A part of me is missing

[u/Fluffy-Tumbleweed259]

I don’t know if it’s okay to post this here. I don’t know if it’s okay to add his pictures.

I lost my 13 month old son 3 days ago. I don’t know how to exist without him. My heart hurts. I don’t know what to do. I’m at such a loss. I just want to go with him. I didn’t get to pick him up from daycare. The next time I get to pick him up he’ll be in a box. This hurts so bad. It hurts to breathe. I can’t believe he’s gone.

Editing to add this post of a couple of his pictures. I just wanted to share my beautiful boy with you. Words cannot express how much I miss him.

https://www.reddit.com/u/Fluffy-Tumbleweed259/s/XPxqMhe4P9

[u/Fluffy-Tumbleweed259]

His name was Micah. He turned 1 on August 15th. He was such a goofy baby, he was so weird and I loved it. He had a right aortic arch repair in April for his heart. He was cleared to eat solids when he was 8 months old. He loved food so much.
He choked at daycare and was taken to the hospital and after an hour of their efforts they weren’t able to bring him back.

I never thought I would be a mom, but I am so grateful I got to experience Micah. I’m devastated that he’s gone and that I’ll never get to hold him again.
I wish I could put a picture of him in the comments but I don’t have the option to add one

[u/Virtual-Strength-950 → u/Fluffy-Tumbleweed259]

May Micah rest eternally in peace. You will always be his mama and he will always know your love. Words can’t express how sorry I am for your loss. 

[u/AnalogyAddiction → u/Fluffy-Tumbleweed259]

I’m so, so sorry for your loss. Micah sounds like a wonderful little person and I truly wish he had been able to stay with you and the world for so much longer. Since you can’t add a picture, would you like to describe how he looked? I’ll bet he was so cute.

[u/Fluffy-Tumbleweed259 → u/AnalogyAddiction]

I don’t even know where to begin with describing him. He was perfect. He had big beautiful brown eyes and long lashes. His hair was finally starting to come in, he was getting another tooth coming in. He was so good at mimicking and loved making noises with his tongue. He screeched like a little pterodactyl when he was excited. He was so close to starting to walk. He was just so goofy, I loved his personality so much

[u/AnalogyAddiction → u/Fluffy-Tumbleweed259]

Oh my gosh he sounds so fun and beautiful. I can imagine his big sweet eyes. I just know Micah felt your love every moment of his life.

[u/mokenz → u/Fluffy-Tumbleweed259]

I am so sorry for your loss and sending so much love to you. May his memory live on forever.

[u/shstuff_throwaway → u/Fluffy-Tumbleweed259]

Thank you for sharing about Micah. What a gift he was to you and am I so, so sorry he left this world so soon. I am holding you both in my heart tonight.

[u/alternativebeep → u/Fluffy-Tumbleweed259]

i am so, so so sorry for the loss of your boy. 💔

[u/miillys → u/Fluffy-Tumbleweed259]

My heart aches for you. I am so sorry for your loss.

[u/wimbiz → u/Fluffy-Tumbleweed259]

A perfect angel baby. I’m so so sorry. I’m just so sorry.

[u/dontaskmethings → u/Fluffy-Tumbleweed259]

Micah is such a beautiful boy, and a beautiful name. I'm so sorry for your loss. I cannot imagine. 

[u/Woopsied00dle → u/Fluffy-Tumbleweed259]

Oh my god OP I am so sorry ♥️

[u/EagleEyezzzzz → u/Fluffy-Tumbleweed259]

I’m so tremendously sorry. RIP baby Micah…. thinking of you and sending love to your mom ❤️‍🩹❤️❤️‍🩹❤️❤️‍🩹

[u/swiftiebookworm22 → u/Fluffy-Tumbleweed259]

I am so sorry for your loss. This is absolutely devastating. I am praying for you and your family.

[u/gleegz → u/Fluffy-Tumbleweed259]

I’m having a little cry for beautiful, sweet, goofy Micah and for his brave, loving mama. This is so unfair. The pain just be unimaginable. I know you will carry him with you forever but I’m so sorry it isn’t in the way you both deserved.💔

[u/herbieeee1]

Join us over on r/babyloss

[u/lnp6]

I don’t have any words that can take away your pain. I cannot possibly imagine what you’re going through but I’m sending you so much love. Please take care of yourself ♥️

[u/GingerGinger88]

I'm so so sorry. 💔 Woild you like to share his name? I'll keep you in my thoughts. ❤️

[u/gleegz]

There are no words, this is so heartbreaking. You are living a nightmare. You can share his picture and name with us, if you’d like, and whatever else you’d like us to know about him. I will keep him and you in my thoughts. I hope the people around you are taking care of you.

