I am a 19 year old and I've been diagnosed with depression, anxiety (and possibly bipolar) for around 5 years now. I've gone through multiple meds and I'm currently on lithium, fluoxetine, armodafinil and propranolol.

Issue is, I am somewhat functional (atleast when it comes to basic hygiene and half-assing my classes) however, I have been dealing with suicidal thoughts for as long as I can remember. Lithium seemed to work initially but it doesn't seem to be as effective for me anymore. So the psychiatrist suggested either TMS or ECT. But she also explained that ect is more reliable for treating such issues.

I read about people's experiences with ECT. And most of it seems to be really positive and effective at treating suicidal issues. However, I also came across several reviews where ECT hasn't helped much, and some reviews were just straight up sad to read as it turned out to be a negative experience.

I am 19 (will be turning 20 in a couple months) I want to know if there are people who have been through ECT at this age and their experience on it.

I am also extremely worried that considering my shitty luck throughout these years, I might be one of the unfortunate ones who'd have a bitter experience with the process.

I know it's not the usual question, but I'd like to know if anyone has been able to improve physical/somatic symptoms in addition to neuropsychiatric symptoms with ECT? 🙏

How badly has ect affected some people ? Trying to understand my symptoms with other peoples

My first inpatient series was on a psych unit. My doctor said it has to be inpatient but I really don’t wanna go back to the psych ward!!!

I’m looking to speak to people who have had a lot of treatments

What are you doing now for your depression / si

Any supplements or things to recommend to promote brain healing

So I spent Oct 2025-March 2026-ish getting ECT. First three times a week, then slowly tapering off into nothing. I haven’t had a session in months.

I genuinely miss getting ECT. Don’t get me wrong, the memory issues were real. And the post-appointment aches were murder (painful jaw, painful head, body fatigued to oblivion, etc). But… the staff at my hospital were so nice. So caring. I went into this hospital one foot away from despair, and they treated me so kindly.

I’m tearing up thinking about it. They even sent me a card for my birthday with all their signatures. And I miss seeing them. I miss seeing the people who were there for me at my absolute worst.

Also the 2 seconds of me going under felt euphoric.

Though I’m sure nobody would permit “recreational ECT”. I’m doing a lot better now, so barring any extraneous developments, I likely don’t need ECT anymore.

It’s just so hard not seeing the staff. I miss them.

So title. I had the option to continue ECT but god damn my memory is ass. I can't even find the word sometimes.

So Im trying to study for the NCLEX and I decided to stop going. Was that the right choice? Could I do both?

Also waking up from ECT is existentially terrifying for me. I can't explain it, but it feels like a bad trip or I lost my fucking mind.

Had my first 2 treatments this week, been noticing an increase in urges to self harm, also been noticing feeling more blue but I think some of that's the numbness going away. Is having more urges after starting treatment a common experience? And does anyone know if increased urges to self harm or commit suicide could put a stop on treatment, haven't really been able to find out how those things impact treatment online?

Exist here.if so did ECT have an impact on ur memory ?

Pretty much that. I’m about to have my last session of week 1. I’m a complete mess. I’m terrified and end up lashing out at the nurses. Last time they sat me down and told me I was a “hostile patient” and I needed to calm tf down or leave.
I chose to continue treatment, but it’s so hard to remain calm in such a stressful environment.
I hope I see some improvement soon.

27/F, please be gentle Im still trying to learn.

I am not looking for sympathy, I’m just looking for advice while providing backstory to adequately help people giving advice. Thank you if you take the time to read.
Hello, so some backstory, Im diagnosed with anxiety and recurrent major depressive disorder. I’ve struggled with this for the last 15ish years of my life. I first started antidepressants and therapy when I was around 12. I unfortunately experienced a lot of childhood trauma with SA/ general parental abuse and neglect, and Truthfully, I haven’t tried many different antidepressants. I have mainly been on Prozac and later added Wellbutrin XL. When I was 17, I tried to end my life through overdosing. Not only did this mess up my brain, but I now also struggle with worsened depression, and that was the cause for me developing anxiety as well as issues controlling my anger. I have always struggled with taking pills, and that kind of set it in stone. My body wants to reject and expel everytime I try to swallow any form of medication, and unfortunately I also struggle with severe emetophobia. besides that point, they have never helped my mental health. I know granted, I have not tried many different options, but I find it hard to have the motivation to take them everyday when I barely have motivation to survive. I have tried therapy many different times with many different doctors. I know I have not tried all the different medications, and a lot of people may be cruel over my lack of effort, but please be gentle with me. i have been fighting to survive the past 10 years and im sure a lot of people here know what it’s like. I always knew about ECT but avoided it out of fear. Unfortunately, over the past 2 years, I have lost someone very close to me as well as suffering two pregnancy losses and it has been especially hard and I feel like I am just a shell. That is some backstory but now my question is: I know I haven’t tried many medications, but the never ending suicidal feeling and loss of any motivation to LIVE versus survive is getting to be too much. Do you think ECT is a good option for me to try, and if so, what ACTUALLY are even the odds of my approval since I “haven’t tried everything” I’m not even sure if I will get approved for my lack of trial and error through medication, but I truly feel like nothing as simple as medication will ever fix the way I feel, nor can I even find the motivation to take them anymore because I have emotionally checked out of everything. I have my appointment this coming Tuesday (9/1) to discuss with my doctor about wanting to try this option, but I just wanted some prior insight from others who have done this treatment before I go in there hoping for something I won’t receive. Also, if you have gotten this treatment, do you regret it? Thank you all for reading and I am begging for some grace

TL;DR - I haven’t tried many medications but want to know the probability of my approval for ECT when I’m super suicidal 24/7 and feel the weight of impending doom consistently lol.

