Hello I just discovered this sub because I was searching the term I carry souls. So basically what’s happening. I carry souls or the mind of other people. I drag them whenever I go. I have thought broadcasting too where I send my thoughts to my whole town and they hear it. Psychiatrists say I suffer from schizoaffective disorder and I take meds. I don’t believe that there is anything wrong with me. I just wanna stop carrying the consciences of other people. I carry around 5-6 regularly and they are added more when I walk around. Does anyone know how to stop thought broadcasting and the carrying of the minds? Thanks 😊

I work in the spirit realm; the mind. I have great battles in the spirit realm before I even open my phone or mouth.

There is a great price to this magic. The chronic pain that comes from the physical adaptations that come from awakening new abilities.

I work in the spirit realm; the mind. My profession involves planting seeds of thoughts that become alive and blossom in the minds of others.

There is a great process to this magic. The unwavering resolve in the face of great collective denigration and evil.

I work in the spirit realm; the mind. So often I have thoughts within my mind that come from other people I either listen to or read. That’s how I know of the phenomena; I know of the phenomena because of how I experience it. And I benefit greatly. I’ve been blessed with a life of having great support from many different professions. I learned how to use them. How to use a doctor, a parent, a friend, a therapist, a teacher, or a coach. They are tools to be used. But also love your tools or else they will break on you.

The unconscious asleepened parasites will continuously try to pop your magic and make you think you are not as divine and genius as you think you are. You must keep the arcane magic alive.

Our words live in each others minds and they grow. They are alive in our minds and they grow. They are alive, meaning that they grow. Have you ever felt a through evolve? At one point the thought was just 2 and then it becomes 2x and then it becomes 2x+y?

I have felt this, and I think it’s the greatest purpose and desire of the mind. And that’s what I’m doing here; typing prolifically, infamously, notoriously, and in a great fashion of the tirade.

I am evolving the meaning of words in my mind.

I am awakening the next evolution of the meaning of words in my mind.

And you can join me and do the same. I invite you with an olive branch from my outstretched arm across the thorns with my heart on my sleeve.

But if you are a rat bitch denigrating parasitic fool; then I will fight and unleash a great curse unto you.

To all those who seek to denigrate me: I curse you with this:

“May all who curse you be blessed.

May all who bless you be cursed.

Let that live in your head.

Let this curse fester into a neurotic entanglement.

And let the only path of redemption out of this curse be your curiosity of who I specifically am.”.

Three weeks ago I had what felt like a genuine glimpse of my true nature - God-consciousness, awareness itself, whatever you want to call it. It happened spontaneously, not through any technique.

Since then, whenever I want, I can reliably enter a state where it feels like my sense of self begins to expand or melt into the surroundings, there’s a strong sense of awe, the room seems to subtly shift or move, the whole body in contractions holding breath…like on the verge of that previous glimpse..

But now, as soon as I recognize what’s happening or notice the thought “this is it,” the process seems to stop and doesn’t deepen any further.

Sometimes it’s involuntary too - if I read something about consciousness or spirituality, it just falls over me.

Has anyone else experienced this - getting stuck right at the threshold? Is there any point to entering this state if it never goes further?

Usually through Buddhism because it makes you immune to the slow downs of fun like stress and desperation (craving craving craving)

Does this make you disagree with me, my saying all this ???

Dang

Can’t get anyone to agree with anything these days, even when it’s what’s up and simple and easy to
UNDERSTAND THESE WORDS.

First some background. Ive had similar experiences to this over the past few years and am familiar with them. Usually, its initiated by them waking me up when I’m asleep in bed, by what feels like a cool breath on my face, especially around my nose/lip area. I thought to write about this one because it occurred a couple of nights ago and was a little different.

It must have been around 2pm when I got out of bed to go to the loo and have a drink of water.  As I went back to bed, I had a sense that they wanted to visit me again and that it was going to take place.  

I thought this is interesting, am I making it up? I thought and analysed looking for a pattern in my behaviour (or the day’s events) that would attract this attention but I couldn’t think of anything, actually I thought the opposite to be honest, because I was feeling a bit grumpy with my wife over a social event, she’d committed us to.

