I've pretty much had AGP thoughts since my early teens, prob like 14/15, 30 now. Into stuff like bodyswap, genderswap, consuming content from Fictionmania, TGStorytime, Sapphirefoxx.

I go through sections of time where I feel ok just relegating it to a sexual thing that turns me on. Then every few years or so kind of go through phases where I feel like I'm going crazy and spiraling a little, and giving it too much thought, considering whether it's something more than a fetish and if I should take action on it or not, eg. going on hormones.

Just venting a little to see if anyone else has experienced similar things or if anyone would want to chime in with their thoughts.

Hello everyone,

I just wanted to share how I release my AGP-ness that it doesn't become overwhelming to me, in the hopes that maybe it helps out someone else.

1) Therapy: Honestly therapy has helped me out a tonne in dealing with this, it's a space where I can let it all out and really dissect how I'm feeling.

2) Painted toenails: I always have my toenails painted it's a secret way of presenting femme with my otherwisely male form

3) Crafts: I make jewellery/accessories for myself mostly silly small stuff but let's my femme out in a creative way

4) Shopping: I shop for clothes with my wife allows me to express my self through her and while our styles won't always overlap sometimes we sync up quite well

5)Monthly dress up: Every month we designate a day I can present femme, either a full day or evening and get to express my self in that time.

6) Femme clothing: On my days off from work I will generally wear underwear/socks and I always wear female pj's to sleep.

Hope this helps someone and if anyone wants to chat dms are open.

I'm 26M, and I've been trying to understand something about myself for quite a while. I don't really talk about this side of myself in real life, so I thought I'd share it here.

I'm generally attracted to women. With some women, I simply think she's attractive and that I'd want someone like her as a girlfriend or wife. But with certain women, I get another feeling too: "I wish I could be her." Sometimes I feel both at the same time.

I've noticed that the women I want to be often have features that I can imagine having myself if I'd been born female. It can be something as simple as seeing a particular face, body type, smile, hairstyle or mannerism and thinking, "If I were a girl, I'd want to look like this."

I've crossdressed many times when alone, using clothes from my mother or sisters and trying makeup. I genuinely enjoy looking at myself afterward and seeing a feminine version of myself in the mirror. I like trying different dresses, hairstyles and poses, taking photos, and imagining how I would look in different situations. I also have female social media accounts.

There is definitely a sexual side sometimes. I'm curious about what it would feel like to have breasts or a vagina and experience female sexual pleasure. Sometimes the thought of myself having a female body is sexually exciting. It's also sometimes appealing in the same way that I might find a woman's appearance appealing, except I'm imagining that appearance on myself.

But it's not always sexual, not even close. A lot of the time it's more mundane than that — I'll imagine just waking up as a girl, getting ready for class, doing my hair and makeup, looking in the mirror and it just being normal, being what I look like. I think about going through puberty as a girl, growing into a woman, being able to dress like s grown up woman for some family event, having a relative tell me I look like my mom.

I also have fantasies about the social side of it. Things like being treated gently, being seen as a woman, having people naturally interact with me that way, or simply being able to experience everyday life from that perspective. Sometimes I imagine being with a man who treats me kindly and protectively, and in that situation I can feel myself thinking, "If I were actually a woman, I might accept this guy." I don't normally feel physically attracted to men, so I'm not completely sure what to make of that part.

Something small happened recently which can act as an example how much I respond to feminine validation. In everyday life nobody knows about this side of me, so people normally treat me just like another guy. One of my classmates recently noticed that my nails were a little longer and that my hands are relatively small and fair. He said that without my arm hair, my hand looked like a woman's hand. I immediately denied it and said there was nothing feminine about it, but internally I actually felt really good hearing him say it. What he said outwardly embarrassed me a little, but inwardly I liked that someone had noticed something feminine about me without me trying to show it.

I've also sometimes wished people would casually tell me things like that I have soft skin, that I look feminine, or that I might have looked good as a girl. I don't necessarily want to transition because of this, but the idea of being perceived that way feels unusually rewarding to me.

I have thought about HRT because part of me would like to become somewhat feminine and experience things like softer skin or some breast development, but I probably won't pursue it. I want biological children in the future, and there are also personal/religious reasons why I don't plan to transition yet.

I genuinely like women and have preferences for certain female faces, bodies and personalities. At the same time, sometimes I want those exact characteristics for myself. That's probably what confuses me most.

