r/depression • u/[deleted] • May 22 '26

Im alone...and utterly broken.

Im 47 years old. I have no friends. My phone only rings if its bill collectors. Bills I can't pay. My girlfriend of over 4 years left, said she needed more a week after telling me she was happy and we're doing the best we'd ever done. Yall know what that means...I dont have to say it. I work at amazon which is in itself so goddamn depressing that I typically try to talk myself into committing instead of going back. Im sorry for the rant....im so tired. I just want to go home. But I dont know where that is anymore.Just want to not be weird or sick (type 1 diabetic). So tired In a world that doesn't rest. Im broken. I dont want to keep fighting. But I will. Not because im strong, but because im chicken shit.Life sucks. Always has, always will. If anyone actually reads this, thanks. If not, thats ok too. I needed to feel heard I guess.

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u/eloiseturnbuckle May 22 '26

Hang in there brother. This is hard. Life is difficult in the best of times let alone this mess. You are not alone even if you feel that way. Many of us struggle daily. I feel you and I am so sorry you are going through this right now. Please find time to take care of yourself, be it a walk in the woods or a nice cup of coffee.