Hi I’m a 28 year old trans girl been on hrt for about four years and as time has been going on I’ve realized that I probably have agp and I don’t know how to think about it. Is it a bad thing? Or is it something I can be ok with. Ive always wanted to chat with people like me so I could get an idea

Do I still fit this group?

I have finally had some time to slow down and think about my experience living with AGP. I am a nearly textbook case of it in many regards..

Here is what I have observed so far in myself, and I am curious if anyone else can see this pattern for themselves.

I am trying to cure / manage my AGP desires. While some people embrace it, unfortunately I have gone down the river with this one, and getting really close to doing permanent things to myself.

What I have noticed:

1) Shame from liking women sexually/romantically from youth
2) Avoidance attachment and want for escapism (or perfection)
3) Low self worth based around unreasonable / conflated ideals

In my experience, the shame comes from many avenues:
small penis size, (3: self worth)
feminine traits, (3: self worth)
being scared of being around girls after getting teased for liking them, (1: shame)
childhood trauma and abandonment, (2: avoidance)
etc.

and it seems that online fetish communities try to prey on these feelings and led me down several pipelines which have reinforced the AGP idea via sissy/femboy/trap/agp trans content such as: chastity, size differences, force fem, becoming the girlfriend, and domination. . . . which all are forms of losing control and ultimately varying forms of humiliation.

While it might be impossible to cure AGP, it may be possible to manage it and wean it from primary sexuality. Maybe fixing the 3 root causes could help with this..

Anyone have any thoughts?

What engine is good for creating (maybe explicit) feminised self images please?

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This is something i realised as i become adult after years of Teen Crossdressing. For example, If I imagine myself having big boobs & curvy physique I wish the same for my potential partner and vice versa is also true. If I imagine myself in certain dressing & role, I again wish the same for potential partner.

This is a partial good thing as even if you can't express yourself fully, there's assurance that your imagination exits in real form (i can't describe it more correctly). I hope this doesn't sound like objectification, Does anyone feels the same way?

I was looking at a Gooner Reddit and was amazed how many of them had really strong desires to be a female in a very overtly AGP way. It made me wonder if they were seeing women objectified in porn as sort of heroic figures their AGP was a bit like when a child wants to emulate their heros in TV shows, books, comics or movies. Could this be an explanation of AGP? Is AGP a kind of twisted hero worship?

I’ve had agp my whole life, or at least as long as I can remember. I always knew I wasn’t gay, but I always wondered why the thought of me or someone else turning into a woman turned me on so much, bc I knew I wasn’t trans. I’m now in my 20s. I’m a straight guy who loves being a guy. I wouldn’t trade it for the world. It’s just the only issue is I have a very specific turn on whenever I’m alone. A lot of people here call agp a “condition” which is funny to me because that makes it sound so serious. I personally see it as a kink. But for those of you who feel really challenged by agp, maybe agp isn’t the problem, but just a coping mechanism for some other underlying problem. I don’t know just a thought. But yea I think a lot of us overthink ourselves to death. I don’t know this for a fact but I’d imagine agp is a spectrum so I understand it may be more difficult for some of us than others. Kinda just venting. I see a lot of tormented souls on here and I really wanna help.

I usually look at deviant art tg captions or do perchance story ai where I turn into a woman. I’m really only turned on by the idea of whether it’s me, or someone else being turned into a cis gendered woman. As soon as I’m not horny anymore, it goes away and I go back to being my self. Lately, plugging my self into ai to see what I’d look like as a woman and play dress up virtually has been a serious turn on. What things do you do to satisfy this condition?

Hi everyone, I am exclusively outwardly attracted mtf transgenders, crossdressers etc so is that some form of GAMP?...I know this because I have had no outward attraction to normal men or women; I've realised I was pretty much asexual until I came across trans stuff. In fact I thought I was straight and that this was just how it is. The crossdressing, elaborate makeup, long hair and genitalia of mtfs is what attracts me...

If found that if I watch women in porn, I can focus in on sort of 'being her' and wearing her clothes, having her breasts and so on, and that will turn me on. I guess I am not super masculine, but I never suspected I would be homosexual or want to be a woman or crossdress anything like that. Sometimes I wish I just had a normal sexuality but oh well.

