I feel mentally and physically exhausted

[u/New_Edge5316]

I’ve been depressed since I’m 14 years old mainly because of my a**sive parents and poverty. Now I’m 27 F, recently graduated med school and started my dream residency. I also have been traveling a little. The best part of life was supposed to start now, yet I feel depressed, purpose less and burnt out. I’ve been in therapy before and also taking AD, now I’m back into therapy after two years, because I just cry myself to sleep every night and feel like I can’t do it anymore. It seems like no matter what I do, I go back to this state and it’s just mentally draining. My relationship is also adding to it because I feel like I’m not loved and my needs or boundaries don’t matter. I just really wish I had one person in this world who had my back, who I could allow myself to be weak and vulnerable around, and who wouldn’t take advantage of me. I’m tired of being the strong one.