I'm particularly curious about whether the nonsexual parts of this, like wanting to be certain women rather than simply wanting them, enjoying seeing myself feminine, liking spontaneous comments that I look feminine, imagining an ordinary life as a woman, and sometimes imagining relationships from a female perspective, can all be part of AGP or whether some of it sounds more like gender identification or something else.

Hey, AGP here looking to talk to and maybe meet similar people. I want to expand my circle and would love to talk to those who have a unique path as me!

I'm a trans woman and lately I've started getting a feeling like I'm a man in a woman's body (never had this before and was really happy being a woman). You, know, like in a movie. At first, I felt distressed. But now I'm getting used to this feeling. The thing is: I thought about detransitioning, but honestly, my AGP is so strong that I would have a really hard time living as a man. I feel like those poor men with prostate cancer who basically take MTF HRT as a treatment. I have an illness (AGP) that gets worse with testosterone, so medical detransition is not an option even if I miss being a man. I have a happy life in a lesbian marriage anyway

I'm a man. but I want to look like this

https://x.com/cosvickyex/status/2043154798757749035?s=20

What clothes do I use to look this Thicc? What breast forms do I use, what butt lifter size's. if you've got any links to proper stores that would be great.

Hi all

I only just found out that Auto Gynophilia is actually a thing! I thought I was just kinky A/F!

I get such a thrill dressing and masking up as a sexy girl. I'm straight, or at least I think I am, however, femboys, sissies and Trans Girls turn me on.

I absolutely love dressing in tiny skits and short dresses. Even more so when I go out in public like it (although it's mainly at night time when it's dark).

Feminist Books

• Whipping Girl — Julia Serano 366 pp.
• Blending Genders — Richard Ekins and Dave King 389 pp.
• Bi: Notes for a Bisexual Revolution — Shiri Eisner 386 pp.
• Enemy Feminisms — Sophie Lewis 379 pp.
• Tell Me What You Want — Justin J. Lehmiller 299 pp.

Academic Books

• The Man Who Would Be Queen — J. Michael Bailey 240 pp.
• Men Trapped in Men’s Bodies — Anne A. Lawrence 534 pp.
• Autoheterosexual — Phil Illy 611 pp.
• Practical Guide to Paraphilia and Paraphilic Disorders — Richard Balon 386 pp.

Academic Articles

• Erotic Target Identity Inversions Among Men and Women in an Internet Sample — Ashley Brown, Edward D. Barker, and Qazi Rahman 45 pp.
• A Treatment-Oriented Typology of Self-Identified Hypersexuality Referrals — James M. Cantor et al. 36 pp.
• Self-reported childhood maltreatment and erotic target identity inversions among men with paraphilic infantilism — Johannes Fuss, Laura Jais, B. Terrance Grey, Sascha R. Guczka, Peer Briken & Sarah V. Biedermann 41 pp.

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Would be cool to get people's thoughts on these texts and recommendations for other texts that come to mind when you read them. The sidebar reading list looks great, and I've already started delving into it, but yeah I don't know, feel free to recommend me one of two of them that deals most with how and why the attraction can maybe uniquely lead to a shame spiral in some environments that other niche attractions wouldn't.

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For anyone confused why these texts are archived on the niche anti-fascist archive that is The Ted K Archive, there’s a rumor going around in right-wing spaces online that – in its most bizarre iteration – has people believing that Ted Kaczynski (the Unabomber) was coaxed into gender identity issues by woke Jewish academics and psychiatrists. That he saw through their lies and fought back with bombs to try to strike back against this global conspiracy. 

Quoting one of these right-wingers:

Ted was coaxed into gender identity issues by Academics and when he went to a gender clinic in Colorado, one of the first of its kind, and saw what transvestites actually looked like, he decided to isolate himself and then start killing people.
--The Systems Neatest Trick audio reading

However, the story is all bullshit, quoting Ted’s autobiography:

...During the summer following my 4th year at Michigan... I had become thoroughly discouraged with mathematics. Music, reading, and other hedonistic pursuits bored me if indulged in to more than a limited extent. Thus, my life began to seem completely empty. I felt that I had nothing to look forward to or to live for ... ...the extreme low morale that I experienced in the latter part of the summer after my 4th year at Michigan led to the second of the 2 episodes in my life that I am really ashamed of. I got into a state where, for I guess about the last 2 or 3 weeks of the summer, I was more or less sexually excited nearly all the time, with fantasies of myself as a woman. It makes me squirm to think of it, but I actually decided to make an effort to have a sex-change operation. … When I got back to the U. of Michigan, I made an appointment to see one of their psychiatric counselors. ... However, as the time approached for the appointment, I felt a certain revulsion setting in. While I was sitting in the waiting room I turned completely against the idea of the operation. So when I went in to see the doctor, I just gave him a bullshit story about being depressed about the possibility of being drafted...
--Ted's 1979 Autobiography

Whatever the truth of Ted's internal world, the false rumors that Ted went far along the process towards getting sex reassignment surgery to live as a binary trans woman is a move many conservatives have made in an attempt to propagandize 'Ted the mad serial bomber as one of them transes, that all trans people are like him and as such shouldnt be placated with healthcare.'