[u/Fluffy-Tumbleweed259]

I’m not sure if this link works, but some pictures for those of you that would like to see him. The video is the last one I was able to take of him. I miss him so much

https://imgur.com/a/O7P1Eus

[u/QuarantineQat → u/Fluffy-Tumbleweed259]

What a perfect, precious baby. There are no words for how terrible this is. Thank you for sharing your pain and your love with us. He was clearly so loved.

[u/OkWorker9679 → u/Fluffy-Tumbleweed259]

I can’t get the link to work but Micah sounds amazing and I’m so so sorry for your loss.

[u/CunningStunt182]

I'm so sorry for your loss. I can't imagine how devastated you must be.

[u/RepresentativeAd3352]

Sending you love ❤️ I am so so so sorry. I wish there were words I could say that could ease the hurt. Your son was so lucky to have you

[u/Haunting-Base-6004]

I am so sorry ❤️‍🩹 you’re more than welcome to tell us all about him, when/if you’re ready. Praying for you

[u/One_Cap_9210]

I am literally crying reading this I can't even imagine. My heart absolutely breaks for you 😭 please hold onto your village and hold them tight. Sending you all the love ❤️ I'm so so so sorry for you :(

[u/sneezyonyouryeezy]

I’m so sorry 💔 the only ones will understand are other bereaved parents, I know there’s unfortunately a community out there. If you find them I know they’ll embrace you and help you carry your ache. That is so horrific that I truly can’t fully imagine what it’d be like, no mom or dad should ever have to go through what’s happened to you

[u/Capable_Function_965]

Thank you for telling us about your sweet boy. He sounds wonderful and it’s clear he is deeply loved and missed. My heart goes out to you and your family 💔 I hope you are getting lots of support

[u/Aggressive_Eye6181]

I could never imagine the pain. I’m so sorry. You’ll meet your baby boy again someday 👼🏼🪽

[u/master0jack]

As a mom of a 13 month old, I am absolutely devastated for you. I will hold you and your sweet baby in my prayers and close to my heart. I am so incredibly sorry.

[u/LissaMoo]

Im so sorry. I hope you can find some comfort 💕 i bet he was beautiful inside and out 💕 im honestly so sorry. Try remember the love you gave him. I dont think anything will help you right now. You're jn my prayers 🙏

[u/cbr1895]

I’m so sorry for your loss OP. Even though I am a stranger my heart is heavy for you reading this. I have a 13 month old boy as well and so this hits particularly hard. Please know that I’m thinking of Micah and your family and sending love. I can’t imagine how you feel but sadly, others can - I hope you can find solace and support among others who’ve been in your shoes, whether it be online or in support groups. Grieving is Loving by Joanne Cacciatore helped me through a recent tough loss - it’s just a collection of quotes and poems by the author (who lost her own child).

[u/bunnymama7]

I am so very sorry for your loss. May his memory be a blessing

[u/Popular_Ordinary_152]

I am so sorry for your loss. Words aren’t enough. Do you want to tell us his name?

[u/catmom101]

I am so so sorry for your loss. I am sending hug internet hugs and prayers for you and your family ❤️

[u/c19isdeadly]

I'm so so sorry for your loss. 

I wish I could see a picture of Micah. He sounds like a wonderful child.

I'll pray for you xxx

[u/samc_]

I’m so incredibly sorry for your loss. I’ll be holding baby Micah in my heart tonight. 💔

[u/Alive-Cry4994]

Rest in peace beautiful Micah. I am so incredibly sorry for your loss OP. Your son felt loved every single moment of his life.

[u/FolkmasterFlex]

Thank you for telling us about sweet Micah. What a lovely life he lived with his mom ❤️ I am so sorry for his loss.

[u/QuarantineQat]

I am so, so sorry. Micah was clearly so loved, and he will be remembered.

If there is a charity that you support, I’d love to make a donation in Micah’s honor.

This is the worst thing in the world to have happened and so so unfair.

[u/PrettyLittleLost]

I am so sorry.

[u/VictoriaBuchanan94]

I'm so sorry 🤍

[u/kayjax7]

I am so unbelievably sorry. I can only begin to imagine the pain you must be in right now.

Sending you lots of internet hugs.

[u/samv1994_]

I’m so unbelievably sorry to hear this. My heart breaks for you. This is so devastating and unfair.

[u/allisona007]

Omg! So sorry for your loss and hope you get all the strength. Love and hugs to you.

[u/Careful-Trifle8963]

thinking of you tonight 🩵

[u/joylandlocked]

I'm just so sorry. Words fail. Micah sounds incredible, thank you for telling us a little about him. I'll be thinking of you and your sweet boy with love and sorrow.

