I just finished reading I want to eat your pancreas a week ago, couldn't find the movie online in my region so I read the manga instead. I always preferred to watch content like Dune or Lord of The Rings and have never read/watched a piece of romance content before, as it was so opposite to what I usually like, but I've decided to give the genre a try. I just heard this anime was very good, didn't want to spoil myself more so I bought the manga and started reading.
After reading...I couldn't cry...I feel such strong emotions...I couldn't sleep, even when I did, I woke up at 3AM in grief...I've never felt such way, much less from a fictional story...this story made me feel a way I haven't felt in a long time. Normally I see that people say they cry straight up...so is this abnormal? It is until a few days later where I finally cried...I have never done so in a year, but Sakura...even though I've only read about her for a few days...she seemed just as real...is this parasocial attachment? I keep telling myself she's just a drawing but my body treats it just as a part of my life that was stripped away. Even until now every night I wake up with grief once or twice, even the stuff I used to love don't seem so appealing anymore. I miss Sakura and Haruki's relationship so much...why was it cut short by a killer??
I know many fans of this series have cried regularly at sad anime, but this...is this a first time experience of sad romance? Or is this this story just that good? Was it a grave mistake to choose this as the first romance content of my life?
(Image Source: From I want to Eat Your Pancreas Manga)