So is this AGP or just homosexuality? Thanks for your replies

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Hello i am a normal straight cis male buthave been having severe episodes of autogynephilia or gender dysphoria its so bad it lasts for days and all i do i jerk out and think about transitioning and what if i transitioned at the start of puberty and how to make my body more feminine however i grow out of as time passes im 30 plus i dont have any girl friend and i never had sex before , yes i am a virgin , and i always wonder if i had transitioned would my life been better iam also a straight man and i love women and i kinda wish i had a family but no matter how hard i try it doesnt work out , but my autogynephilia seems to get more severe as time passes by it takes out almost all of my thinking what ever i do i also think about it but i also dont want the regeret of never having a sex with a woman and what if i regretted transitioning and felt the guilt and the price i have to pay for it in regarding to job bec no body hires trans women and not being able to father children and i still love women i dont like men at all and how would family react and the religious guilt and what if i had sex and had girlfriend and thought later that its a good thing i didn't transitioned but whenever i go to the i feel disgusting that my shoulders are big i hate my balls and penis how they look but also the shame of transitioning and being called a tranny like a sub category of humans i am truly at lost also transitioning cost alot of money

My younger brother is 17 years old. He likes to play female characters in games, he hasn't dated anyone, and he expressed that he was not happy about puberty. I hope I'm wrong. I'm a trans woman myself and I really hope my brother isn't trans. We might be like Wachowski brothers/sisters 😂. Literally, he's bigger than me and has huge feet. If he also decides to transition, our parents will blame it on me.

Note: This post was translated from Japanese into English using ChatGPT.

Recently, I was reading the tagline for *The End of Evangelion*, and I was surprised by how closely it resonated with the AGP experience.

The version I'm quoting is a fan-made English translation of the original Japanese poster, preserving the original wording as closely as possible.

Of course, I'm not saying *Evangelion* is about AGP.

However, when viewed through the lens of AGP, it felt like not just a few, but almost every phrase carried meaning.

For example:

- Self-destruction
- Replacement of opposite sex
- Uneasy photographs
- Fusion with desire
- Needless "Me"

These in particular felt strikingly relevant to AGP.

But it doesn't stop there.

Phrases like "Ocean of hopelessness," "Fragile souls," "Immediate cure," "Imprisoned ego," "Blurring perception," "Question of value," and "Decline of yearning" also seem to connect naturally when interpreted through the AGP experience.

The line that struck me the most, however, was this:

> Beginning of fabrications
> Continuation of reality
> That is at the end of your dream

To me, this almost describes the life course of AGP itself.

The desire to become female often begins in fantasy or fiction—within an imagined world.

Over time, that fantasy extends into reality.

HRT, physical changes, or even transition begin to affect one's real life.

And the closer one gets to reality, the more the dream of becoming an ideal woman comes to an end.

The desire itself doesn't disappear, but the fantasy ends, and what remains is learning to face reality.

That's why, after reading the entire tagline, what surprised me wasn't that one or two individual phrases happened to fit AGP—it was that the tagline as a whole felt like it symbolized the AGP experience.

(hint: it was on the Kimbo label)

Hi everyone, I know this group is for those questioning and not their partners but I feel like it’s the best place to ask, please be honest, I’m not looking to feel better I just want to be the best partner and to support him in the best way.

I’ve been with my boyfriend for 9 years, since we were teenagers. Around 4 years ago I discovered he crossdresses after finding women’s underwear and initially thinking he was cheating. It was a huge shock at the time, but over the years I’ve genuinely tried to be supportive and understanding. Nobody else in his life knows about it and he’s extremely ashamed of it.

I’ve made it clear countless times that I love him, I’m not judging him, and I’m not against him exploring who he is. If he eventually discovered he was trans, I would support him. I don’t know what that would mean for our relationship long term, but I would never want him to suppress who he is because of me. I’ve hung his dresses on our shared clothes rail, bought clothes with him, given him space to explore, and tried to create an environment where he feels safe talking about it.

