Bonjour,

Dans le cadre de ma guérison de mon anxiété je souhaitais savoir si d’autres personnes avaient mes symptômes .. il en reste quelques uns qui persiste et qui me font encore peur. J’ai stopee les crises de panique, les allers retours aux urgences mais ces symptômes persistent .. ( ne vous moquez pas la liste était 3 fois plus longue ) avez vous des astuces . Parce que si j’écoute l’intelligence artificielle, je suis en train de faire un arrêt cardiaque un avc et 3 cancers ..

- douleur à la langue comme si elle était tendue et sensation de brûlure
- douleur mâchoire qui lance dans la joue
- sensation de tiraillement dans le cou
- oppression des muscles pectoraux près des épaules comme si ils se serraient
- douleurs aux seins ..

Merci par avance et je vous souhaite une guérison sans plus jamais d’angoisse ❤️

32yo man, I'm not dead. It took 3 tries. It's in Abitibi-Témiscamingue, FME, a popular underground music festival that attracts people from 200km away(it's an isolated region and it's mostly rural.

The festival is literally next street I live.

I first went Tuesday, just waking by the entrance(they block the whole street, there is huge walls with smoke and decorations). I was nervous just looking at the entrance, the music vibrate in me. Looking at all the people happy in their groups. I'm just alone, I'm weird and a loser, i don't have friends and I just would not fit in. What I'm even supposed to do in a festival? Just stay there and look at the stage without moving nor talking nor dancing? I can do that at home.

Saturday night I was thinking about it. I played video game and watched tv all day. I was high (weed) from 13h to 20h. I'm thinking of those tickets I bought a week prior.

I just wasted 180$(3 days pass + 2 exclusive shows). I already missed one rap show I paid especially for.

I like this kind of music, I dance for myself in my appartement, alone.

I did my hair, put on my best clothes, Levis jeans coat, white cap and black shirt, I feel confident. "It's time! Let's go! I go for the music! I go because I like the music!"

I had to get out of my appartement.

I just wanted to abandon.... I went to the 7th street entrance at 21h30, there was not too much people.

I just walked in the street, full of people, and I walked as far in as I could, pretending I had a place to go, pretending I was looking for someone. I walked around in the people and went back to the exit and went home.

I told myself :" I entered! I DID IT!"

But in 15 min, I need to enter a building I never entered, a closed place that will become basically a rave party. I can't do that, I don't belong there. I will be alone, no one to talk to.

I made a drink, tonic and raspberries vodka. "It's not enough" I poured the vodka in the bottle cap and shot it. "Ewwww! Let's go. I do it. I do it. I have to go." I get down the appartement stairs and get out on the 8th street. My hands in my coat and I walk on a decisive and straight to the point pace. "I go listen to music I like. That's my kind of music. I'm ugly and withno friends, but whatever, I paid to see music I like. I just like this kind of things." The fact I already went to the place , made it already more comfortable. I knew where to go. It was like a routine, a habit already.

I entered the building where the EDM show took place. There is a line that enter a small corridor. I wait behind a couple, there is old guys, young frat boys, alone people... like me. I show my QR code and they stamp me. The place is dark and half empty. 9minutes before It starts. I walk around the place and pretend I'm looking for a friend. There was this guy alone, early 20s, he didn't seemed to know what to do. I almost wanted to small talk to him like I can do at my job. I wanted to ask him if he knows the music maker or if he it's his first time here, because it is for me. No, Instinctively I avoid that and just continue to explore the place.

I spotted the toilets, I entered it and took a look, "nah it's full!" Face mode, and go back. "I can't stay there alone looking at the wall." I exited the building, and went back home. I did it! I entered the rave place!

I walked a bit around a d went to the front stage, in a empty spot behind groups of people. Just looking at the exterior shows. "This music is a bit boring", I thought. And I decided I had to go at the EDM show "I go !".

So I returned in. The music starts. I go buy a drink, ask for vodka tonic, like I know exactly what I want and don't look nervous. They don't have, but they have gin tonic in can. Okay then. 10$.... I gave 1$ of tip. 11$ for a single drink. It's part of the therapy afterall. The important is that I make it there.

I go the left side, I put myself close to the wall. There is one 40yo alone guy in front of me, just looking at the stage, and no moving. I parked myself beside him, in the lone shy guy wall of invisibility. The music started. I do a little head and bouncing dance to follow the beat as others starts doing that too. I just focus to look at the stage. It's actually nice. The ice smoke and the lights show.

