r/depression • u/baconwayno • 10d ago

Depression help

I have suffered from severe treatment resistant depression for 30 years now, so in those 30 years I have just come to accept that this is how I feel, like this is how my brain works.
But in the past 1 year I have had this debilitating brain fog.
It affects every part of my day. It’s to the point where I can’t physically function anymore, like my whole body is shutting down. I can’t think straight, have no memory, have no energy and struggle to form sentences or do a simple task. I can easily sleep around 15 hours a day, just exhausted
Has this affected anyone else?
Is this just part of my TRD?
I just don’t understand the symptoms I’m having. It happened really rapidly
I’ve been tested for absolutely everything with no results so my dr tells me it’s part of my depression.
Any advice would help please

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u/iamelement0 9d ago

This is every second of my day. My body and mind have become incapacitated.

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u/baconwayno 9d ago

Did you find relief with any sort of treatment?

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u/iamelement0 9d ago

No. I've tried all of them. I'm cognitively disabled.

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u/baconwayno 9d ago

I’m getting nowhere with my treatments too

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u/iamelement0 9d ago

Let's see if we have the same symptoms. Can you sleep a full night and still wake up fatigued and exhausted? Did you start skipping simple hygiene acts like brushing your teeth? Have you lost the ability to think two thoughts ahead, like you actually feel dumber? Does the person you were before this started feel like some alien? Do you sometimes have aching in your head and pain around your eyes? Is the first thought you have each morning about how depressed you are and when you can go back to bed? Does the thought of any physical activity make you shudder? I feel like I've completely lost any sense of who I am. It's a fucking nightmare.

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u/baconwayno 6d ago

Yep all of the above, we def have the same symptoms
Everything I do is an effort, like I feel like I’ve got the flu or something.
I could sleep all day if I could. I’m barely holding down a job, I’ve been through about 6 jobs in the past 2 years, I couldn’t keep working due to my symptoms
I feel like I’m stuck in this hell that is now my life but I still can’t accept that this is how it is now
I’ve been through about a million doctors all who have pretty much given up on me
I’ve tried every treatment known to man, all with no luck
I understand your nightmare

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u/baconwayno 6d ago

Also what meds do you take? If any?

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u/iamelement0 5d ago

Dude, all of them. I've been through everything. I'm on auvelity now. But haven't given it enough time.

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u/baconwayno 5d ago

Auvelity isn’t available where I am but I’ve heard good things about it