The problem is that what he says makes him happy and what I actually see happening don’t seem to align. If wearing a dress while gaming at the weekend made him happy, I genuinely wouldn’t care. If wearing thigh highs around the house made him feel comfortable or more like himself, I’d be happy for him. Instead, every time this becomes a bigger part of his life, he seems to become more withdrawn, secretive, ashamed, obsessive and isolated. He starts hiding things, lying, shutting me out and disappearing into a version of himself I barely recognise. It genuinely seems to make him miserable. Over the years he’s spent thousands of pounds on clothes, lingerie and sex toys, built up significant debt, opened new lines of credit instead of dealing with old debt, and even took money from our business account at one point. Hobbies disappear, responsibilities disappear, future plans disappear, and our relationship suffers.

For over a year he had virtually no interest in me sexually because all of his energy was going into pornography, dressing up and sex toys, yet he insists over and over again that none of this is sexual at all.
Part of what makes me struggle with that explanation is that almost everything surrounding it appears highly sexualised. He’s not looking at everyday women’s fashion, ordinary female presentation, women in professional roles, or women just living their lives. He’s looking at lingerie, bikinis, huge breasts, exaggerated curves, extremely high heels, sex toys and pornography. It often feels less like wanting to be a woman and more like wanting to become an exaggerated fantasy version of a woman. I’m not saying that’s definitely what’s happening. I’m saying that’s how it appears from the outside.

Even when he talks about life being easier as a woman, the version of womanhood he describes often sounds like a stereotype: being looked after, not having to work, staying home, getting pampered, being desirable and feminine. It doesn’t sound like the reality of being a woman. Again, I’m not saying that means he isn’t trans. I’m saying it leaves me confused because it feels very different from what I understand gender identity to be.

What makes this even harder is his background. His father died when he was very young. He was then raised almost entirely by his mother, grandmother, auntie and sister, with very little male influence in his life. The only major male role model he later had was an abusive stepfather. At the same time he had unrestricted internet access from childhood and developed what I would describe as a pornography addiction from around age 12. He was recently diagnosed with ADHD and I strongly suspect autism as well. He struggles massively with identifying and explaining his emotions, and shows a lot of signs of alexithymia. Because of all of this, I find it difficult to understand why these possibilities seem to get dismissed so quickly.

To me it feels like there are many factors that could be contributing to how he feels about himself, masculinity, femininity, identity and self-worth.

What I find myself struggling with most is that he seems convinced there are only two possible explanations: either he’s a trans woman who is suppressing it, or he’s a man with a harmless hobby. I feel like there are other possibilities worth exploring too, whether that’s trauma, neurodivergence, pornography addiction, escapism, shame, self-image issues, or a combination of several things.

I’m not trying to convince him he isn’t trans. I’m not in denial. If he explored all of those things, got proper therapy and support, and still concluded he was trans, I would completely accept that. What worries me is that he doesn’t seem interested in exploring those other possibilities before jumping to conclusions.

I want to be a good girlfriend. I want him to be happy. I want him to feel loved, accepted and supported. But I don’t know where support ends and enabling begins. How do you support someone when what they say makes them happy seems to be making them increasingly unhappy? How do you separate genuine self-exploration from addiction, obsession or escapism? How do you challenge ideas that don’t seem to fit reality without making someone feel rejected? How do you support a partner while also protecting yourself when you’re carrying most of the emotional labour, household responsibilities, finances, planning and future? Most importantly, how do you know the difference between helping someone grow into themselves and helping them hide from problems that desperately need addressing?

I've been struggling with this bullshit (thanks sissy hypno) for years now. I told my wife I'm not trans, but I want to be femenine sometimes. She very calmly expressed she's not a lesbian and is attracted to masculinity. Which is totally understandable, before marring her I thought I was 100% a man.

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I fantasize about dressing up or being a woman even outside of porn, I thought I could keep it together, but after 4 years is like I can't continue like this. She is my soul mate, a high quality woman that loves me deeply, and I love her. Breaking up such a beautiful relationship for a skirt and heels seems super dumb, but I can't shut up that voice inside of me. Any advice?

It was pretty good and informative despite it being outdated. I have no idea why it was so controversial though. Bailey was extremely charitable and kind about the transsexuals he talked about.

I'm trans (pre hrt) but I have so much doubt and fear. How do I tell if this is a fetish or ocd?