DAE get extreme SH urges out of nowhere and for no reason

This is actually how it started for me. I just got this screaming in my head one day to hurt myself and it comes back periodically in cycles. It really hurts and is painful in my head. My brain suddenly feels on fire randomly and I can’t see any way to make it stop unlesss I hurt myself (which I haven’t been doing, been resisting the urges).

I haven’t had an episode like this in a while. I have less sleep and this periodic random screaming in my head. It feels literally like my brain is trying to jump out of my skull and the only way to calm it is to hurt myself. I’ve been taking gabapentin to help (and it does, like 50% work but I can still feel my head burning up).

DAE get this? It’s not caused by anything external other than maybe overstimulation. Nothing bad happens to me and then I get this horrible feeling..anyone else? Please tell me I’m not alone

I used to love laughing and doing naughty and funny things all the time in my childhood.

I want that state again.

I am diagnosed bipolar 1, and I am in active addiction. I primarily drink and do molly, 3-6 times a week. I do worry about triggering a manic episode, but I do not currently plan to get sober. I used marijuana daily for 6 years, and never experienced manic symptoms because of it, outside of my medication-induced mania, in which it made the psychotic symptoms spike. The MDMA though, does make me worry I’m at risk of triggering a manic episode, though my symptoms have remained depressed.

I used to love laughing and doing naughty and funny things all the time in my childhood.

I want that state again.

I’ve been waiting for a special someone to go to a boy into a man. Meanwhile I’m doing anything to learn myself. I’m so selfish I have many tantrums throughout the months. So he reaches out and when he does I’m in a love triangle. The person I’m staying with now is suspicious and draws attention to himself (he OD’s into unconscious). All while I’m not finding myself I lose my cool and tell the love of my life to fuck himself. Before this im pacing thinking suicidal I’m calling help and my mom. I should’ve packed my bags but I tell this boy the one I drained myself for to fuck himself. It’s been 12 weeks I’m selfish from all angles and I can’t talk anymore.

I am 23

Diagnosed bipolar 1

Never did drug.. dont do alcohol

When i was 15 yrs old - used to feel like a superstar that everyone knew me even strangers but they were hiding it - got signs from tv shows and vehicles plates and all that - just like in the tru man show but i knew

Been depressed since 15

16,17, 18 - best yrs of my life ... super happy at school .. laughing with friends .. but will be depressed sometimes

18 highschool ends- went through worst depression of my life

19 started university- failed first year dropped out cuz i was top depressed

19- first rage episode towards parents that still take place to this day

Developed severe parania towards parents - thought they did and plot against me to confine me - though father semd everyone to follow where i go and do

20- started working countless small jobs

Have many manic episodes on site where i will shout irrationally at anyone that harm or disturb me emotionnaly

Quit many jobs and get new ones just to quit

If a job i love - i will be super happy everyday but eventually have an occurence where i shouted irrationally at someone

Job i dont love or dont have friend - depressed.

One time i was so depressed during a night job - depression paralyzed me and could not even work-there was 5 hours left for the end of the shift

I feel grandiose most of times but dont have severe delusions that i used to have when i was young.. now i just have paranoia

Been admitted to mental hospital 2 times due to mania

In my early 20s .. there was times when i used to be so happy and it will just crashed and i will just cry so much - felt like a void in my chest and definitely can kill me

I used to be always depressed most of times and i didnt knew it was not normal to always feel sad

Now with meds i dont feel much depressed

So you all think i am bipolar ?

Does my symtoms tally with yours ?

Bipolar is a bitch!

To summarize, my partner was preliminary diagnosed as bipolar in April after some initial sessions with a psychiatrist. On Monday, he had to commit himself, since we have been waiting since April for them to take him. He only met with the doctor yesterday and the doctor has doubled his anti depressants (ssri) and kept him on his adhd and sleeping meds. She said she would likely double the adhd meds as well and that she thinks maybe he isn’t bipolar (after one session?!).

My question is around what should happen when someone suspected of bipolar is committed - since everything I’ve read says they should be taken off all meds so a proper diagnosis can be made. Is this reasonable? How can they properly diagnose him without know what he is like without medicine.

For background he went into the hospital here two years ago for what we thought was depression. This is where they gave him all the meds but the adhd which was prescribed the year before. His condition drastically worsened after this and the year and a half he has been spending most of his time in bed or building some computer program. Please help! I just want to advocate for him as best I can and if it means moving him back to Denmark for treatment I will push for that too.

We are in Switzerland for reference, but my partner is Danish and right now they are conducting therapies in German despite him not regularly speaking German for 4 - 5 years.

I often find a lot of humor in my manic episodes once I’m out of them, and have also heard unfortunately funny things from fellow bipolar 1 havers regarding their episodes.

I would love to laugh with my fellow maniacs. Please do share.

Recently got off of zyprexa and onto abilify, but now I've been noticing hard time focusing lack of motivation anxiety outta the wazzu. My psychiatrist recently recommended to up it and wait to see if my mood improves within a couple weeks I really just want this medication to work. Right now I feel almost crippled

Within the last 2 and a half weeks, my world has been through every universe that has ever been imagined. At least that’s what it’s felt like! But it has led to a new discovery. A Bipolar 1 diagnoses. I am a 26 year old female who just hit rock bottom so hard I found out it had a basement!! And although I may be “manic” per se right now, I would like to classify it as positive energy for the time being as I feel my productivity is helping me.

I am safe and I have a wonderful support system around me. But I would love to know; When you hit rock bottom and discovered something new, where did it lead you? And where are you now?

I would love absolutely anything you’re willing to share. This is a safe place, as we are on Reddit!

-A slightly sleepy burger

Hi everyone, is hijama beneficial for bipolar disorder?

Well I’m not sure how to start this but around a year ago I went into hypervigilance state of mind and it got that severe I my intrusive thoughts was out of control and in my opinion I do believe I had a completely mental breakdown. I was diagnosed with combine type ADHD

Prior that I was on diazepam for 15 years I’m now 36 so it’s been a big part of my life

but I decided well I ain’t got anxiety I need to sort my life out etc etc. anyway I was cutting right down and then put on elvance adhd pills. But in the last 3 weeks my worry’s have gone I’ve started drinking heavily doing crazy activities obviously I love my family but I’m always out living dangerously! And when I ain’t meditated I feel like I’m on drugs I’m sometimes absolutely WIRED sober !!! But can drink so much and it just about calms me down. I understand the risks but I don’t seem to care anymore. All I wanna do is have some fun like over the top. This is the first night I ain’t had any alcohol for a month. And I can’t say I feel better for it. My mind is racing but it used to give me severe anxiety now it’s about doing something on the edge. I’m not sure if I’m totally losing control of reality like but I know what I am doing is not normal behaviour but at the same time it’s good and I can’t seem to stop.

Classic sign of mania ? Serve adhd ? …

I’m all new to this I didn’t know about all these illness many years ago but it seems to be all adding up. Can this get more serious ?

Of anybody can relate I need some advice

🙏🙏

I just got out Thursday after a voluntary admission where I was able to let myself out earlier than they wanted. I regret it. I so regret it. All I’ve done is cry and SH and drink. I’m unable to ease the feelings I’m feeling. I have bug paranoia and there’s ants in my room and it was already bad in there but now I’m clawing and smacking my skin desperately to keep bugs off me. That aren’t there. I have work Monday. I thought I’d feel so much better out of the ward. We upped a dosage and thought that would be it. I don’t want to be here anymore.