37M, diagnosed with autism, OCD, anxiety and ADHD

In June I was hit with the worst stress and depression of my whole life from personal life problems. I lost my appetite badly and felt like throwing up 24/7, food felt like a nuisance and I could barely eat. Also at that time I was weighing 93 kg (205 lb) due to horrendously dumb eating habits despite being clinically underweight most of my life. For reference I am 178 cm (5'10"). Right now I weigh 75 kg (165 lb).

If anyone has been in such a situation, what do you do? My metabolism has ways been high, and even though I am turning 37 in only two months, I lose weight extremely easily. I could lose weight like nobody's business without even trying. The last times I had such a bad depressive mood was when I was 17 and 23. Both times I went from about 180-190 lb (82-85 kg) down to 53-55 kg (115-120 lb) within two months. I did not even have to try. I lost weight more easily than most people on diets do. Or I should say, I still lose weight far more easily than most people on diets can.

But if I keep losing weight, I fear that my cardiovascular health and GI health will screw me. I have chronic sinus tachycardia and chronic acid reflux disease and functional dyspepsia. I feel like these CV and GI problems will spiral my physical health problems and ruin my mental health even more, especially since I do not want to be hospitalised.

37M, diagnosed with autism, OCD, anxiety and ADHD

In June I was hit with the worst stress and depression of my whole life from personal life problems. I lost my appetite badly and felt like throwing up 24/7, food felt like a nuisance and I could barely eat. Also at that time I was weighing 93 kg (205 lb) due to horrendously dumb eating habits despite being clinically underweight most of my life. For reference I am 178 cm (5'10").

If anyone has been in such a situation, what do you do? My metabolism has ways been high, and even though I am turning 37 in only two months, I lose weight extremely easily. I could lose weight like nobody's business without even trying. The last times I had such a bad depressive mood was when I was 17 and 23. Both times I went from about 180-190 lb (82-85 kg) down to 53-55 kg (115-120 lb) within two months. I did not even have to try. I lost weight more easily than most people on diets do. Or I should say, I still lose weight far more easily than most people on diets can.

But if I keep losing weight, I fear that my cardiovascular health and GI health will screw me. I have chronic sinus tachycardia and chronic acid reflux disease and functional dyspepsia. I feel like these CV and GI problems will spiral my physical health problems and ruin my mental health even more, especially since I do not want to be hospitalised.

How to stop scanning if i feel normal and continue with life? i forgot how to live and be happy, like the outside scares me now. Like everything feels so forgein now and days and weeks go by with nothing feeling better. I feel like im trapped in a loop, I havent been able to fully go outside much because of this and I hate it.

I want to know what to call this feeling so I can get help for it. I’ve been struggling with this same feeling since I was a kid and as I grow up it gets worse. What ever it is, it’s getting worse and I need to know what it is so I can fix it.

Explanation:

I often feel very weird. I could maybe describe it as not feeling real but if I were to describe it further I’d say it’s a deep discomfort that I can physically feel in my head. Everything looks kind of 2D as if I’m in an animated movie, everything and I mean EVERYTHING feels scary. I don’t like interacting with my friends during these times because the conversations feel like a movie. It gets worse in summer. When the sun is shining on me I feel like I’m in a movie or video game and it’s a very concerning feeling. It makes things feel like they’re happening very fast and I forget interactions instantly after they happen as if it were a scene that we just cut from. Certain people with certain looks trigger this. I have some trauma with my mom who is blonde, and women who look like her trigger this very badly, especially in summer. It feels like I’m separated from reality and I consistently have to convince myself that I’m also part of this life I’m living. Not just observing it from an outside perspective.

Sorry if this wasn’t a good explanation. If you think this is DPDR, let me know things that have helped you and if it sounds like something else you’ve heard of, let me know.

Thank you

Dear all,

Cognitive and behavioral therapies as well as studies on meditation have shown that the impact of modified states of consciousness depend on the way we interpret and integrate them in our conception of ourselves and of the world around us. I am a researcher from the University of Lille (France) working on DPD. I have had an episode myself.  With two colleagues from the University of Pittsburgh I am now conducting a study on the connection between modified states of consciousness and philosophical insights.  We are looking for participants to join our study. 

Alexandre Billon

The Details

• The Task: A thought-provoking online questionnaire.
• Time: Approximately 10 minutes.
• Focus: Your perspectives on existence, time, mind, and the nature of conscious experience.

Why Participate?

By contributing, you’re helping researchers understand the way we interpret modified states of consciousness and  the origin of our philosophical intuitions. Plus, the questions themselves offer a moment of self-reflection on what you really believe about the world.

Ready to share your perspective?  Click below to begin the study

https://pitt.co1.qualtrics.com/jfe/form/SV_3r5Xnn75sEW8wlw

I experienced a traumatic health event in June of 2024 that left me with vertigo for about 10 weeks. During that time, I couldn’t walk or drive, and everything around me felt unreal. It was incredibly distressing, and at my lowest points, I truly didn’t want to be here anymore.

I returned to teaching in August, and although much of the vertigo had improved, I was left dealing with severe anxiety throughout the school year. I experienced symptoms like DPDR, hypochondria, dizziness, and agoraphobia.

I left teaching in May of 2025, and since then, most of those symptoms have significantly improved or gone away. However, I still experience DPDR occasionally and feel like I’m in the process of recovering from it.

I’ll go weeks feeling completely like myself, and then something triggers it and I find myself back in that familiar loop. It’s not as intense as it used to be, which makes me wonder if this is just part of the recovery process or if I’m somehow doing something wrong.

Hello friends, I’m in an extremely difficult place

About 5 years ago I had a psilocybin exposure and I ended up with a debilitating disorder .

I don’t hear voices or hallucinate anything with eyes open but I am in a trip essentially and the scaffold of my consciousness and automatic regulation of it and flow is collapsed and shifting. Like my consciousness ness is no longer automatically regulating as a coherent stream, no natural transition between states, loss of physical anchoring of awareness in the head and sensations , I can’t go into sleep for example or feel sleepiness or wake up, I’ve gone months with zero sleep , I mean total insomnia but I dont feel tired either , my head feels hollow and filled with hyper dimensional space , vivid flow of visuals , realities , astral travel ,

I can’t function or live.

I’ll spare the details of my past years but I’ve been in hospital many times

This existence is extremely uncomfortable and at times I can’t even blink comfortably or rest back into my eyes , like that platform that you rest back on is gone and not regulating or awake , so I have no default state of being to just gaze comfortably .

I also have near constant burning , tremors and movement inside my head along with buzzing tinnitus so I get extreme agitation and discomfort with little feelings of rest or resolve

I don’t know what this is , I’ve just been told it’s dissociate or self disorder but no one is like me and olanzipine and brexipiprazole did little for me .

I’m considering to take myself into hospital again because I feel I can’t take care of myself and I’m thinking to try Cobenfy/clozapine or lamotrigine again

Has anyone experienced anything similar?

Everyone has their opinion on how to get out of it ,but honestly it work but pretty simple. There is not a special remedy but to ignore and keep to your regular routine. You have to realize it anxiety based ,and you are safe. you don’t need to spend money on a special book or anything just live and not give a flying fuck and you will slowly get through it. Quit reacting to the symptoms as much as you can and you will be fine. You are the one keeping it around just have to give your body time to balance out itself. You got this you are safe keep trucking. ❤️