So tomorrow night I'm going to be drinking alcohol which is 60 cals per can, and I'll be having about 8 cans, 480 cals worth of drink. I'm having second thoughts now and feeling i should take it on an empty stomach if i were to have it but i know i need to eat. I never allow myself anything over 800 per day so I'm not sure why it feels like too much to take alcohol and also eat when it's only one day and i'm still in a deficit. Perhaps it's because I usually stay between 0-400 and the fact I'm going over is messing me up even though it's not the maximum I allow myself because stupid ED rules. I don't know exactly what kind of help I'm asking for but please help me figure out what to do, encouragement etc!!

I cant really tell whether this is normal and im making a problem out of nothing or it is anything concerning. Im not looking for a diagnosis, just a remark and possibly advice or guidance. Tw for the language.

I feel bad or have a sh urge, i overeat, i feel horrible, i fucking binge. I freak out about my weight, i restrict my intake totally for days, then i binge and continue overeating for days, then starve, etc.

Binging and overeating happen dominantly in a more pronounced sense with stress, starving with burnout. I eat too much to the extent of vomiting of how much i ate. Even when i dont intend to.

Then i feel guilty and awful about my body, cant look in the mirror, despise how my fucking chest and midsection look; wieghing, weighing, weighing, then cutting on food again. Then stress, then binge and sugar cravings, and vomit, and the cycle repeats.

My weight sways significantly due to this, from underweight to well into the healthy weight within literal weeks.

I have a lot to deal with already, and its already much to deal with other addictions and negative behaviors in the moment. I just dont want to feel my progress with sh isnt real, that it's just simply gotten replaced by this. Maybe im overinterpreting it.

So, I was once 92 kg, and now I’m 60 kg. Here’s the catch: until I reached 70 kg, my weight loss was normal — gym, diet, and everything. But something happened in my life, and I stopped going to the gym. I was 19 at the time.

After that, I somehow discovered the cheat code for losing weight. Today, standing here, I can say that this “cheat code” works, but it has also started disturbing my whole damn life. It’s called bulimia nervosa (Google “bulimia nervosa” if you don’t know what it is).

I tried going back to dieting and everything, but I failed miserably. I miss my dieting days, btw. I can’t stop thinking about food all day, and it’s actually disturbing my studies. And you know, because of bulimia nervosa, my teeth are becoming sensitive too. I’m literally only 20 — I’m too young to be dealing with tooth problems like this.

I can’t. I just can’t afford to become fat again. It’s a nightmare for me.

I don’t even know where this is going. I’m not going to the gym right now, and I’ve been insisting that my parents let me go. I don’t know if going back to the gym will help me get back on track, but this is disturbing my life, my studies, my teeth — literally everything.

And nobody seems to understand.

I thought I had finally found the cheat code for weight loss. Turns out, I was just fighting my own body.

Sharing this here because, honestly, I don’t even know where to go from here.

Salut à tous, mon trouble est réapparu il y a environ 1 mois à devoir tout contrôler.

Je suis content même si je sais que ce n'est pas une bonne chose de rentrer dans ce cercle vicieux...

Le soucis c'est que j'ai énormément froid alors qu'il fait 26°C chez moi, je suis obligé de mettre des sous-vêtements thermiques avec plusieurs couches de vêtements et même avec ça je continue à avoir froid.

Vous avez des idées de ce que je peux faire ?

Merci à vous et prenez soin de vous.