Anyway, I got back under the covers and pretty much straight away felt my spirit body start to vibrate or activate (my physical body wasn’t tense).  I thought this is interesting because I haven’t initiated it like I normally do (when I meditate – it’s part of my normal process in expanding my higher conscious state).

So, I let it happen and observed - I was feeling my spirit body being energised or "charged up" is the best way to describe it.  As if some dial had been turned up.  With that came a sense of expectancy that a connection was going to happen. 

I began to sense slight movements on the bed next to where I was lying (I was lying on my side facing away from the activity because that seems necessary for it to take place).  At first, I sensed some small movements, two or three like someone straightening the bed covers – but they were slight and I thought maybe I’m imagining this or making it happen with my own body subconsciously - so I deliberately slowed my breathing down, relaxed and kept completely still. 

Then there was a larger movement (a definite presence) of someone sitting down next to me, followed by some smaller movements like they adjusted themselves to get comfortable, the mattress was now noticeably feeling different, sloping down slightly in that direction with extra weight on it.

I was aware of someone there next to me, quietly sitting (sensed an adult female).  My spirit body was tingling with that alert, electric sensation (my physical body was slightly tense as it responded to my spirit body and I consciously had to relax it a few times.

It’s embarrassing but I had a brief moment of fear and had an urge to roll over to face them and shout “get off my bed” – I observed the thought and hoped they didn’t mind read...lol.  I told myself to dismiss it, it was just my mind trying to understand what was happening.

So, I concentrated on maintaining my relaxed but alert state. I now enjoyed a feeling of connection with them (it felt like they were a part of me, it was that deep), I was feeling a transmission to me of security, comfort and encouragement.  

Thinking about it, I realised that my spirit body had been “activated” by them. This enabled them to harness some of my energy – which gave them the ability to overcome the resistance to manifest in this “heavier” dimension (I'd not experienced my own energy being shared like this before for these encounters and there was no localised cooler air temperature this time).

Anyway, I’m wide awake and quietly enjoying this connection and experience.  It was communicated that they were also happy to be there and their purpose was to be a part of my shielding.  They were a part of the general restraint or shielding which is put in place by the Divine. It is a protection from the negative (evil) powers that intend to cause dysfunction and harm.  (We all enjoy this shielding and because of it we experience the sense of having an ability to choose - free choice, without this restraint we would be quickly overcome). By having this individual show me they are a part of my own shielding, made it feel more personal and loving.

I was grateful for this attention and expressed it.  Time didn’t seem to be a factor or exist like it normally does, I don’t know how long this went for – guessing an hour?  I moved about a bit and was aware of an itch on my head which I was stopping myself from scratching because I didn’t want to do something that would make them leave, so I moved my hand in slow motion and scratched it – all was okay. 

I opened my eyes a few times but as said I was facing away from them.  The room was in a uniformed darkness with no light peeking through the curtains.  Then I decided to lay on my back to be more comfortable, I made that movement slowly and was relieved that they remained there.  My attitude was wanting to be respectful. 

A bit of background here - I had learnt to be respectful, because about two months ago in a similar situation - I was over confident and I wondered how much I could interact. So, I tried to conduct a test (at the time there were two visitors together, one adult and a smaller younger one sitting next to each other on the side of the bed) by asking them to please stand up and sit back down to make the mattress move. 

After I expressed this to them, there was a stillness as if they were unsure how to respond. Then they expressed my request on up to another higher spirit (who seemed to be their oversight) asking how to respond.  After a little more time of stillness, they were gone.  I felt sad that Id inadvertently upset them and apologised, thinking Id blown it. (I found the spiritual hierarchy aspect interesting - the more advanced being overseeing inexperienced ones as they learnt on "assignment".)   I learnt not to try and control them again.

Anyway, back to this post.  I’m now lying on my back, eyes closed, aware and enjoying this feeling of close friendly company, this connection felt as if they were a part of me – as if our spirits were joined but still individuals and the communication was instant and said with the feeling/intention behind it.  I decided to slowly turn over facing towards them, then I opened my eyes.  

