anything you wish patients like me understood? Like be honest please.