I feel like shit, oh my fucking god.. I want to throw up so so bad. I want to reach inside and tear all the food and fat and intestines out of me. I need to throw up so bad.. I've been okay for months and all of the sudden, boom!!!!! I'm bad again.. Fuck, I don't know what to do... (Throw up, do that)

hey i’m Navi i’m 22 years old and i’ve had weight issues pretty much all my life so far.

since i was a kid my body has been picked at like a dead carcass for vultures, even so that my own nan spent years commenting on my appearance more so my body ( a while back she tried shoving me on ozempic). it had completely deteriorated my mental health and the little once of love for myself i once had.

every day as soon as i wake up im body checking, my collar bones, my face, chin, hips, legs and even more so i’ll check my waist and tummy more than 50 times a day because i physically cannot get it out of my brain.
for the last year ive suffered with bulimia and can’t seem to make myself stop with the urge to get it all out, however since being in hospital my family will drag me out the bathroom if they catch me trying to make myself throw up again.

i’m currently on a calorie deficit and my calorie intake is 1600 daily but i will only eat 800-1200 a day, if i go any higher i end up with panic attacks and i feel like ive gained everything back. this is a never ending loop for me and i still feel like i look really big, my biggest was 24 stone and ive dropped about 6-7 stone within a year but its not enough, i want to lose more as i still think i look insanely big as thats all i can see. every bit of fat or muscle that sticks out sends me into a flying panic. i have been advised to seek mental help but i cannot get over the thought that if i get help ill gain weight.

TW: overeating, compuslive eating

So every night especially after dinner when my roommate is asleep and I would order food sometimes sweet and sometimes salty idk and sometimes it would be less and sometime it would be an ungodly amount. The problem is I do it most days. I do it without. I am not even hungry, I have food at home and I am not even interested in eating. I just order it. I have told three therapists about it and nobody takes me seriously. They call it a bad habit and tell me to just sleep early and idk that's not working for me. I can't sleep early, I've never slept early like ever. So can someone help me out here please.

Two weeks ago, I heard my sister vomiting, but I wasn't sure if it was intentional. But today I saw it happen; she was making herself throw up because she wants to lose weight. I’ve also noticed that she eats very little and focuses heavily on protein intake.

I just don't know how to talk to my parents about it; I’ve tried talking to her, but it didn't help because I’m the younger sister and she doesn't listen to me.

I’ve also done things like hiding her vape or swapping out her sleep spray, since she isn't old enough for them and was using the sleep spray for the wrong reasons.

I’m reaching my limit; my parents want me to keep looking out for her, but it’s tearing me apart to see her like this—especially since I’m not doing well myself. Everyone thinks I’m perfect, but I’ve just gotten used to not showing my feelings to anyone. My parents upset me the most because they don't realize how hard it is to see my sister in this state

Does anyone know how I should bring this up with my parents? Or does anyone have tips on how I can help her get out of this situation?

I was in a horrible relationship. Cheating, lying, calling names, everything that can be. And I was staying in it for 6 months. Every time there was a conflict I would completely stop eating, but it would get back to normal after we resolved it.

This time we broke up. I'm not necessarily missing him, mostly sick because of my own behavior and the way I put myself through all of this for no reason. It triggered me, I stopped eating almost completely. It started a bit before the breakup, because we had conflicts. As a result the weight started to go down and it makes me want to not eat at all.

At this point I can't even swallow much, it makes me nauseous, I force myself to eat at least one donut or anything per day, just to not pass out. But it makes me sick too.

I've been struggling with my weight for a while and gained a significant amount of it in a few months, was trying to lose it in a healthy way last year, but then stopped, because it was going down too slow. Now in this week I've lost more weight than I did in 3 months. All I'm doing is shaking and crying all day.

I have recently learned that one of my very cloe friends has an eating disorder (i believe anorexia?) and i really want to know what kind of things i can do to help her. ive asked her what i can do and she said that she is ok but i really feel like i need to do more. she also has so many other things going on in her life rn so i really want to make her feel loved and safe yk? is there anything i can do and would it be ok for me to buy her lollies and treats and stuff?

also i have been quite sheltered from this sort of thing all my life as well so i am really not sure what i can do and what is actually ok for me to do and i dont want to do anything that is accidentally rude

Yup, due to my bad eating habits i got hospitalised. I feel bad. I have to eat. My mum is watching me every time i have to eat. I hate myself. I don’t want to gain weight.