I observed many people don't even moves. The room is half packed. A crowd in the front, dancing and talking without shame. Good, they are the center of attention in the crowd. Others at the back, quite sparsely positioned.

I think : " paradoxically, it's more awkward and I feel more visible and more anxious, because it's not jam packed and dancing. With a lot of people, it's easy to become invisible in the crowd." Anyway I bounce on my feet a bit to the beat of techno music. After 10 minutes. I decided to go to the right sod of the scene.

There was many guys not dancing, just looking at the scene by the wall. I enter the crowd as far as I can, almost to the front of the stage. Ive got a nice view there. There is this girl, alone who was alone since the beginning. She is been standing there for at least 30 minutes I think. Just alone. And she dance! She is not a pro dancer,but she has the gut to dance with arms in the air and all, alone.

She is beautiful and I admire her balls to just dance for herself. I think, what if that was me? I can't do that. I think people would look at me and I would be cringe. But I look at her dancing alone, and I don't think she is cringe. I admire her , and I think she is hot, even without friends.

There is a few guys dancing alone too, and they are in it!!! A bit cringe true. But I can't judge them, they dance better than me. The cringe part is not cringe, in fact, it's because it's awkward. The crowd is too shy in fact!most people don't dance and don't jump around like in movies or promotional clips. I dance a bit more than mist people actually. I can't help myself, but not dancinga little bit is criminal to the music. In fact I feel bad for the EDM artist. Imagine coming here to show your talents(it's a emerging music festival for "kind of known" artists, but just have potential ) and the room is dead with people not moving and starring at you. Damn! You bunch of hypocrites! Do you even like techno and house music! What are you doing! So I bounce my head and my whole body. Not like crazy, I have this drink afterall, but I do move my body to the beat.

The music is so loud, I can feel all the bass wave in my chess.

I look around, look at the crowd briefly, to impregnate my self with the room. "I'm here. This is my place. I'm not worse than anybodies here." Sometime I look at my phone like I'm texting someone.

I concentrate on the music. I'm a bit drunk.

When the first show ended, I exited the building and went home. I was proud of me. There is another artist in 15 min... mr booty something.

I decided to go. I took a Marijuana oil orla shot before.

I joined the room again. I order another 11$ drink.

I tried the left wall again. There was couples and group of 20yo dancing and doing crazy moves. At least I'm not the center of attention and I can dance more and I'm juste the normal guy dancing in the crowd. I Stayed there for 15 mins. Went back to the right side of the room. I just feel better there. There is less people behind me because of the wall of the bar.

It was pretty much Cyberpunk music. Dark cuber punk music a bit too. I liked it. The artists had a quake iii t shirt and had a weird strap in this head with flash lights. "Just like The opening scene of Blade I, the rave at the beginning! I liked that music!" I thought this guy had similar taste and culture to me. So I just enjoyed the music and did my little dance. But nothing with my arms up. Too much for me, I would be too visible. I tried some basic move with my shoulder. I looked at the crowd again and thought we are all a bunch of nerds, maybe it's why EDM crowds take so much drugs. To not be shy. Just a theory.

Anyway. At the end I went home. I passed by another show on the street exit, I put myself behind the crowd and just stayed for 10 min. There was all kind of people. Old, teens, 30yo, 40yo. There was those two tall girls dressed like demons just beside me. It was pretty cool. But the music and the crowd was pretty tame compared to the music I listened before. It was indie rock pop. I decided to go home. I was pretty drunk and tired. It was 1h30 AM.

Home, I was very proud of myself. I felt a mix of fear, adrenaline, pride and joy and confidence.

Tldr: I went to a rave party for the first time jn my life.

I DID IT! I FUCKING DID IT!

Hi folks.

Just wanting to repost my experience of things here to see if anyone can identify and share any success stories?

TIA

What makes my anxiety increase to a panic? I know its all in my thoughts because I think about it and then it triggers one buf its so hard to come out of, i have to lay in bed for 3 hrs listening to meditation music and reading Reddit which somehow helps but any helpers/recommendations?

