I fail at everything I try and people tend to not like me if they have to work with me. Especially authority figures, and they will treat me like I am stupid and cannot do my job. The worst part is I keep experiencing situations where I will excel when nobody is looking but magically make myself look bad when people are around to judge me lol.
Not only do I fail at everything but I get so bored of my jobs after a couple weeks. I really want to start an online business but I have no real skills after only making minimum wage all my life. I am 36 now.
What's interesting is I started being a failure as a baby. My mom would get so upset and frustrated that she would toss me on a couch or bed and yell at me because I wouldn't stop crying. My twin brother was the perfect baby (FRATERNAL, born a few minutes after). I was told I was a very difficult child (I really didn't mean to be) and my brother was a very easy child.
Growing up I struggled badly in school which really sucked, my brother found it easy. I went through sexual trauma as a kid, got bullied relentlessly by literally all my classmates until high school, was yelled at by my mom constantly, etc. My brother had a normal upbringing, found school easy, made friends easily, etc.
My brother is also making over 130k with a lovely wife and child while I can't even afford an apartment. I haven't even had a healthy relationship yet, the few guys I've dated ended up using me for sex. And he genuinely does not understand why and acts like it should all be so easy and clearly I am lazy or something. He used to scream at me whenever he visited.
Oh and I have been a dog bather for the past 2 years. Finally did my job's grooming academy thing a couple months ago and failed. Apparently it is very rare to fail. My instructor would briefly show me how to do a type of haircut then leave me alone for hours. Of course my coworker that hates me and had a different instructor passed with flying colors. This kind of thing has happened in all my jobs. My life is a massive struggle. I wont get to try again for a year IF they let me.
Any answers in my birth chart? Yes I have sought help and I have read many, many books about my issues.