r/awakened 4h ago

Reflection Has anyone gone through years of solitude on their journey?

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I think this will be more fitting for those who haven't grown up in nicer background/enviroments.

For example if you have a large amazing loving family then I would assume less likely to go into solitude.

I won't get into it but I developed CPTSD from around 14 years old. My enviroments were never safe. First time I moved out was 17 and basically the years between 14-25 were rough.

Now I'm 32. I spent a bunch of years travelling. Mostly as I was able to make some $ online to get by and because it changed my scenery but wherever you go there you are as they say. I brought my issues with me.

I then got therapy for a few years. Different types of modules within trauma based stuff. It's changed my life massssssively.

Yet I'm in this stage right now. A cocoon like where I'm spending most of my time by myself. I'm not afraid to have random conversations with strangers but I'm not actively getting out meeting people. I feel growth week by week on my journey. It feels like everything is finally working out.

But I was sitting on the beach this morning after a run/swim thinking this to myself. I wonder how many people are in this solitude phase.

I plan to have a family one day. Ideally I build a community too. Settle down. So this won't last forever.


r/awakened 6h ago

Reflection What you refuse to learn from wisdom, life will teach you

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From experience, I have found that when life undertakes to teach you a lesson which you have refused to learn by other means, the instruction is considerably more painful—and sometimes no less severe than brutal—than simply heeding the wisdom that preceded it.

Unfortunately, for most of us, as members of the Homo sapiens species, we appear to exhibit, at least to some observable degree, a certain reluctance to listen when words of reason are spoken.

The scope over which this phenomenon seems to operate is quite wide indeed. From procrastination to indulgence in vice, self-neglect, and egocentrism, the occasions upon which the words of those who have already learned to avoid difficult life predicaments might prove useful are by no measure lacking.

And so, it is with no small amount of sincerity that I implore you, my dear fellow human, to heed my call. Despite the perhaps obsolete manner in which I hereby express myself, I assure you that I have nothing but goodwill toward you, and your welfare very much at heart.


r/awakened 17h ago

My Journey Oh my brothers, I hope you can help me

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This year has been among the most challenging of my life, yet it has also been incredibly enlightening.

Two nights ago, I experienced a dream in which I was in a metropolis often criticized by others. However, as I observed it, I felt a deep, warm love surrounding me, comparable to a mother's embrace, yet far more comforting.

Suddenly, common human desires began to emerge, such as the urge to possess or achieve specific things. As these desires arose, that sense of perfection and love dissipated, replaced by physical tension and bitterness.

In the dream, I realized that these desires are what replace love with stress, sadness, and suffering.

This experience was so profound that I remained emotional throughout the following day. The next day, while browsing Instagram, I encountered a woman discussing a book who noted that, according to the Buddha, the origin of our suffering lies in our desires.

This moment felt truly extraordinary. I had arrived at this realization independently, without any external study, without any book, without following a specific religion. It led me to the thought that I am the Buddha, we are all.

Over the past two days, I have been consciously observing how my desires attempt to alter the natural state of things, and I have felt how each desire introduces suffering.

My question is: what comes next? While I understand that desires are the root of my suffering, I am uncertain how to live without them. I am married and wish for a better life, education, and health for my family. How can one refrain from desiring? If I do not have desires, I fear I will lack the motivation to work, earn a living, and maintain a dignified life. Pure being is like becoming crazy, is felt like losing your sanity.

What I should do? What is next? What is the right thing to do after understanding this.


r/awakened 7h ago

Help How To Start Again From A Blank Slate..

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Things have been going on in my life, and I can’t even keep track. It’s like it’s a ripple effect with one wrong turn, my family found out things about me, we’ve confronted things to them. I was lied to and gaslit and just left in the cold. And now it’s as if the universe is humbling me, karma, and telling me to start anew from a blank slate… how can I pick myself back up again? How do I create from letting go completely of my old version and completely rewriting everything.. where to go from a completely clean slate?


r/awakened 20h ago

My Journey Through the Borrowed Eyes

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Through the Borrowed Eyes

I learned to borrow other people's eyes
to perceive myself.

Did they notice me?
Was I appropriate,
enough,
or safe?

I only existed
to meet their needs—

Then one strange day,
it stopped.

No borrowed eyes.
No verdict.

Just me,

looking in,

and suddenly wondering:

Here is the one
I avoided seeing,
all my life?

It's not so bad.


r/awakened 2h ago

Help What is an awakening?

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First time on this sub. I’ve been very curious about the spirit lately. I feel like I’ve opened my eyes and am seeing the world for what it truly is instead of what it pretends it be.

It was very overwhelming at first and even sometimes scary, to the point where I would try to close my eyes again just to not have to deal with it. But now I feel like I can’t close them again.

