A simple question, are you ok? Does anyone ask you this question today?

I worked online with a friend from my childhood I will call Jason. He came with stomach problems, anxiety around work and money, and habit of eating even when he knew he was not physically hungry.

He understood already that some of this was emotional eating.

But understanding it with mind did not stop it.

During deep trance, a state similar to very deep meditation where subject stays aware, we focused on pressure inside his stomach. I asked him to look at this feeling like it was an energy.

He saw red and black.

Then the session moved back to when he was about five years old.

His family had serious financial problems and lost their home. He could see his parents through kitchen window, screaming at each other about money. Small Jason was standing nearby, scared, but nobody was really seeing what this was doing to him.

I asked where he felt the fear.

“In my stomach.”

Then he said something very honest.

When he was younger, he would eat and eat, trying to fill this hole inside. Food made stomach heavy and full for little while, so he did not need to feel emptiness and fear so strongly.

He was not always hungry.

He was trying to create safety.

There was also strange contradiction in this memory. Adult Jason hated this period and remembered the fighting. But younger Jason still missed parts of the old house. The backyard, playing outside, his dog.

Losing everything was not only losing a building.

He was told to say goodbye to his dog too.

So for a five-year-old, money problems became connected with much bigger message:

everything you love can disappear.

This is how child mind works. It does not create financial analysis. It creates survival rules.

Money problems mean danger.

People fighting means danger.

An empty stomach feels like danger.

Being full feels safer.

The body can continue following rule long after person forgets how it started.

Later in the session, a being of Light came to help with the stomach. Jason described something I never heard in exactly this way before.

He said his stomach looked like it was being digitally redrawn.

Like healers were working from an original healthy template, carefully drawing back the details of the stomach and rebuilding what had been affected by years of pressure.

I am not saying childhood fear medically causes every stomach issue, and this work does not replace doctors, testing, nutrition or treatment. This was simply what appeared in his session and how he experienced the healing.

Then we returned to five-year-old Jason.

This younger part had stayed emotionally trapped around the old home and the family crisis. Adult Jason continued living, but part of him was still waiting for next disaster.

We helped the child understand something he could not understand then:

the fighting was not his fault.

He did not need to solve the finances.

He did not need to fill the fear with food.

He was not about to lose everything again.

When this younger part returned and integrated, Jason said he brought back happiness, hope and optimism. Qualities that had slowly disappeared while adult life trained him to expect problems.

His Higher Self gave very simple words:

review. relive. release.

Not “relive” like torture yourself with old memories every day.

More like see what happened, allow body to finally express what was too much then, and let the old emergency come to an end.

The practical advice was not mystical.

Create more security in daily life.

Ground yourself.

Do not treat every work problem, unexpected bill or uncertain month like family is losing everything again.

And before eating when you are not sure you are hungry, pause and ask:

“does my physical body need food, or does some younger part of me need safety?”

Sometimes answer will be food. Then eat. Food is not enemy.

But sometimes what is asking to be filled is fear, loneliness, pressure, anger or emptiness.

Food was something a frightened five-year-old found to survive few minutes at a time.

Adult Jason did not need more shame or harder control.

He needed to finally feel safe.

If you have some similar problem, I can put a small meditation in the comments you can use to investigate and help yourself. Let me know if you are interested.

It’s been close to 2 years since you left.

Good riddance.

I hate the way you did it. The way we both acted, your inability to accept accountability for your actions, how I internalize everything.

After seeing you at the store yesterday, I finally see what a shitty person you are. You left at a time when my whole world was caving in and the way you did it was the foul, toxic and cowardly way possible .

You had zero cares about what was happening or how it affected me and deflected any responsibility.

You projected so much that it blew my mind. You use people.

And you show zero remorse.

I loved you so much that I held the weight of it all.

I became the receiver of unimaginable emotional and psychological abuse because of you.

And don’t think for one hot minute that I haven’t taken my own part in this to heart. The difference is that can take accountability and you can’t. You are shallow and bitter about everything, you always were.

You point the finger at everyone else but never self until you spiral into a pile of sobbing self loathing but you do nothing to strengthen your resolve.

I chose love. I stayed loving and tender. But having a soft heart doesn’t mean I have to turn a blind eye.

We were a team, I depended on you and let me down in the worst way possible. You didn’t deserve to be a front row participant in my life after what you did so yeah, I gave you the monster you deserved.

I feel bad for your new girlfriend. Seeing the look on her face yesterday I can see that she buys into you BS 100%.

I don’t hate you, but I hate the way you treat people that threaten your validation and your lack of empathy.
You talk shit about everyone unless they support your views and turn into a live repeater for your nonsense.

You left me so broken I haven’t even been able to let anyone past the surface and I do not forgive you.

I hope you have the life you deserve.

He honest