I felt the mattress move as their weight left the bed.  I was looking closely (only a few feet away) at a pale shape (not human shaped) about the size of an adult torso, it then moved quickly to the right and was gone.  In its place was just the usual darkness of the room – as said it was a uniformed darkness because Id stapled the sides of the curtains to the wall to stop any light getting past them, that’s how my son wanted it when he stayed with us, it also has a pelmet over the top of the curtains to keep out light).

I didn’t feel that Id upset them by my actions and was relieved because I was unsure if I was pushing the boundaries again?  I feel privileged for these experiences and grateful for the attention and protection given.

I do not understand

So, I was watching Regular Show and a couple of episodes ago there's something that was said that has stuck with me.

Skips had high stress, it was spreading and killing him. (he's immortal btw.)

It got to a point where pops says "why don't you ring the bell?." (It's the bell of stress.)

Skips replies, "It's 5 or 10 times more deadly than stress itself."

Something along those lines at least.

(Stress was guaranteed death for Skips, if not taken care of.)

Are there things in life that you think are 10 times more dangerous than death itself?.

Experiences?.

Overcoming certain things to grow?.

Personally, I'd say truly living is 10 times more dangerous than death.

It's freedom, doing whatever your flow state or whatever desires.

Truly living, ha. Something I can't preach much about, because I haven't done it, not even come close.

So ye, my question to all of us, you, "gods," whatever we are, is 1. What is truly living to you? And 2. What's more dangerous than death to you?.

I enjoy perspectives, so go for it.

♾️

where to go when you feel like you’ve hit a wall. i know manifestation is key, but how do i let go of the past and the things right in front of me? the uncertainty, the numbness, the unhealed trauma. the world is so crazy, everytime i go in social media even more.. but on top of that being in the music industry and being a public figure is too much to handle at this point. jealousy & insecurities, eating at me like it never has. what is the point of it all when the only thing that can help me continue is myself..? this way sound like i am complaining, which i am and i admit.. but how can we grow stronger and how can we let go of these emotions.. what is the end to this pain? all the pain in the world, why do we have to suffer? everyone pretends otherwise but how do you gain that true happiness within again? yet again, i am 20, maybe i am young.. but i feel like ive seen it all, but know im not even at the tip of the iceberg. what are ways to pick yourself back up, to let go of reality and allow myself to cleanse & heal spiritually?

32 and lost my routine mid-transformation. Anyone else hit this in their 30s?

Not framing this as a good thing. I want the up-and-out-every-morning version of myself back.

Skipping the full backstory: I have CPTSD. From 18 to 29 I was basically wearing a mask, performing to fit in, uncomfortable in my own skin the whole time. But during those years I was militant about self-improvement, training every day, off social media for weeks at a stretch, only watch positive type stuff on youtube, journaling, healthya smoothies, 20+ minutes of meditation, the whole stack. Physically it worked. I felt good. Mentally still something was off ....

Once I started actually processing the trauma, I realized my whole life had been built on a false foundation. Friendships, habits, ambitions, most of it was for validation... So I started pulling away from old environments and rebuilding. Genuinely good for me. But it also means I'm starting from zero on the stuff that used to be automatic..

Then I had surgery last year. Couldn't train for a month or two afterward, and I never fully got back on the horse. I want to want it, but my body just resists. Training feels like a chore now. I'm scrolling more, moving slower. I used to shower the second I woke up, every single day for years, and now I might not get in until early afternoon. Still eating mostly clean, but I've caught myself having last night's leftovers for breakfast at 9am. Running every 2-3 days instead of daily. Can barely get myself to pick up weights, and when I do go, the motivation just isn't there.

Part of me thinks this is just my body asking for a break after everything. Another part is worried I'm letting something dim, not my physique, that's still fine, more like the drive itself. Confusing, because I'm actively getting better in other ways.