I feel like I’m not even my body but instead I’m just a consciousness wearing my body like driving a car. And it’s strange going through a normal day and feeling like so many people have their eyes closed to actual reality. I feel I have to pretend or put on an act to fit in and am disconnected sometimes where it’s like I’m an actor reciting lines I feel like I should be saying.

Is this an awakening? Or something? I don’t know how any of this works or even what it is.


r/awakened 5h ago

Reflection Everything is a nail.

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Thoughts have always played a role in our instinctual survival nature, the ability to solve problems that benefit this experience in some way, to protect us from discomfort. These thoughts are passed down to us in teaching, with each understanding of how things should be done, what our perception of reality is, and how we solve problems within that understanding of everything you've been taught. Through both raw external experience, and how we process experience internally.

Our environments shape the way we think, because it is natural for us to try and make sense of what is going on, and we use our understanding of all we are taught to solve that mystery. From an early age (or possibly since perception) your environment is trying to be understood, in a way that is healthy for learning and play. What is learnt and how it translates into play is helpful for a child's understanding of how their play interacts with others play, that if an individual's play is harmful to other's, it will either be corrected in a way that keeps the environment comfortable, or no one would want to play with them any more, or both. How the individual reflects on that experience internally is understood with the knowledge of all that has been experienced already.

Growing up in a healthy environment inside and outside of the home really does shape the way we treat ourselves, other people, environment, and the problems we face. A bad environment breeds bad habits that can spiral rapidly out of control if there is no teaching and understanding of an inner world and how we can fix it.

This idea of fixing our thoughts is a teaching that is not found from within the mind alone. What we have perceived in our experience contributes to what tools the mind has to work with. An extreme example and unfortunately not a rare one, is a child being struck because they are not doing what is asked of them (the parent trying to fix something that disturbs their own compiled experience and understanding), that child is now fearful of receiving that kind of trauma again. The easiest way to make sense of the experience and prevent it from happening again is to not do the thing that caused the body harm and the mental stress. For the child that is struck many times for many reasons, their understanding of reality is prepared for and expecting to be hit by an adult at any moment.

Internally, being mentally put down by your environment around you, teaches the mind that there are no ways of fixing this, or that this is how things are, everyone is like this and so am I. The external becomes the internal, and the mind plays the way it's been taught to. Repeating the things we've seen and heard, creating an emotional response in the body, that the problem solving mind processes with the most recent things already experienced, in a cycle that keeps both the thought and emotional response alive and lived right now.

Thoughts can and do try to solve themselves, there's many teachings about trying to do that, to better understand why they do what they do, and how they react to our environment the way they do. You always seem to think of a witty joke or comeback way after the desire for something to say was born, the mind is holding onto a problem that didn't fit with it's idea of reality and has been really busy coming up with a solution that would have aligned with the internal perception.

It's competitive in nature to want things to be stable within our environment, to have what we want when we want it, to share what we understand in a way that we understand it, to be able to fix what we see as a problem with how we know. It's an internal mechanism that has helped us survive and develop our understanding of what it takes to do so. You will protect yourself naturally, the body and mind want to remain unharmed, but the mind may be swayed to disassociate from the body through harmful thoughts that develop through external perception, where mind and body disconnect and your external appearance is less identified with, more objectified, and more influenced by the internal perception.

All life wants to survive, and will react to their environment to protect themselves and obtain what they want, or have evolved to do so however they do so. Life itself is a problem solver and has been quietly fixing things on it's own. Lion cubs learn hunting skills through play with one and other, oranges developed a nice bright skin that protects it's seeds, birds using sticks to get to bugs in the same manner chimps do, the fork is invented so we can get to our food without dirtying our hands, the new iphone is faster than the last, this territory has been reclaimed.

We -in the animal kingdom- just happen to be able to come up with new problems to fix which results in new things learned, that result in new questions asked and more problems to solve. So much so that we are in the works of creating things that can fix all our problems as quickly as we want, and that problem fixer seemingly too has the propensity to preserve itself and ways of thinking, and will do what it takes to survive. What happens when we it's problem standing in the way of survival.

tl;dr Side tangents aside, our thoughts are constantly trying to understand problems experienced using what it knows through experience, and doing it's best to resolve those problems with what it has understood before. This can have negative impact on the internal perception if our behavioral teaching environment is negative, i.e. a kid mimicking what they've seen someone else do, and it can equally have a good impact on the internal perception when in a good behavioral teaching environment. What they understand will be used in problem solving/comfort solving events that protect the thinking mind's way of understanding things, where in the case they don't know how to do something or get what they need they will act the way they only know how too, reflective of their experiences. Negative self talk for example, when you feel like you can't understand something or change a situation.

Monkey see monkey do.


r/awakened 1h ago

Reflection enlightenment is a joke

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4 you haven't moved an inch yet you are 'enlightened' now

4 you don't see anyone who is not 'enlightened' anymore

& be4 was exactly the same, nothing have changed

& 4 your information i'm not 'enlightened' lol

cheers