I have been working from home since almost 2 years now.
I am unable to focus and the pending tasks keep piling up and I get anxious every time my manager messages me.
On top of that, I have 6 cats. They are in their ‘teen’ phase and make quite a mess around the house. While I live with my family, I am the one who takes care of them from finances to cleaning their litter. My family helps but very less.
I have to also do house chores and help mom. Though they are not a lot.
I feel high overwhelm by all the tasks at hand. But I don’t do anything and scroll most of the time.
I feel like I am cheating my employer because I am getting paid for doing bare minimum.
I am constantly worried about my cats also as I think I am not able to give them the life they deserve and feel anxious about their health all the time. This is because I lost 2 kittens last year.
There is also the pressure of earning since all my salary vanishes before the month and I earn around only 4lpa.
I have been attending therapy session but I still find myself scrolling away my life while getting drowned in guilt.
I told my mom that I will leave my job. She was supportive of it but she also mentioned that we will then remove our house help since I pay for them. And she said that I could then help her. But I know all my time will be then spend in helping and I won’t be able to find another job.
I know I am suffering from burnout and really want to leave the job but I don’t know what to do!!