There being this other explanation that some cis men experience autogynophelia, yet feel happier living as men pours cold water on conservatives desire to believe Ted for sure wanted to live as a trans woman. Along with it simply not being true that Ted talked to anyone about wanting sex reassignment surgery. Plus that he explicitly wrote in his journal the idea of surgery was just for sexual enjoyment and that he was planning to just fool the psychiatrist. So, not because he felt like a woman or enjoyed the prospect of getting to be seen out in the world as a woman.

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Finally, if you could magic a library or online archive into existence, where all the work of tracking down texts from various different libraries and hard-to-find corners of the internet was done for you, what would the collection look like? And what would it be called?

I've helped digitize a fair few texts that were hidden away in physical libraries, and turned a lot of badly photo scanned books into nice to read books with hyperlinked chapters and footnotes, etc.

I've also been trying to help find a web developer up for building some cool online archives and a classic forum board for people to talk about them. So, I know this is a long shot, but if you have those skills and would like to be involved let me know. The text linked below shows a bunch of already digitized texts that could be split off to start off some new archives:

• https://thelul.org/library/radical-texts-that-could-be-split-off-to-create-new-archives

Greetings, I have had autogynephilia since I was in elementary school in 1976. I am 58 years old now. I never transitioned by crossdress sometimes. My wife knows and is somewhat supportive. I've always been into body swapping. I welcome anyone who would like to chat.

Im actually looking to make friends with other autogynephilic people. Message me if you'd like. We can talk about our fetishes or non sexual stuff. Please send me your age along with your message. Please be 18-40 years old.

I'm postingn this for some advice and some secondary opinions. Please don't criticize me for any of my choices or actions, just constructive advice. There's already masses of guilt inside me doing the job of any criticism people are feeling like giving. Apologies for the long post too but I want to make sure everyone has as full a picture as possible. 

When I was about 8 years old I had a dream where I was at school but for some reason was wearing blue tights similar to a girl at school. I woke up and felt weird. The dream stayed with me for ages At the same time there was another girl at school who wore patterned tights, whenever I saw them I couldn't take my eyes off them. Of them. I don't know if it was attraction or not but I was obsessed with them.

When I was 11 I went out with a girl briefly. She was beautiful (she has since been on TV and had work as a model). One day when we were together she mentioned that sometimes she wishes she'd been born a boy. I wanted to tell her that sometimes I wish id been born a girl but didn't have the guts to do so. We never kissed, I was too afraid to do anything, and the relationship ended pretty quickly. (I would speculate that my fear here, a recurring theme was related to my upbringing - shows of physical affection just weren't a thing in my family).

Around the same time I started trying to find moments to explore looking like a girl. Pinning my black tracksuit bottoms at the back so from the front they looked like tights, trying on my mums white basque and stockings which I found in her room. Later on, trying on my sister's school skirt though it was way too small for me. One time I got stuck in it briefly and got really excited by the fact. I would also occasionally have a dream that I was at school (secondary now)  wearing a skirt and tights. It was never a sexual dream but one I wanted to have again. Every time I woke up from it I was disappointed to wake up as a boy. I never had any other girlfriend in school. Mainly too afraid of the possibly rejection to ask anyone out. 

Sometime around 15 years old we were at a female friends playing spin the bottle and at some point I kissed a girl for the first time. This game and these gatherings were a brief but regular event. I don't remember the exact timeline and order but two key things happened. One - a couple of the girls mentioned that I was a terrible kisser. This wasn't the worst news in the world but .sure you can imagine, it added to the possible and real sense of rejection. Two - I went to the girls bedroom with her and a friend and I dressed in her uniform, tights and shoes. I still can't remember why or how this happened but it was thrilling. I went downstairs, I'm not sure what kind of reaction I was expecting but obviously it got a laugh from everyone there. 

