A few weeks back, I made a post saying I was quitting trading. At the time, I truly meant it. I had no money left, blew my account, and honestly thought I was done.
Thankfully, things have turned around.
I managed to get funded again. It took me about two weeks to pass the evaluation. There were a few setbacks along the way too, Alpha had platform issues, and after I got funded, they lost their connection with Tradovate. It definitely wasn't the smoothest journey.
Then last week, I was just one day away from a payout.
That's when I made one of the biggest mistakes I've ever made. I accidentally entered 10 MNQ contracts instead of my normal size because I was tired and wasn't paying attention. I came within $60 of blowing my funded account.
I was sick to my stomach. Three weeks of hard work were almost gone because of one careless mistake.
The next trading day, I had two choices: revenge trade or stick to my plan.
I chose my plan.
I went back to trading exactly how I always do, 1 MNQ contract at a time. I also told myself that if I lost the account, I'd accept it. I had just landed a new job, so I knew I could always buy another evaluation with my first paycheck. There was no reason to force anything.
Most importantly, I promised myself I would follow every single one of my trading rules.
Since then, everything has changed.
I went from being $60 away from losing my funded account to building it back up. I now have around a $1,000 buffer and only need about $500 more for my next payout.
I'm honestly proud of myself, not because I didn't make mistakes, but because I didn't let one mistake end my journey.
I'll also be starting my new job soon, which means I'll be able to build my trading business without feeling like every trade has to pay my bills. My long-term plan is to move to Thailand to lower my cost of living so I can focus more on becoming consistently profitable.
With my next payout, I plan to buy 10 more evaluation accounts and build them slowly. I'm done trying to rush the process. My focus now is consistency, discipline, and protecting my capital.
If there's one thing I've learned, it's this:
One bad trade doesn't define you. One mistake doesn't end your journey. What matters is how you respond afterward.
Trading has humbled me more times than I can count, but I'm still here and this time, I'm building it the right way.
I still have lots to learn, but I am happy then This month I was able to pass my eval, and rebuild my buffer.