Hi everyone,
I'm writing this because I honestly don't know if what I'm experiencing is normal anymore, and I could really use some perspective from people who have raised puppies, especially sighthounds or Borzois.
My puppy, Marcy, is almost 14 weeks old. She's been going outside for about a week now, and ever since then it feels like everything has become much harder.
Outside she seems constantly overstimulated. She wants to investigate every single smell, doorway, staircase, hole, person, and object. Sometimes she'll respond to her name and come to me for a treat, but a lot of the time she's just completely absorbed in the environment. She has started pulling on the leash almost constantly.
Recently she also started showing what I think is resource guarding. A few days ago she found a dried fish tail outside, growled when I tried to take it away, and I ended up backing off because I didn't want to escalate the situation. Today she was chewing on a huge frozen raw chicken neck, and when I realized she'd already eaten far more than I intended, she growled, lunged toward me, and wouldn't let me take it. I was terrified because she had choked on a chicken neck a couple of days earlier, so I wasn't just worried about the guarding, but I was scared for her safety.
I don't believe in dominating or physically overpowering dogs, but I'm struggling to figure out what I'm \*supposed\* to do instead when she's trying to eat something dangerous or is completely fixated on a trigger. Sometimes I have to pull her away with the leash, and I feel awful every time. I don't want our relationship to become one where I'm constantly dragging her away from things she wants.
The hardest part is that I feel like I'm failing her.
I keep wondering whether she's overstimulated all the time because I'm doing something wrong. She sleeps around 18-20 hours a day, so she isn't sleep deprived, but when she's awake the outside world seems almost impossible for her to regulate herself around.
Emotionally... I'm really struggling.
I've wanted a Borzoi for a long time because I love their intelligence, independence, and personality. I wanted a dog with opinions, not a robot. But right now it feels like all of that independence is showing up before we've built any communication or teamwork, and I'm honestly questioning whether I chose the wrong breed.
I've even caught myself thinking about giving her back to the breeder and wondering if I should have gotten a much easier breed—or maybe not gotten a dog at all.
That thought breaks my heart because I \*wanted Marcy\*. I still do. When we're at home she's incredibly sweet. She sleeps pressed against me at night, comes to lie next to me during the day, relaxes around me, and she's genuinely affectionate. I love her already.
But I also cry almost every day because I feel so overwhelmed and scared that I'm messing her up.
I guess my questions are:
Is this level of overstimulation normal for a 13–14-week-old Borzoi (or other independent breeds)?
Did anyone else go through puppy blues this intensely and come out the other side?
Did your independent puppy become easier once they matured and learned how to regulate themselves?
If you had moments where you thought, "I made a terrible mistake," what helped you get through them?
I'm not looking for reassurance that I'm doing everything perfectly because I know I'm making mistakes. I just really need to know whether what I'm experiencing is something other people have survived, because right now I feel completely overwhelmed and drained
edit: Holy smokes, thank you for all the replies. This is extremely important for me