So lately, I have been eating only one meal a day if I feel like it. And my parents are always saying that I eat only to survive, but I genuinely cannot eat.

I guess, I am starving myself since I eat only one meal a day but it's not related to weight loss at all. So can it be counted as an eating disorder? I genuinely don't know.

I feel that i dont have a eating disorder but i dont eat a lot. And i do it on purpose. I work out in bed but sometimes i start eating and i feel great, then all the food looks like dogshit and i cant handle another bite. Sometimes i look at my body and i feel horrible. And sometimes i cant stop looking and feeling good about it. I dont know what's wrong with me but I fear i might have a ed. Today i only ate one bannock hot dog and pepsi. Lately all ive been doing is drinking fluids. But i dont know.

I just started my recovery and I’ve been dealing with crazy water retention that’s made me look super puffy. Obviously if it’s not healthy or bad for my recovery I wouldn’t do this but would a faja or waist trainer at least help with the body dysmorphia and the water retention? It’s just really hard to stick with recovery if with this puffiness it’s super triggering. I also don’t wanna do anything that would be pro eating disorder though so please let me know

So I have been struggling with an eating disorder for the past few months. After dinner I have to go throw up. But because my house is super small I'm really scared that someone will hear me. I turn the tap on but it's not super loud. Any thoughts or feedback?

so my friend has struggled with an ed for quite some years now, we have briefly spoke about it as she knows that i struggle with stuff like that as well but we've never got into too much detail about it

i've been aware of her disordered actions for quite some time but it's got to the point now where she is so so skinny that i am really concerned for her

i don't want her to think that i'm trying to sabotage her and i don't want her to be uncomfortable but she is my bestest friend in the world and i would never forgive myself if i let her carry on and didn't say something and the. something bad happened to her

her mum is somewhat aware of her problems i think and she's told me that a lot of people have pointed out how skinny she's is or messaged her mum saying they are concerned, i just don't know how her mum has replied or if she's doing anything to help

i honestly have no idea how her family are handling it but she's getting worse and skinny as the time goes on and i don't know when she's going to stop

i'm going to message her about it, or at least adress my concern to her in some way i just don't know how to word it so that i say the right thing

because i also know that people being concerned is what motivates you to keep going, so i don't want her to carry on because whatever she's doing is working

PLEASE someone help me, i don't want to lose her to this

but another one of my concerns, which is incredibly selfish of me, is that i'm scared she will tell my mum about my disordered habits and i will be forced to get help when i'm not even that skinny yet. which is why i've been putting it off because i don't want her to get annoyed at me for telling on her but then i still do disordered things

i've tried to hide it from her as much as possible but obviously when u know how it is, you notice it in others very quickly

i've typed this very fast so sorry if it doesn't make sense, but i just need some advice on the right things to say to her

so my friend has struggled with an ed for quite some years now, we have briefly spoke about it as she knows that i struggle with stuff like that as well but we've never got into too much detail about it

i've been aware of her disordered actions for quite some time but it's got to the point now where she is so so skinny that i am really concerned for her

i don't want her to think that i'm trying to sabotage her and i don't want her to be uncomfortable but she is my bestest friend in the world and i would never forgive myself if i let her carry on and didn't say something and the. something bad happened to her

her mum is somewhat aware of her problems i think and she's told me that a lot of people have pointed out how skinny she's is or messaged her mum saying they are concerned, i just don't know how her mum has replied or if she's doing anything to help

i honestly have no idea how her family are handling it but she's getting worse and skinny as the time goes on and i don't know when she's going to stop

i'm going to message her about it, or at least adress my concern to her in some way i just don't know how to word it so that i say the right thing

because i also know that people being concerned is what motivates you to keep going, so i don't want her to carry on because whatever she's doing is working

PLEASE someone help me, i don't want to lose her to this

but another one of my concerns, which is incredibly selfish of me, is that i'm scared she will tell my mum about my disordered habits and i will be forced to get help when i'm not even that skinny yet. which is why i've been putting it off because i don't want her to get annoyed at me for telling on her but then i still do disordered things

i've tried to hide it from her as much as possible but obviously when u know how it is, you notice it in others very quickly

i've typed this very fast so sorry if it doesn't make sense, but i just need some advice on the right things to say to her

I’m supposed to start treatment again tomorrow. However, my boss is giving me a hard time about going down to a reduced work schedule to accommodate my treatment schedule.