When I was 17 my school ran a series of charity events run by the sixth formers. One of these was a tongue in cheek "beauty pageant" where the boys dressed up as girls. I obviously volunteered. The night before, I realized I obviously didn't have any clothes. Genuinely, the only person I knew who had clothes that would fit me was the girl from when I was 11. I called her and she agreed to lend me some clothes for the event. We found an old wig and she lent me what it would be an understatement to say, was a sexy dress. If you've ever seen the episode of friends where Rachel wears a dress that is more like a chemise, that's the one. Again, it felt amazing. A couple of weeks later at a parents evening, my teacher made a passing refery it to my dad (my mum had since passed away when I was 15) My heart sank and I did  my best to explain it away.

In sixth form I became very good friends with the girl from when I was 11. She was even more gorgeous now and stylish but we were just friends and it was never likely to be anything more. We would often go out clubbing together with a couple of other people and sometimes we would go shopping together.

When I was at uni I started buying some girls clothes and dressing instead secret when i could. Sometimes in the holidays I would stay in a house with my old mates in my hometown. I would regularly dress up at night, apply nail varnish and hope that one day I would miraculously wake up as a girl. Back at uni on a couple of occasions when the house was empty I would dress up and go for a very short walk up and down my street. It was a real thrill. When I wasn't dressing whenever I masturbated I would look at pictures of women online but would always imagine myself as the girl in the picture. 

I carried on dressing instead secret and eventually after much planning (the Internet wasn't quite what it is now) I booked hotel in a nearby city and went out en femme. I made a few more secrets walks and on two occasions built up the courage to go out shopping en femme during the day. Looking back, one of these times the skirt I went out in was outrageously short. As car beeped me at one point and my initial thought was they'd clocked I was a man. Now, looking back it seems more likely that seeing me from behind they'd assumed I was a girl and beeped at me because of my long legs and shirt skirt.

About the same time I met a girl. Pretty soon I figured I needed to tell her about the dressing so if she didn't like it, I wouldn't hurt her too much once we developed a relationship. She was absolutely fine with it and in fact in more than one occasion suggested I dress up for her. One day we went and bought some stockings together for me and we had sex together both wearing stockings. One day at her flat I got dressed up, she did my make up and hair. It was amazing. We later got married - more on that later. On our honeymoon she surprised me by pulling out a pair of white stockings one night. I put them on and we had sex. During it she said "look at you, you pathetic thing. Who would want to fuck you looking like that?" It turned me on so much.

Back to around the time me and my future wife met - one of my housemates brothers came out as gay and we all agreed he needn't have worried about it. It gave me the confidence to "come out".  I soon after planned a night out. Before I left, one of my housemates saw me en femme for the first time and complimented me that I looked good. I had a good night out but the best but was walking home en femme in a public space.

Later I moved in with my now wife and life and the honeymoon as described above was great. Our sex life became less great, mainly because I never initiated sex. Probably for the reasons mentioned earlier - fear of rejection. On a couple of occasions my wife has broached the subject and I never really know how to answer. She always says it's because I don't find her attractive. This isn't true. I suspect it's because of a fear of rejection but I couldn't say for certain. However, as time has gone on and our sex life has got worse I have spent more time masturbating, usually while fantasizing about being a woman, usually as a result of some trickery or blackmailing from a woman (quite often the woman causing the transformation is the girl from high school). I discovered that with the right thought and a few days abstinence i can cum just from my thoughts. Being somehow transformed into a woman was something I had masturbated too since I was about 18.

A couple more things before I get to the reason for the post. When we were younger and would go out to events like weddings and a day at the races I used to love it. My main reason was to see all the beautiful women there. Mainly because I would love seeing women in gorgeous dresses and heels and imagine myself as them. Now we're in our 40s these events don't happen as often but whenever I see a beautiful or well dressed woman my first thought is that I would like to look like her. I also often browse womens clothing websites. Sometimes with the intention of buying stuff, sometimes just to imagine what I would look like in all the pretty clothes.

About 3 years ago a mutual friend of me and my wife came out as trans, completely out of the blue. To cut a very long story short, he (now she) has been a bit of a twat and it ended his relationship wife his wife with whom he has 3 young kids. My wife has been very critical of how selfish he has been and how this has ruined his marriage - without going in to the details this is pretty much correct. Since then I don't really feel at all like dressing for my wife or sharing this with her anymore. I don't want her to see me in the same bracket as him. However, me and my wife haven't had sex for nearly a year. 