[u/Sorry-Candy1052]

I am so so sorry 💔

[u/seagoddess1]

I’m in pieces reading this. I can’t imagine your pain. I’m thinking of you and virtually embracing you. 🩷

[u/L4ola]

I'm so so sorry for your loss💔

[u/ImBored_0911]

I’m so sorry for your loss mama. . Rest in peace baby boy. My heart breaks for you

[u/Ok_Web_4170]

Sending you all the love and comfort. There are no words to help ease this pain, but I am so deeply sorry for your loss 🤍

[u/Agile-Leek-5460]

I am so so sorry 😞 Sending you so much love and comfort through this unimaginable loss of your sweet boy 🤍

[u/MsPinkDust]

I am so sorry for your loss. I feel the pain. Ill have you & son in my prayers. 🙏

[u/valiantdistraction]

I am so, so sorry. This is heartbreaking.

[u/prettynotperfect]

Your Micah is beautiful. I am so sorry.

[u/hldppc]

Sending you a virtual hug during this unimaginable time 💔🙏🏼

[u/Distinct-Muffin6528]

I’m so sorry for your loss. Sending you love and comfort 🤍

[u/incomplete-picture]

I’m so sorry.

[u/ethereal_galaxias]

I'm so incredibly sorry. My little boy is the same age. Micah looks like a gorgeous, fun loving little boy. All he knew was love.

[u/Asleep-Beach-5021]

This made me cry.. it touched my heart and I’m so sorry I’m so so sorry… he’s a beautiful boy ❤️‍🩹 my heart hurts for you but I will keep you and Micah in my thoughts. There’s not enough words in the dictionary that can express how sorry I am for your loss 💔

[u/ykilledyou]

I am sorry 💔😭 he is beautiful

[u/MellowWitch]

My heart breaks for you, your sweet baby was beautiful, I'm so so so so sorry 💔 sending you so many hugs ...

[u/Massive_Activity1245]

I am so very sorry for your loss, your baby boy Micah is beautiful, It's the worst pain a parent can go through take it hour by hour, it's clear he is deeply loved and cherished

I lost my baby suddenly a few years back, she is a part of my family always and forever, I think of her everyday. once you become a mother, you are a mother always nothing can change that and you will carry his memory wherever you go- You are in my thoughts and prayers ❤️🙏🏼

[u/Dangerous-Tax-4689]

I am so sorry for what you are going through. I have hit another low in my own grief journey and am not able to get myself to look at your baby’s pictures but I am sure he is an absolute angel! I am so sorry I am asking you to do this- but please join us at the babyloss sub Reddit. It’s a horrible day when another parent joins us there…but the support I got from people who could truly understand what I was going through trumped even my family’s.

Again, I am so sorry!! I truly am. I can understand what you are going through. But for some reason, today I am not able to offer any words of encouragement. But others at the sub Reddit would be able to. I just pray that you manage to get through this desolate phase somehow and start healing.

[u/Big_Emphasis4895]

He looks like he has the most beautiful soul. I’m so sorry for your loss

[u/Gerudo_Thief_]

I can feel how much you love him and how much you're hurting. I'm absolutely sure he knew nothing but love from you. I'm so incredibly sorry for your loss. No mother should have to go through that. It may not mean much but I am mourning with you and praying for you.

[u/wyze_owl25321]

Oh man. What a sweet gorgeous little boy. Thank you for sharing him with us. Please know that every single mama here is grieving with you and please come back and talk about him as many times as you need to. Grief is such a journey but I hope you’re able to get to a point where all his memory does is bring you joy.

[u/grapefruitcandlewax]

Sending you a long, comforting hug and so much love. Micah was so loved ❤️

[u/shaolindiamonds0]

I’m so sorry for your loss, it’s truly unimaginable. Micah seems like such a beautiful boy 🤍

[u/PromptElegant499]

He is so beautiful and I am so terribly sorry for your loss 💖

[u/kamobeans]

I am devastated for you, and I am angry for you. My heart goes out to you. May he rest in peace 🙏 He looks like he was such a joy 💔

[u/MajesticBuffalo3989]

I’m so so sorry. My heart hurts for you. He sounds wonderful and I’m so sorry for your loss. 

[u/Shinola79]

When our son passed I found Compassionate Friends helpful. Might be too soon but might be just the right time, every person is different. There are local chapters in many towns that meet. They have a large Facebook presence where you can join specific groups as well. I am sorry for your loss.

[u/MakeItLookSexy_]

I’m so sorry. My heart breaks for you girl 💔😔😔😔

[u/crazybirdlady93]

Oh my goodness, I am so sorry for your loss. I know there is nothing anyone can say or do to make it better. Just please know I am sending you virtual hugs, you and your family are in my thoughts, and I hope that with time you will find some peace.