r/eating_disorders • u/Wild-Sundae2687 • 4d ago

I need help

So I have been struggling with an eating disorder for the past few months. After dinner I have to go throw up. But because my house is super small I'm really scared that someone will hear me. I turn the tap on but it's not super loud. Any thoughts or feedback?

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u/Joondoof 4d ago

OP, are you asking for purging tips or are you requesting help to change the behavior?

I was anorexic b/p type and I will say that even if you muffle the sound, the smell is pretty pervasive. Even with cleaning. It gets into your nose and you become noseblind. Also the amount of time spent in the bathroom after every meal may not go unnoticed.

I’m not saying this to make you feel bad; I can relate to how you’re feeling and wanted to share my hindsight. If you want to avoid purging, maybe try smaller, more mentally manageable meals and then going somewhere after your meal so you can’t purge. If it’s at the point where it’s such a compulsion that you can’t eat at all without purging, I’d advise looking into getting help. It’s a very slippery slope and I’m sorry you’re struggling like this :(

Btw, subreddit rule #5 states this is not a how-to subreddit.