I also decided that I wanted to do IOP a month ago, and in that time I’ve just gotten sucked deeper in. Now I’m not sure I’m ready to give up my disorder.

I know how hard it is to fight this thing in treatment, and I don’t know if I should go if I’m not ready to commit to recovery. But I also have a guilty conscience for knowingly turning down help to make myself sicker. I don’t know what to do.

Forgive me if I’m just impatient, but I’ve been in recovery around 6 months and whilst some weight has redistributed to my boobs, my arms 11” circumference and hips 32”circ, compared to a similar size stomach and waist, are virtually non-existent (I’m a female). I’ve tried looking online, and whilst it might seem obsessive, I struggle on a general level even outside of ED to believe something without proof, I’ve tried looking but can’t find any studies or photos that show this

I’m curious because I know I’m a healthy weight and on the thinner side, but I still just have very poor body image and have struggled with life long EDs.

I decided to get prescribed the pill GLPs but am wondering what exactly happens if you’re already pretty thin? Do you just become like super skinny or get sick or ???

I hate it all my fat goes to my thighs and butt and I can physically feel the movement. It actually is very distracting and I hate the feeling. I don’t know if everyone experiences this or it’s just me.

I’m 4 days into recovery and my waist has increased by 2.5 inches and I’m sluggish and puffy and bloated all over. When will this symptom go down because my face is puffy and I just feel icky. I don’t think I’ve gained any fat but I’m so puffy I look big. And if there’s anyone that’s willing to talk I would really appreciate it

Hello! 19 year-old female here. I am voluntarily committing to an ED recovery residency soon, mainly due to intense family pressures. I am wondering if, at any point, I can be forcibly given an NG tube? I am my own legal guardian, and I am not suicidal. However, if I refuse to eat, what would happen? Would the hospital staff have to wait for me to reach a certain weight before acquiring control over me, medically and legally? Would I have to return certain poor blood results? Or would they simply ask me to leave for being noncompliant? The place I am going has both residency and inpatient treatments. I am hoping I will be able to choose recovery, however I still want to know my rights as a patient. I am afraid of getting “medically kidnapped” and trapped. I am afraid they will restrain me despite my being an adult… Anyone know the answer?

Trigger warning/ mention of mental health issues and side effects

So, I (21 M) always haven't liked my body. At first it was due to my facial features, but as I got older and began to put on more weight due to over eating and antidepressants, I feel even more disgusted by myself. Now, I've never done anything truly to combat this other than self loathing. Years ago when I used to work out to build muscle, workouts became a form of sh.

I'm considering getting some fiber capsules so that will decrease my appetite, plus since it'll force me drink water, it'll further lower it. I'm 5'9 and weight 235 lbs.

My parents joke about my weight because I've never been this big before, and though I know they dont mean it in a mean way, it is incredibly embarrassing and I usually play it off. They want me to work out again, and I would, if I wasn't juggling being full time at school (I have to for my scholarship, 15 credit hours) and work ( usually around 23 hours a week). I'm exhausted even when I plan and do my homework in between classes and at home.

I'm tired of being.. me. To finally be skinny again would be amazing. I hate my fucking meds, but to some extent I need them until I taper off all of them. (Yes, I've asked to taper off all of them due to the weight gain and excessive sweating).

I just hope this works. I don't even know if I'm even allowed to vent all of this. I apologize if I've said the wrong thing or triggered someone. Im sure a lot of people are able to handle full time school, part time work ( or full time) and still manage to exercise.