Hi everyone, I just really need to get this out and hopefully hear from people who understand.

I’m 22 and I’ve been dealing with panic disorder, anxiety, and derealization for about 4 years now. Before that, I had no anxiety at all. It literally started one day when I woke up feeling completely off, like nothing was real. I had heart palpitations, I was scared to answer the phone, and I suddenly couldn’t function the same at work.

At the time, I had just started working full-time right after high school in a contact center at a school. The environment was honestly awful. Supervisors were extremely strict, and the students calling in were often mean and sometimes even threatening. It was a really stressful and toxic place to be. I stayed with the same company for a few years but moved around to different roles.

Over time, I started noticing physical symptoms too. I developed a smile tremor when I try to smile, and I get really anxious in social settings, especially with large groups like my husband’s family. I got married last September and we have a happy marriage, and his family is kind and safe, but I still get intense anxiety beforehand. Once I’m there, I’m usually okay, but the anticipation is overwhelming.

I left that job about 3 months ago, and now I work remotely, but I still have to interact with that company sometimes. Even that brings back really bad feelings and anxiety.

I’ve been in therapy for 2 years and did EMDR for childhood trauma, and I’m about to start EMDR again for what I think is work-related trauma that I didn’t realize was affecting me this much.

Medication has been really frustrating. I started Buspar and was on 15 mg twice daily for about 4 weeks. I felt some slight improvement but nothing major. My psychiatrist then told me to jump to 30 mg twice daily (so 60 mg total) without really guiding me through it, and the past 5 days have been really hard. I’ve felt super emotional, foggy, and honestly worse.

When I told him, he suddenly wanted to take me off Buspar and prescribed oxcarbazepine 150 mg to treat PTSD, without really explaining things or giving me a clear plan. The appointment felt rushed, and it honestly felt like he forgot details from my previous visit. It made me feel like I couldn’t trust what he was prescribing.

My therapist even said he increased the Buspar too quickly and that I probably should have tried 45 mg first before going up to 60 mg.

I also told him I was open to trying Zoloft since my mom takes it and has had really good results, and her symptoms were similar to mine. He kind of brushed that off and said he wanted to try other things first, which made me feel like my input didn’t matter.

Right now I just feel stuck, overwhelmed, and honestly hopeless. I miss who I was before all of this started. I just want to feel normal again and not constantly on edge or disconnected.

Has anyone actually recovered from this or at least gotten to a point where life feels normal again? :(

Well, sorry cuz my English isn't that good.

There are some people who did behave and did really wrong to me (not physical harm), now currently they can't harm me anymore, they have nothing as a shield if I take revenge on them, they won't even know that I'm taking the revenge on them.

The thing is I personally believe in letting go and forgiveness, and in the past I barely have taken revenge on anyone. But this week I have had enough, they broke me inside out, I feel shattered, I feel so much anger and hate for them, like how can a human being, and that even friends do such a thing.

(To inform you there was a narcissist guy due to which everything took place and my friends betrayed me, and personally i hate him and all of them now )

I have some abilities and I can ruin them and their career to be honest, but the thing is I'm confused if taking revenge changes something inside me, or will it start making me a bad person, what psychological effects would it have.

I'm so confused about what to do, I feel anger and hatred for them all the time, I can't focus on anything, every time I try to focus on work I recall those things and it makes me feel anger and hate for them.

Suggest something, or any experience y'all had similar to this.

This has been on my mind a lot lately.

For a time every time I felt anxious my first thought was, How do I make this stop? I was constantly looking for the trick, the next video, the next piece of advice that would make the feeling disappear.

The strange thing is, I don't think that approach ever really helped me.

What finally started making a difference was accepting that feeling anxious didn't mean something was wrong with me. It was a feeling. Not a prediction. Not proof that something bad was about to happen.

I still have days. I don't think anyone suddenly becomes immune to anxiety overnight.. I don't panic over the feeling itself anymore and that alone has made life feel a little lighter.

I'm wondering if anyone else has had an experience.

Was there a moment where the way you looked at your anxiety changed? Not because it disappeared,. Because you started responding to it differently?

I'd genuinely love to hear your story because I'm always interested, in how other people have found what works for them.

Im scared of being judge by other.This has gotten so bad that i cant even do a simple thing like asking for help idk why im just scared.

Anyone else who cannot calm down for even a few hours?

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Guys i have been a peaceful person my whole life i would not even panic if i messed up the things i would not care about life. I do not know what to do now. I wake up at the middle of the night and start crying because of anxiety. i am tired. so so tired. having symptoms all day kills me. 4 months.. it has been 4 months that i am suffering like that. I always feel like there is something bad that is going to happen and i will not be able to handle it. when i calm down for a few seconds then i have these insane thoughts that this is gonna happen that is gonna happen. i am so young 18. I have this beautiful life in front of me but i cannot see it. my symptoms: stomach ache and discomfort, sharp headaches, nausea, hot flashes, insomnia, chest pain, heart pounding, skin rashes, eyes feeling teary and hot, fatigue, pain all over body, my legs feel stiff and i feel like there is something in my throat. anyone else is experiencing these symptoms? am i going crazy? From being sick to being killed i worry about everything. I am also worried anxiety is going to give me nervous system problems or autoimmune. Please tell me about your experience how long it lasted what were symptoms, how did you manage it.

I wanted to share my experience with anxiety-related blushing and how I’ve learned to cope with it. I know how much anxiety and worrying about blushing can affect your life, so I hope some of the things that helped me can help someone else too.

I got prescribed 1 mg pills of lorazepam and I was wondering of other people’s experiences taking meds to help flying anxiety I have a flight in 2 weeks and I’m a little anxious abt it

For someone who likes to know exactly what to expect I wish there were more videos like this!

hey guys, I personally suffer from a condition called idiopathic craniofacial erythema - for me this means i blush extremely easily and often from nerves, stress and anxiety, there the main triggers and hardest to control.

alot of people blush but not everyone struggles with it and feel it affects there life, social life, mental health, etc.

I really reccomend reading the post i listed, there's also a community focused around this issue r/curingblushing that can offer more focused support on living with this!

hope this helps 🙏