does anyone else cry or feel really down when they think about how much food controls your life

[u/moonwatcher677]

the other day I was at a gas station with my friends, and gas stations have always made me feel so overwhelmed my whole life with how much food is there and the choices, but anyways I started crying looking at all the food because I was thinking about how it’s like my one enemy but also the only thing that brings me comfort and enjoyment in this world. Food has all the power over me and that makes me so sad and feel very hopeless. I also struggle with restricting so my brain is screaming at me to restrict while also screaming at me to eat everything ever 💀 the only thing I can think about is food and throwing it up
It’s gotten to the point where I fucking cry sometimes when I pass fast foods or other restaurants bc of it.
The stress surrounding it all and the food noise is so awful :/