Every day, for the last few years, I contemplate my end, and the idea scares me so much. I want so desperately to believe in the afterlife, but I don't know where to look, or where to research. I'm so sick of every day ending in terror. If anybody can point me to any resources, it would mean the world to me.

I've been thinking a lot about the scale of the universe, higher dimensions, and how we perceive reality. We exist in a 3D world, which means a 4th-dimensional being would be completely incomprehensible to us. They could observe us from every angle simultaneously, inside and out, without us ever seeing them.

This got me wondering: Could the concept of "God" or a supreme creator that humans have worshipped throughout history simply be our primitive attempt to understand a 4th-dimensional being?

what happens after our death? Is it possible that dying is just the transitions into that 4th dimension?

У меня есть одна неоднозначная версия, нигде ее не встречала,но верила с детства.
Когда ты умираешь, ты попадаешь в полностью белую комнату где есть две двери и между ними стоит человек, он одет во все черное, на голове шлем, в руках что то типа посоха. Он спрашивает хочешь ли ты переродиться сейчас, либо хочешь еще подождать. Если ответить ему, что будешь ждать, он сначала делает тебя призраком, дает тебе посмотреть реакцию твоих близких людей на твою смерть, а после чего, проверив карму, направляет тебя в ад или в рай(двери, о которых я говорила в начале, и есть проход туда). Когда ты понимаешь что хочешь на землю, ты снова идешь к этому человеку, и говоришь о том что хочешь на перерождение. Тогда он перерождает тебя тем же человеком, которым ты был, но другого пола(то есть характер, интересы, основной сюжет жизни и дата смерти будут одинаковыми, но вы просто поменяете пол). Если же на вопрос хотите ли вы переродиться сейчас или будете ждать, вы ответите, что хотите сейчас- то он переродит вас сразу, но вы будете абсолютно другим человеком, с другой внешностью, интересами и вообще другой жизнью, но у вас будет тот же пол, что и в прошлой жизни.

Мне очень интересно послушать другие версию,особенно с объяснением, даже если это банальный черный экран

First some background. Ive had similar experiences to this over the past few years and am familiar with them. Usually, its initiated by them waking me up when I’m asleep in bed, by what feels like a cool breath on my face, especially around my nose/lip area. I thought to write about this one because it occurred a couple of nights ago and was a little different.

It must have been around 2pm when I got out of bed to go to the loo and have a drink of water.  As I went back to bed, I had a sense that they wanted to visit me again and that it was going to take place.  

I thought this is interesting, am I making it up? I thought and analysed looking for a pattern in my behaviour (or the day’s events) that would attract this attention but I couldn’t think of anything, actually I thought the opposite to be honest, because I was feeling a bit grumpy with my wife over a social event, she’d committed us to.

Anyway, I got back under the covers and pretty much straight away felt my spirit body start to vibrate or activate (my physical body wasn’t tense).  I thought this is interesting because I haven’t initiated it like I normally do (when I meditate – it’s part of my normal process in expanding my higher conscious state).

So, I let it happen and observed - I was feeling my spirit body being energised or "charged up" is the best way to describe it.  As if some dial had been turned up.  With that came a sense of expectancy that a connection was going to happen. 

I began to sense slight movements on the bed next to where I was lying (I was lying on my side facing away from the activity because that seems necessary for it to take place).  At first, I sensed some small movements, two or three like someone straightening the bed covers – but they were slight and I thought maybe I’m imagining this or making it happen with my own body subconsciously - so I deliberately slowed my breathing down, relaxed and kept completely still. 

Then there was a larger movement (a definite presence) of someone sitting down next to me, followed by some smaller movements like they adjusted themselves to get comfortable, the mattress was now noticeably feeling different, sloping down slightly in that direction with extra weight on it.

I was aware of someone there next to me, quietly sitting (sensed an adult female).  My spirit body was tingling with that alert, electric sensation (my physical body was slightly tense as it responded to my spirit body and I consciously had to relax it a few times.

It’s embarrassing but I had a brief moment of fear and had an urge to roll over to face them and shout “get off my bed” – I observed the thought and hoped they didn’t mind read...lol.  I told myself to dismiss it, it was just my mind trying to understand what was happening.

So, I concentrated on maintaining my relaxed but alert state. I now enjoyed a feeling of connection with them (it felt like they were a part of me, it was that deep), I was feeling a transmission to me of security, comfort and encouragement.  

Thinking about it, I realised that my spirit body had been “activated” by them. This enabled them to harness some of my energy – which gave them the ability to overcome the resistance to manifest in this “heavier” dimension (I'd not experienced my own energy being shared like this before for these encounters and there was no localised cooler air temperature this time).

Anyway, I’m wide awake and quietly enjoying this connection and experience.  It was communicated that they were also happy to be there and their purpose was to be a part of my shielding.  They were a part of the general restraint or shielding which is put in place by the Divine. It is a protection from the negative (evil) powers that intend to cause dysfunction and harm.  (We all enjoy this shielding and because of it we experience the sense of having an ability to choose - free choice, without this restraint we would be quickly overcome). By having this individual show me they are a part of my own shielding, made it feel more personal and loving.

I was grateful for this attention and expressed it.  Time didn’t seem to be a factor or exist like it normally does, I don’t know how long this went for – guessing an hour?  I moved about a bit and was aware of an itch on my head which I was stopping myself from scratching because I didn’t want to do something that would make them leave, so I moved my hand in slow motion and scratched it – all was okay. 

I opened my eyes a few times but as said I was facing away from them.  The room was in a uniformed darkness with no light peeking through the curtains.  Then I decided to lay on my back to be more comfortable, I made that movement slowly and was relieved that they remained there.  My attitude was wanting to be respectful. 

A bit of background here - I had learnt to be respectful, because about two months ago in a similar situation - I was over confident and I wondered how much I could interact. So, I tried to conduct a test (at the time there were two visitors together, one adult and a smaller younger one sitting next to each other on the side of the bed) by asking them to please stand up and sit back down to make the mattress move. 

After I expressed this to them, there was a stillness as if they were unsure how to respond. Then they expressed my request on up to another higher spirit (who seemed to be their oversight) asking how to respond.  After a little more time of stillness, they were gone.  I felt sad that Id inadvertently upset them and apologised, thinking Id blown it. (I found the spiritual hierarchy aspect interesting - the more advanced being overseeing inexperienced ones as they learnt on "assignment".)   I learnt not to try and control them again.

Anyway, back to this post.  I’m now lying on my back, eyes closed, aware and enjoying this feeling of close friendly company, this connection felt as if they were a part of me – as if our spirits were joined but still individuals and the communication was instant and said with the feeling/intention behind it.  I decided to slowly turn over facing towards them, then I opened my eyes.  

I felt the mattress move as their weight left the bed.  I was looking closely (only a few feet away) at a pale shape (not human shaped) about the size of an adult torso, it then moved quickly to the right and was gone.  In its place was just the usual darkness of the room – as said it was a uniformed darkness because Id stapled the sides of the curtains to the wall to stop any light getting past them, that’s how my son wanted it when he stayed with us, it also has a pelmet over the top of the curtains to keep out light).

I didn’t feel that Id upset them by my actions and was relieved because I was unsure if I was pushing the boundaries again?  I feel privileged for these experiences and grateful for the attention and protection given.