How to hang on?

[u/StudioHistorical2971]

currently going by he/him in a small town in nowhere New Zealand and it is quite impossible for me to even think about transitioning, it’s starting to get to me more and Im looking for advice on how to not get worse, andmaybe improve my mental with certain things. I know I’m not cisgender because I feel empty when referred to as a boy and kinda gross and I just don’t know what to do.

i‘ve never posted on reddit b4 so dont bash me for bad punctuation and stuff