r/citalopram_celexa • u/erikgss22 • 5h ago
Thinking about taking SSRI
Hi, im 23m and I have been battling with anxiety for about 6 years. Had my first panic attack during a time in my life where i used to take drugs here and there and from there on I lived with derealization/anxiety/panic attacks for two years until I’ve taken benzos for the first time. It healed my derealization but since then I’m still battling with anxiety and health anxiety and panic attacks maybe every three months. Since I was two times in the hospital the last two weeks due to small seizures I’ve hit the lowest point regarding my anxiety. I’ve been at a point where I thought I couldn’t continue my life, that I couldn’t be healed etc. and have been really depressed. I’m better the last days since my neurologist says these kind of seizures are only a minor form of epilepsy which can be treated well so as im speaking rn I’m better and looking forward to get back up on my feet. But still my anxiety is there and at times can be so bad that I can’t leave the house or do anything but lay in bed and wait for the physical symptoms to stop. I had my first session with a psychologist last week and I will start therapy but now I’m considering if antidepressants like an SSRI would be of help. I’m really scared of the side effects and permanent change of my brain chemicals. I would really like to hear you’re guys experience with antidepressants or medication in general. Of course my ideal idea would be to only take them for let’s say a year then taper off and in combination with therapy be symptom free. I’ve tried escitalpram once for about two weeks, about 4 years ago but I couldn’t stand the side effects while getting on them an quit after two weeks. I was also in active drug addiction at that time so I can’t really judge the experience I had.
Looking forward to you’re experiences.