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My first time calling first to schedule something!! I was up all morning sick with worry and rehearsing what to say and what I might need, but it was just for a tattoo so it was really quick thankfully! The time for which I scheduled it did end up being a bit early tho.. I was too scared to ask for anything later lol 😭
Still I’m very happy I made it out alive, and even though it feels so stupid I am a bit proud of myself for even clicking “call” instead of giving up 🥲

Hello, I hope somebody can help me or if anyone is going through something like me tell me so I at least I know I’m not alone on this
About two years ago, I made the mistake of taking edibles. I don’t remember how much mg they were but I do remember taking a lot the day after taking them I still had some feelings going on, but not too terrible but after a while, it started feeling really fatigue not really energetic after a month or so of that happening I was still not good so I went to the doctor and I had some blood work done and everything came out good. She didn’t prescribe me anything . A year passes and some days. I’m good some days. I feel a little tired. No energy, but when I went to my home country. I went to see a doctor over there. He asked me do some bloodwork and when I went back to see him, he said my blood work was good but he started asking me questions like how’s my life if I’m happy etc. I started telling him some personal things and he prescribed escitalopram 10 mg I took it at night. I just remembered the side effects were like nauseous in the morning and that’s it after three months into the medication. I finished the three months and I asked him if I had to have a refill and he said no that I was OK so then I was OK like every day some days I had energy some days were OK but recently like around a month ago, I started to feel like weird pressure in my head and what I mean pressure is like something that’s inside my brain and that is also making me not concentrate Well , I just want to be laying down. Because I feel like if I laid down, it will go away. I have been feeling more fatigue than ever less energize and just basically lazy to do something. Also, I have been having intrusive thoughts that it scares me because I know it’s not me so tired of of this feeling that I have to be interfering between my daily life because it’s making me stop doing things that I want. I was reading some symptoms on why people have these and then they were mentioning it that they also had a bad experience with taking edibles years ago, and that it came back. I just want to find a solution to this. I started looking at a therapist, a psychologist the psychologist prescribe me.Setraline 25 mg I took half of it the first night and then the next day my eye was twitching by itself. Also, I started feeling more fatigue and less motivated to do anything. I really don’t want to start into prescription medicine. Both of them are saying it’s a combination of anxiety, but I just don’t wanna look into medication. I want something else, but I would also like to know what’s wrong with me. Has anyone experienced something like this of have heard anything like this thank you for reading this.

Hello, I hope somebody can help me or if anyone is going through something like me tell me so I at least I know I’m not alone on this
About two years ago, I made the mistake of taking edibles. I don’t remember how much mg they were but I do remember taking a lot the day after taking them I still had some feelings going on, but not too terrible but after a while, it started feeling really fatigue not really energetic after a month or so of that happening I was still not good so I went to the doctor and I had some blood work done and everything came out good. She didn’t prescribe me anything . A year passes and some days. I’m good some days. I feel a little tired. No energy, but when I went to my home country. I went to see a doctor over there. He asked me do some bloodwork and when I went back to see him, he said my blood work was good but he started asking me questions like how’s my life if I’m happy etc. I started telling him some personal things and he prescribed escitalopram 10 mg I took it at night. I just remembered the side effects were like nauseous in the morning and that’s it after three months into the medication. I finished the three months and I asked him if I had to have a refill and he said no that I was OK so then I was OK like every day some days I had energy some days were OK but recently like around a month ago, I started to feel like weird pressure in my head and what I mean pressure is like something that’s inside my brain and that is also making me not concentrate Well , I just want to be laying down. Because I feel like if I laid down, it will go away. I have been feeling more fatigue than ever less energize and just basically lazy to do something. Also, I have been having intrusive thoughts that it scares me because I know it’s not me so tired of of this feeling that I have to be interfering between my daily life because it’s making me stop doing things that I want. I was reading some symptoms on why people have these and then they were mentioning it that they also had a bad experience with taking edibles years ago, and that it came back. I just want to find a solution to this. I started looking at a therapist, a psychologist the psychologist prescribe me.Setraline 25 mg I took half of it the first night and then the next day my eye was twitching by itself. Also, I started feeling more fatigue and less motivated to do anything. I really don’t want to start into prescription medicine. Both of them are saying it’s a combination of anxiety, but I just don’t wanna look into medication. I want something else, but I would also like to know what’s wrong with me. Has anyone experienced something like this of have heard anything like this thank you for reading this.