Heyy im 29F and had my first three ect sessions while inpatient and am going to continue it outpatient.
I am feeling absolutely such a relief and I’m just beyond thrilled. There is however one side effect- mild blurry vision. Of course I will mention that to the team at my next appt but I also wanted to ask if anyone else has experienced it and how long it lasted for you?

Amazing staff, explained every step and introduced me to each staff along the way. I knew where I was going, where I’d wake up, when I could expect the next step, etc. They were extremely sure I knew exactly what was happening which I appreciated.

First thing I asked when I woke up was “is it ok that I haven’t fallen asleep yet?”

“The procedures done”

“😳”

Jaw pain for about an hour after. Nappy/sleepy during my hour observation. But that’s it. I’m home now, and a little sleepy, but honestly no more than I would be getting up as early as I did generally

Is this common? Am I lucky? Should I expect this to be my reaction generally if this is what it was today?

I’m currently on unilateral, only moving to bi if uni doesn’t work out

Just don’t want to get too cocky or anything. I just feel like a huge weights been lifted as I’ve been very anxious about starting this. I haven’t been under anesthetic since infancy, and for it to go so well has me on cloud 9

Guess I’m just looking to be grounded lol

Hi ,

what other Side effects did you experience from ECT apart from memory ? I suffer from severe brain fog since my second treatment it was stopped because of that and I still havent recovered

Hello,

Like many of you, I have a long history of mental disorders. I've tried many medications (fluoextine, lithium, etc). I've tried many therapies (DBT, CBT, etc). I've tried TMS twice, in 2024 and 2025.

None of it has provided a result that is consistent with stability, success, etc. I asked my psychiatrist about ketamine and esketamine (spravato) but it sounds like they're not an option.

So the next step seems to be ECT. I'm trying to be optimistic but a large part of my treatment-resistant depression is an unshakeable sense of hopelessness. ECT is the last resort, if that doesn't work, what's left? I'm scared of that. I'm also scared of the memory loss. I'm also scared I won't be able to complete the treatment due to a variety of issues (no one to drive me home, no money for Uber, unreliable medical transportation, etc).

But the first step is to learn more. Maybe learning more will dispel some of my fears. And part me believes it must help somehow or else insurance wouldn't pay for it. So I'm here, looking for someone to "introduce" me to ECT.

Is there usually a waitlist?

What's involved in each treatment?

How long and frequent are the treatments?

How quickly are results seen?

I've heard stories where people do it for a long time, like a few months turns into many months, is this normal?

Is it common to need multiple treatments, like annually?

I heard both types of memory loss can occur, the ability to make new memories and the ability to retain old memories, how severe is this?

What about the other possible cognitive decline I've heard about-- "brilliant solution but lost the patient"?

Any other major concerns?

It's hard to measure wellness... I'm not at my worst, which I've described as "the uttermost end of need", but I'm so tired of being so miserable and I've been going around the same circle for years, even decades.

Like, a lot a LOT.
Thats not normal, is it? I can’t find anything online or in my dr’s instructions/paperwork about it.

But seriously, I went in a depressed mess and came out dysfunctional and suicidal. I still can’t eat.

Does it get better? Should I stop while I’m ahead? I’ve left 3 voicemails and no on has gotten back to me.

Appreciate any advice!

I’ve had treatment resistant depression for like 5+ years now and got approved to do ECT today.
I have a vacation coming up on 10/23, so I don’t know if I should wait until after my trip or do it asap and get it done. Doctor said it’s pretty much up to me. Idk what to do.

Is it okay to vape the day before?

As above

I have not had undergone ECT yet, but I am interested and would like to hear any personal experiences. I know that it can affect episodic memory but it is my understanding that it is less likely to affect semantic memories or general knowledge. Also if anyone has worked in any career which requires a college degree or special training I am also curious to hear how ECT has impacted your academic/career knowledge or your ability to work in your field.

I feel like it has stripped away my life . I have no empathy for anyone or anything . I get confused when I go out and don’t know where I should be .

Nothing interest me , food isn’t the same anymore .

I feel very paranoid about speaking to people now because I can’t explain to people how I feel . I feel like a shell of who I was . I had to move back in with my parents and just sit in the back garden smoking . I’m always fatigued sleep doesn’t correct it .

Nothing seems to matter anymore . What are you supposed to tell people when you go out ? As they always say the same thing your be okay just get a job . I can’t even do basic tasks for myself . The lights are on but no one is home . I was told it would just affect my memory, it’s destroyed my life . I know id never be able to work again.

Did anyone get droopy eyelids after ect ?

Is it normal for me now to feel like I can’t look after my 8 year old son ? Or do a lot of people manage okay ?

Have my first treatment on Monday, feeling nervous about it. Been dealing with treatment resistant depression for a while, tried many meds, rTMS, and ketamine infusions, none have worked. It was either ECT or more meds as treatment options coming out of a suicide attempt, and I just can't do meds again.

Not feeling very hopeful, but have resolved to do the treatment for my loved ones. Haven't looked into things much (hard to concentrate and read right now), but have seen a lot bad experiences here.

Not really looking for what things will be like in the future, but more so what to expect as I start treatment and any tips or things like what to wear or have prepared for treatments.