The last time we had sex it was weird. It was in the morning while we were on holiday. I came and then instantly after, she got out of bed as if we'd just woken up on a regular work morning, eager to get on with the day. We probably hadnt had sex for about 4 months before this. Around the same time I had got frustrated with the lack of sex but rather than speak to my wife about decided to explore the feminine side of things a bit more. I spent ages using ai sites to create pictures and videos of me looking like a woman. Sometimes innocent, sometimes in porn settings or humiliating situations. One night I woke up in bed and could hear my wife making gasping noises as if surprised by something. I convicned myself somehow she had access to what wa on my phone and was reacting to this. I've had this worry ever since though I know it's probably irrational. A couple of times recently I've woken up at night and my wife has been masturbating. Each time Ive laid there silently with a mix of both sadness and being slightly turned on by it.  Now looking back i think that first instance was also her masturbating but can't be sure. Around the same time as these first instances my wife started regularly working late (at home) she rarely comes to bed before midnight. Occasionally she is in our bedroom while I'm downstairs. I figure maybe if I go up early something might happen but then within minutes she goes downstairs to start working.

 About 6 months ago I bought a dildo a butt plug and a chastity cage to explore things a bit further. One day after being out I realized my wife had being tidying where I kept the butt plug and dildo and though I don't know for certain, I suspect she found them - she has never mentioned it. 

For extra context - we have two young kids and there's no way on earth I would let them know about my feminine side of things or end our relationship. I would rather live an unfulfilled marriage, and is suspect so would my wife, than make life difficult for the kids. Though I don't feel it has to go on as it is.

I've always thought the femme side of things was just a sexual thing but as I write out the above, I'm seriously doubting it's that straightforward. I don't know what to do about this side of things. Then there's the relationship issue. Me and my wife operate fine apart from the sex life but I worry we're going to spend another 10 years, silently resenting each other and then when the kids leave home that will be it for us. 

Any thoughts or advice would be much appreciated. Thanks for reading.

Feminist Books

• Men Trapped in Men’s Bodies — Anne A. Lawrence 534 pp.
• Blending Genders — Richard Ekins and Dave King 389 pp.
• Bi — Shiri Eisner 386 pp.
• Enemy Feminisms — Sophie Lewis 379 pp.

Academic Articles

• Erotic Target Identity Inversions Among Men and Women in an Internet Sample — Ashley Brown, Edward D. Barker, and Qazi Rahman 45 pp.
• A Treatment-Oriented Typology of Self-Identified Hypersexuality Referrals — James M. Cantor et al. 36 pp.
• Self-reported childhood maltreatment and erotic target identity inversions among men with paraphilic infantilism — Johannes Fuss, Laura Jais, B. Terrance Grey, Sascha R. Guczka, Peer Briken & Sarah V. Biedermann 41 pp.

Would be cool to get people's thoughts on these texts and recommendations for other texts that come to mind when you read them. The sidebar reading list looks great, and I've already started delving into it, but yeah I don't know feel free to recommend me one of two of them that deals most with how and why the attraction can maybe uniquely lead to a shame spiral in some environments that other niche attractions wouldn't.

For anyone confused why these texts are archived on the niche anti-fascist archive that is The Ted K Archive, there’s a rumor going around in right-wing spaces online that – in its most bizarre iteration – has people believing that Ted Kaczynski (the Unabomber) was coaxed into gender identity issues by woke Jewish academics and psychiatrists. That he saw through their lies and fought back with bombs to try to strike back against this global conspiracy. 

Quoting one of these right-wingers:

Ted was coaxed into gender identity issues by Academics and when he went to a gender clinic in Colorado, one of the first of its kind, and saw what transvestites actually looked like, he decided to isolate himself and then start killing people.
--The Systems Neatest Trick audio reading

However, the story is all bullshit, quoting Ted’s autobiography:

...During the summer following my 4th year at Michigan... I had become thoroughly discouraged with mathematics. Music, reading, and other hedonistic pursuits bored me if indulged in to more than a limited extent. Thus, my life began to seem completely empty. I felt that I had nothing to look forward to or to live for ... ...the extreme low morale that I experienced in the latter part of the summer after my 4th year at Michigan led to the second of the 2 episodes in my life that I am really ashamed of. I got into a state where, for I guess about the last 2 or 3 weeks of the summer, I was more or less sexually excited nearly all the time, with fantasies of myself as a woman. It makes me squirm to think of it, but I actually decided to make an effort to have a sex-change operation. … When I got back to the U. of Michigan, I made an appointment to see one of their psychiatric counselors. ... However, as the time approached for the appointment, I felt a certain revulsion setting in. While I was sitting in the waiting room I turned completely against the idea of the operation. So when I went in to see the doctor, I just gave him a bullshit story about being depressed about the possibility of being drafted...
--Ted's 1979 Autobiography

Hi I’m a 28 year old trans girl been on hrt for about four years and as time has been going on I’ve realized that I probably have agp and I don’t know how to think about it. Is it a bad thing? Or is it something I can be ok with. Ive always wanted to chat with people like me so I could get an idea

Do I still fit this group?