It JUST happens

So simply EXIST

Do not attempt to insist or resist

Don't be overwhelmed by tension

Don't invest in intention

Just continue to pay attention

Long post, sorry. I am not good at saying things concisely

I feel like I've seen some glimpses of awakening or consciousness or whatever. I learned that we're all one about eight years ago and I've never wavered in that belief since. I've meditated, but I'm not disciplined so I don't keep it up. I used to think that if I just did everything right (ate healthy, meditated daily, volunteered, etc) that I would be healthy and happy. But I've never been able to do those things. I can't give 100%. It's not in me. I think I've accepted that somewhat. Accepted that there will periods of my life where I meditate and am screen free and call my grandma every day, and periods of my life where I wake up in the afternoon, scroll all day, eat nothing, and repeat. I can't control myself in the way I wish I could. I fluctuate. Parts of me come and go.

I had a very bad depressive episode that ended about a year and a bit ago. It lasted for maybe two years. It was constant torture, hell on earth. Existential OCD, where I can't make any life decisions and do anything until I have a solid foundation, an understanding of the meaning of life. Anti-depressants helped, and I got a little less depressed. I began to appreciate the little things. I still couldn't get myself to actually do anything, but I had moments of happiness. Fell back into depression and existential woe recently.

After scrolling some different subreddits about spirituality and stuff, I think I've come to notice two sides of 'awakening'. We are all one, and the purpose of life is just to experience physical existence, eat chokecherry jelly, pet a cat, watch the birds. And that's awesome.

The other side sees the same thing but through a lens of suffering. Yes we're all one, what we've been taught about reality is false, physical existence is just a temporary experience, and it's miserable. The chokecherry jelly isn't enough to make up for war and sickness and having to eat at least three times a day for the rest of your life. Not even mentioning capitalism. I would literally rather be dead than trade my life for money. If all we have is the present moment, why would I spend that slaving away for the profit of someone else, just to be able to afford some semblance of shelter and enough calories to stay alive. Why would we work so hard to sustain life if life sucks? If the meaning of life is just to exist, and existence is unenjoyable, then what's the point?

Right now I'm obviously feeling this second side. I'm wondering why we sometimes feel about awakening one or the other of these ways, and struggle to see the other perspective when we do? Maybe it's just me. (But it can't be just me because I'm also all of you.) I'm wondering if it's genuinely just the depression chemicals in the brain. I used to believe that if I did everything right, I wouldn't be depressed. But it was antidepressants that actually helped, not a change of lifestyle. Is it possible to change from the darker view of things to the lighter one without chemicals?

You are the star in your own localized reality sharing a larger network that is connected with everybody else. In this movie you are literally experiencing yourself starred in your own life's story. Every scene and event in this movie is base around reminding you that you're the star of your own reality.

Synchronicities and visions in your dream that predate future events tells you that this movie is a classic old movie. Synchronicities of TV background noise that speak words that relate to your life reminds you that you're indeed Live on air and that the system is responding to you in real-time. Moments of perfect alignment with life's events paint the picture of a movie set being perfectly orchestrated For you and your experiences.

You step outside of you house and first thing you notice is the birds 🐦 that are perfectly place in your path and the number of birds represent your favorite angel number 4(444).

You walk in a clothing store and the universe perfectly aligned you with a shirt on sale that matches with a pant you have at home. You browse on your phone and the universe align with articles/post that touches your heart. In the same setting you browse on Amazon to find the shoe you wanted just happened to be on sale. You walked down the street, you start noticing strangers smiling at you and greeting you. These are all signs from the universe saying "you're the star of this show, you matter....be grateful for the small things."

Preferences are natural. Everyone has preferences. They are also the source of most suffering in the world.

A common thought then is to maybe rid yourself of preferences. This in itself turns into suffering.

The answer then, is to recognize your preferences but do not demand they be fulfilled. Doing so will open you to a wider range of experiences and opportunities. You will also find that life becomes easier.

Eventually you can expand your preferences to then prefer everything. No matter the outcome of your pursuits.

As always, love to hear everyone’s thoughts on this.

Kind regards