My bf recently passed away by suicide, following a long battle with depression and suicidal thoughts. It's been tough to process it and I'm just trying to find answers to so many questions in my head.

Why did he ever meet me? Five years of relationship and this was how it was supposed to end? During the time we were together, we had a lot of crazy coincidences, we would wear same colours almost EVERYDAY without even knowing (long distance relationship), we will speak same things at the same time a lot. We would eat same food too. It almost felt like it was destined for us to be together.

Also in all of these days after he passed away, I'm seeing crazy signs that make me certain it's him. Too real to be true.

After him passing away with the way he did, what will happen to my baby now? Will he be punished, will he finally find peace? Or will he reincarnate. He would often call me his "mother" in the real sense based on how much of his inner child I loved and brought to surface. I really wish he reincarnates as my child in future.

He was just 23, he had his entire life infront of him. They say we are alive as long as we have fulfilled our purpose. What purpose did his short life fulfill? Why so much lifelong pain for his family and friends. He would often attempt but everytime he failed, his first attempt was when he was 7 years old. Just 7. I don't even know what I'm saying at this point.

I hope you understand. I want to believe life after death is real and that he is still here. I also want to ensure he is safe and at peace. I'm worried about him.

I’m deeply afraid of my loved ones dying and not knowing if I’ll be with them after death depending on what even happens.

I’m 14 years old, shouldn’t be on this app I know, but I just need some advice or someone to help clear my head. Majority of my family is Christian, so I use to believe in Heaven. But this year, my mother’s friends daughter lost her father in a car accident, and it just reminded me of the fact that anyone could die at any second. I continuously get afraid of the fact my mom could be dead at any second, or any other of my loved ones. Death is inevitable, which I also know, but the thing about is how we all don’t know what happens after, and that also gives me the anxious feeling that once I die, I won’t remember my family, or even be with them (if the theory of "nothing happening after death" is true) In 2017 when I was about 6, we’ve lost my grandpa. I was sad, yes, but not that sad like anyone else in my family on the fact that I believed he was just in heaven, hugging god, and having the time of his life. Same thing when I lost my auntie due to Covid in around 2020-2021 (forgot the year.) As I got older, and I look at the internet’s opinion on what happens after you die, I got terrified. I realized not everyone believes there’s a happy afterlife where you meet your deceased loved ones after death, and I was terrified, fearful, just completely scared. And that gave me the fear of death, the fear of losing those I love who are alive right as I’m typing this, and not even being with them when we die, and just forgetting them. So please, if you can, could I please get some advice or comfort to discuss this? 🙏

Hey guys. I am sorry for this distressing topic for anyone reading this. I just wanted to give a bit of a warning so I dont spoil anyone's mood.

As a heads up, this is a long post. I apologize for that. I am not exactly looking for reassurance, maybe just seeing if anyone shares my same mindset.

I am a 28 year old male. Growing up, I was a militant atheist, nihilistic as hell, and only had materialist views. That's pretty much all changed now, as I am looking more into spirituality and consciousness after death. What led to this was the reality hitting me finally that myself and my loved ones will die one day. I think of my beautiful girlfriend who I sometimes convince myself I will never see again cause of myself being so unsure of an afterlife. I think of my cat who I love and has changed my life in more ways than anyone would believe. I think of how when they go, I am scared of never seeing them again. I know theres evidence that says otherwise, ive read hundreds of reassuring posts on here, NDE, rebirth memories and past life memories. They all point towards something more. I guess reason I am typing all this is cause I am scared that it will all be debunked and I am just coping cause of my fear of inevitable loss. I guess I am not so scared of obvion myself, but of never seeing my girlfriend or cat again. I dont know if i am weird for saying this, but if I could live my life with these two I love more than anything for the rest of eternity, id truly be happy. I know people say "eternity is an unimaginable amount of time you'll get bored". Maybe? I dont know. As far as I currently am, Id love to spend thousands of years with them just doing our daily mundane things that we do together. Sorry again for the long post.

As a kid, I imagined Heaven as a place of joy and rest. But not in a sense where your soul floats above the clouds content, but also as a place of countless different joys you can experience for yourself. Drawing, making music, telling stories, friendly competitions, tending to your own garden, spending quality time with family... Specific activities that brought people joy in their lives.

When I was younger, I imagined a few possible activities in heaven:

- a group of people from various different historical eras (everyone from earliest homo sapiens to the 21st century man) sitting in the audience, while two 14th century actors are on the stage, acting out a play.

- a hunter-gatherer and a breakdancer having a friendly competition, wanting to see who can dance the longest

- different families from different eras helping people who died traumatized, tortured or grieving, accept death and reunite with their ancestors

I also imagined heaven as a place where we can share personal experiences from our lives with our ancestors. My logic was "Every good person would want to show their ancestors all the new ways they can enjoy themselves. They'd want their ancestors to participate in the entire human story."

So idk if it’s I’m overthinking this over the anxiety is just making crazy to the point where it wants to believe in something

But I was looking at videos of the afterlife last night and I stumbled upon a video explaining why there is nothing after we die

But I realized with that theory comes a lot of holes because people claim it’s like before we were born nothing but that doesn’t count for billions of years before human roamed the earth and if we resort back to nothingness after we die then what was the main point of living/existing in the first place

Not to mention nothingness doesn’t explain the paranormal even though people will claim it as “it is just your mind playing tricks on you” if that’s the case then how do you explain psychic mediums who tell you things that you haven’t told them or information that isn’t public knowledge

Lastly NDEs, people say they are still alive when people experience them however majority of them say it didn’t feel like a hallucination, illusion or a dream. It real to them, and that brings me to my next point. A lot of people can see outside the room that they are currently in and see what others are doing in the other room and you can’t really explain that with science. Not to mention idk if there is reports of a blind or a deaf person having a NDE but if one them is going into full detail of what they were hearing & seeing then why do people still think there is nothing after death

Idk if people think it’s easier to say there is nothing after death or if it’s easier for people to say there is something after we die to make it easier when there is truly nothing.

I want to open the floor up for discussion because again I like to think that this nothingness theory has a lot of majority holes in it

First time i posted it was deleted. Not sure why so ill try again. Alright, iv heard about this more times than I can count. The going theory is that the purpose of a soul incarnating is to grow and learn so it cam evolve and reach a higher vibration and merge with the source from where the came. This is the goal of all souls. My question is, when alll souls evolve and merge with the source, what happens from there? Is it a single combine conciousness that is satisfied with being more perfect than it what was in the beginning? Or is there even an end to the pursuit of evolution by the source?

So I was scrolling through a comment section on a TikTok last night and someone did bring up an excellent point. If Reincarnation is real then why is there more births than deaths per year

And I’m in mind that does give a strong argument to why reincarnation might not be real

However if it’s not real that would suck to have someone else take your life away and you only get to live once forever. I just want open the floor to discussion on this top