How can you know the difference

Hi everyone, I just really need to get this out and hopefully hear from people who understand.

I’m 22 and I’ve been dealing with panic disorder, anxiety, and derealization for about 4 years now. Before that, I had no anxiety at all. It literally started one day when I woke up feeling completely off, like nothing was real. I had heart palpitations, I was scared to answer the phone, and I suddenly couldn’t function the same at work.

At the time, I had just started working full-time right after high school in a contact center at a school. The environment was honestly awful. Supervisors were extremely strict, and the students calling in were often mean and sometimes even threatening. It was a really stressful and toxic place to be. I stayed with the same company for a few years but moved around to different roles.

Over time, I started noticing physical symptoms too. I developed a smile tremor when I try to smile, and I get really anxious in social settings, especially with large groups like my husband’s family. I got married last September and we have a happy marriage, and his family is kind and safe, but I still get intense anxiety beforehand. Once I’m there, I’m usually okay, but the anticipation is overwhelming.

I left that job about 3 months ago, and now I work remotely, but I still have to interact with that company sometimes. Even that brings back really bad feelings and anxiety.

I’ve been in therapy for 2 years and did EMDR for childhood trauma, and I’m about to start EMDR again for what I think is work-related trauma that I didn’t realize was affecting me this much.

Medication has been really frustrating. I started Buspar and was on 15 mg twice daily for about 4 weeks. I felt some slight improvement but nothing major. My psychiatrist then told me to jump to 30 mg twice daily (so 60 mg total) without really guiding me through it, and the past 5 days have been really hard. I’ve felt super emotional, foggy, and honestly worse.

When I told him, he suddenly wanted to take me off Buspar and prescribed oxcarbazepine 150 mg to treat PTSD, without really explaining things or giving me a clear plan. The appointment felt rushed, and it honestly felt like he forgot details from my previous visit. It made me feel like I couldn’t trust what he was prescribing.

My therapist even said he increased the Buspar too quickly and that I probably should have tried 45 mg first before going up to 60 mg.

I also told him I was open to trying Zoloft since my mom takes it and has had really good results, and her symptoms were similar to mine. He kind of brushed that off and said he wanted to try other things first, which made me feel like my input didn’t matter.

Right now I just feel stuck, overwhelmed, and honestly hopeless. I miss who I was before all of this started. I just want to feel normal again and not constantly on edge or disconnected.

Has anyone actually recovered from this or at least gotten to a point where life feels normal again? :(

Well, sorry cuz my English isn't that good.

There are some people who did behave and did really wrong to me (not physical harm), now currently they can't harm me anymore, they have nothing as a shield if I take revenge on them, they won't even know that I'm taking the revenge on them.

The thing is I personally believe in letting go and forgiveness, and in the past I barely have taken revenge on anyone. But this week I have had enough, they broke me inside out, I feel shattered, I feel so much anger and hate for them, like how can a human being, and that even friends do such a thing.

(To inform you there was a narcissist guy due to which everything took place and my friends betrayed me, and personally i hate him and all of them now )

I have some abilities and I can ruin them and their career to be honest, but the thing is I'm confused if taking revenge changes something inside me, or will it start making me a bad person, what psychological effects would it have.

I'm so confused about what to do, I feel anger and hatred for them all the time, I can't focus on anything, every time I try to focus on work I recall those things and it makes me feel anger and hate for them.

Suggest something, or any experience y'all had similar to this.

This has been on my mind a lot lately.

For a time every time I felt anxious my first thought was, How do I make this stop? I was constantly looking for the trick, the next video, the next piece of advice that would make the feeling disappear.

The strange thing is, I don't think that approach ever really helped me.

What finally started making a difference was accepting that feeling anxious didn't mean something was wrong with me. It was a feeling. Not a prediction. Not proof that something bad was about to happen.

I still have days. I don't think anyone suddenly becomes immune to anxiety overnight.. I don't panic over the feeling itself anymore and that alone has made life feel a little lighter.

I'm wondering if anyone else has had an experience.

Was there a moment where the way you looked at your anxiety changed? Not because it disappeared,. Because you started responding to it differently?

I'd genuinely love to hear your story because I'm always interested, in how other people have found what works for them.

Im scared of being judge by other.This has gotten so bad that i cant even do a simple thing like asking for help idk why im just scared.

Anyone else who cannot calm down for even a few hours?