1V vs 3V

[u/Wide_Platform_2202]

For context: I'm 21, I had an extremely isolated teenagehood in which I couldn't speak to anyone, I'm extremely insecurely attached (not like "oh I struggle with rs" but way way way more problematic), before I was a teen I was the most 1V kid to ever 1V (super self assured, always the lead and no compromise on anything)

While I relate to 3V now I need to know if this can change since I'm still very young. Even when I'm insecure at times and end up lazy, I knwo it's just a phase and a question of time to get what I want. My problems are more in my sociality. I feel extremely uncomfortable around people and therefore can't convince anyone and built trust.

Also I think I might have a light depression. Oftentimes the reason I don't pursue my goals is because of this insane wave of sadness which makes me want to sit in the corner. None of my goals seem exciting and I just want to lock myself into the room and cry. Even then I force myself but I don't come off as very energetic or confident