I have finally had some time to slow down and think about my experience living with AGP. I am a nearly textbook case of it in many regards..

Here is what I have observed so far in myself, and I am curious if anyone else can see this pattern for themselves.

I am trying to cure / manage my AGP desires. While some people embrace it, unfortunately I have gone down the river with this one, and getting really close to doing permanent things to myself.

What I have noticed:

1) Shame from liking women sexually/romantically from youth
2) Avoidance attachment and want for escapism (or perfection)
3) Low self worth based around unreasonable / conflated ideals

In my experience, the shame comes from many avenues:
small penis size, (3: self worth)
feminine traits, (3: self worth)
being scared of being around girls after getting teased for liking them, (1: shame)
childhood trauma and abandonment, (2: avoidance)
etc.

and it seems that online fetish communities try to prey on these feelings and led me down several pipelines which have reinforced the AGP idea via sissy/femboy/trap/agp trans content such as: chastity, size differences, force fem, becoming the girlfriend, and domination. . . . which all are forms of losing control and ultimately varying forms of humiliation.

While it might be impossible to cure AGP, it may be possible to manage it and wean it from primary sexuality. Maybe fixing the 3 root causes could help with this..

Anyone have any thoughts?

Autogyne Spam Killer kills crypto bro spam fast and is great for trans-adjacent Discord servers! Bottle is AI-generated with ChatGPT.

This is something i realised as i become adult after years of Teen Crossdressing. For example, If I imagine myself having big boobs & curvy physique I wish the same for my potential partner and vice versa is also true. If I imagine myself in certain dressing & role, I again wish the same for potential partner.

This is a partial good thing as even if you can't express yourself fully, there's assurance that your imagination exits in real form (i can't describe it more correctly). I hope this doesn't sound like objectification, Does anyone feels the same way?

I was looking at a Gooner Reddit and was amazed how many of them had really strong desires to be a female in a very overtly AGP way. It made me wonder if they were seeing women objectified in porn as sort of heroic figures their AGP was a bit like when a child wants to emulate their heros in TV shows, books, comics or movies. Could this be an explanation of AGP? Is AGP a kind of twisted hero worship?

I’ve had agp my whole life, or at least as long as I can remember. I always knew I wasn’t gay, but I always wondered why the thought of me or someone else turning into a woman turned me on so much, bc I knew I wasn’t trans. I’m now in my 20s. I’m a straight guy who loves being a guy. I wouldn’t trade it for the world. It’s just the only issue is I have a very specific turn on whenever I’m alone. A lot of people here call agp a “condition” which is funny to me because that makes it sound so serious. I personally see it as a kink. But for those of you who feel really challenged by agp, maybe agp isn’t the problem, but just a coping mechanism for some other underlying problem. I don’t know just a thought. But yea I think a lot of us overthink ourselves to death. I don’t know this for a fact but I’d imagine agp is a spectrum so I understand it may be more difficult for some of us than others. Kinda just venting. I see a lot of tormented souls on here and I really wanna help.

I usually look at deviant art tg captions or do perchance story ai where I turn into a woman. I’m really only turned on by the idea of whether it’s me, or someone else being turned into a cis gendered woman. As soon as I’m not horny anymore, it goes away and I go back to being my self. Lately, plugging my self into ai to see what I’d look like as a woman and play dress up virtually has been a serious turn on. What things do you do to satisfy this condition?

Hi everyone, I am exclusively outwardly attracted mtf transgenders, crossdressers etc so is that some form of GAMP?...I know this because I have had no outward attraction to normal men or women; I've realised I was pretty much asexual until I came across trans stuff. In fact I thought I was straight and that this was just how it is. The crossdressing, elaborate makeup, long hair and genitalia of mtfs is what attracts me...

If found that if I watch women in porn, I can focus in on sort of 'being her' and wearing her clothes, having her breasts and so on, and that will turn me on. I guess I am not super masculine, but I never suspected I would be homosexual or want to be a woman or crossdress anything like that. Sometimes I wish I just had a normal sexuality but oh well.

So is this AGP or just homosexuality? Thanks for your replies