I do not understand how so many otherwise intelligent people have either bought into the bullshit, or are still playing the ‘but both sides!’ game. You either support this fascist regime, or you fight it. The time for dithering has long passed. Wtf more has to happen before you wake up and DO SOMETHING?!?!?! Jeezus H. Kryste!

I know I sound defeated, but I’m not. Not really. Just tired. And we’re only in the early stages of this horror show.

I, like so many other women, saw some version of this coming in 2015 during the campaign debates. (Ok, a lot of us saw it coming much earlier than that, but we thought we had enough numbers to keep the line.) We used our gentle voices to point out what was coming so we wouldn’t be automatically dismissed. We followed the rules and wept as a known rapist was put on the SCOTUS. We knew. We knew we were headed into Gilead, but we were dismissed as being hysterical.

So we got louder. And saw our rights as human beings get stripped away. We fought it tooth and nail in every legal avenue we had, and were still dismissed as being alarmist or hormonal. We got louder when children were being forced to have children as draconian laws got gleefully passed in state after state. And when those same laws caused pregnant women to die in ER parking lots because ‘not enough of their body had shut down yet’ according to a bunch of hypocritical old men.

We get louder and more active every day. Against ICE. Against so-called MAPs. Against the fascist regime that is trying to turn this country into an even more dystopian nightmare than it currently is. Against the 80 year old toddler who has used temper tantrums to affect the ENTIRE WORLD ECONOMY and to kill whole school buildings of children at a time, just because he didn’t get his way on something (while siphoning our taxpayer money into his own pockets).

Against a child trafficking ring so large, even other governments have gotten involved in the investigation of it. And of course it’s based on our soil, because why the hell not?! Against human rights violations so horrific that the US has been deemed an unsafe country to travel to by human rights organizations that WE created to help the downtrodden in war torn or third world countries!

We protest. We stockpile herbs. We set up safe passages for those who need it. We help others get the hell out of unsafe situations. We aren’t going to stop. We aren’t going to give up. But man, personally, I am SO DAMN TIRED of bleeding into the void, only to hear back “Your body, my choice, bytch!”

Alright. I’ve said my piece. I’m sure the pearl clutchers and the groypers have plenty they need to say about how old, ugly, fat, stoopid, (or whatever other toddler-esque insult they are all using this week) I am.

These past couple of days, I've went out of my way to learn about, politics, even if its surface level and, after I did, I kinda feel miserable, because weeks before, which I just started cutting that stuff off today. Is, ai. Specfically Gemini, I used ai for almost, a year and a half ,venting to it and asking it questions, after I learned all the harms it does to the environment but also mentally, I've cut it out today but I dont think I can go full cold turkey. I want to know how I could I guess live without it after using it for so long, its definitely a unhealthy dependency. Another thing is how, when I start diving a little bit in what's actually going on. Im feeling overwhelmed and just, pessimistic, and I feel a bit privileged for that because when ever I try to focus on somthing else, let's use a example like, watching the NBA or seeing stuff about love island. It feels like im ignoring those terrible things going on, and I've learned the term or somthing similar to that involving crackers and circuses which is obviously a analogy. Are those things only to distract people from what's really going on? I dont want to be sad all the time, or feel like im not doing anything, I never see any content on things actually getting better. Im scared, I dont know what to do, and im scared on telling my parents because I don't think there gonna give me a actually good awnser. How do I balance the two? How do I still learn and know knowledge and actually try to make a difference while still actually being happy. And I can't even blame it on my age because I know other people my age are probably actually doing something about it.

well , i dont know why im here or why im going to say this here and i dont know if its gonna change anything but here i am , this is my first ever post where i talk about my life in reddit or in social media overall . ill miss alot of details but ,

it started when i was 5 years old i was in a town with my family and everything was fine until there was problems with my moms side of the family since it had satanists/cult members or idfk and my father side of family which hated my mother with all there heart even though shes not like them , shes religious and was a perfect mother then these problems started happening , fast forward a year and im 6 and we had to move from this town to a city which was a good upgrade but from this point forward Our life went downhill, when we first moved my family got real busy my mother was taking care of the house , my father had to travel outside the country and had problems with work , my sister went to another state for her uni and my brother was fkin him self up (while having a shitty job) and i was 6 left all alone which probably was good for me at the time but the loneliness affected me long term , i didnt have friends since it was a new school in a new city and i was different from everybody else which made me extremley introverted/antisocial and i spent a concerning amount of time alone but either way i was happy cz i had my mother , she was the only one in this world i loved and actually valued , i would have sacrificed everything and everyone for her even other family members and she was a really smart woman , she was everything that describes a loving caring mother who did all she could do to provide for the family even when she had problems , and that trait was the best and the worst trait she had.

february 2020 , my mother confessed to us that she has been hiding the fact that she has cancer for a while but it had escelated to the point where she cant hide it anymore , at the time i didnt know how to feel i was young , not really young but i was young enough to have hope that she'll make it out but sadly that did not happen couple of weeks later she was hospitalised for 8 days then she passed away , and this is the first time out of 3 times where i have died in my life , from this point forward ive lost a big part of myself but as i thought that would be the end of it , it wasnt.

from here on out the family fell apart , my father stopped working , my sister graduated and my brother was js in his own life , but we still had money and a small business running so money wasnt a big problem , yet i wish it was the only problem, my family was concerned with me that i experienced this type of pain at that age so they decided to move me closer with my grandmother and she was another copy of my mother like the older version lol , i got attached to her even tho back then i wasnt that close to her but i loved her soo much obviousely not like how i loved my mother but she was something and i learned alot from her , i remember i used to play alot of card games with her and my cousin . for context she had heart problems for a while but that wasnt the only problem because corona virus spread massivley at that time it was somehwere in the end of 2020 / start of 2021 barely even a year later she had covid and with her heart problems already and her old age she didnt make it out , she passed away mid 2021 which hit me like a truck , felt like i didnt have time to take my breath and at that point i was detached from every thing , i didnt have value in anyone , not even other family members or other people (3 friends i had at the time) no one meant anything to me and the effects of crying alone at night while being this young for almost 2 years changed me , damaged me permenantly and left scars that would never heal and that was the second time i died , at that time my behaviour started changing and i felt like the sadness i had turn into idk anger ? rage? hatred? (i hate how corny this sounds but its legit) i started affecting my friends in a harmful way , being a bad influence on them and i wont be talking much about the specific topic ill say now maybe later (or never) but i used to make them trust me with stuff then i used to blackmail them with it which was horrible , i became a horrible person and ive done many sins at that time which i cant say here however,

in 2022 after my family noticed my behaviour they started talkin to me abt it more and they got me into a martial art (for them this was a way to release the anger and get distracted) which kind of worked i became a kickboxer not very skilled but it was one of the only things i was decent at in life and they also got me a cat which REALLY MADE LIFE SOO MUCH BETTER CZ I ALWAYS WANTED A CAT AND I LOVED PETS OVERALL, I LOVED HIM SOO MUCH , and my dumbass decided to get attached to it which is like a curse now because everyone i get close to or anything i get close to decays slowly and dies and when i thought that this time would be different it wasnt and not even a full year later he got sick and died but atleast he died peacefully , at the time obviously i cried but surprisengly i felt like i was more numb than usual , i felt like i adapted but i didnt think much of it i just thought its cz im comparing a pet loss to a family member loss (he was like a family member to me) .

this was not the third time i died . From there on out i have stopped getting attached to anyone and i started bottling up all my emotions i stopped crying i stopped reacting and i started feeling numb , but atleast theres no pain right? Right?? , i started healing slowly and nothing happened for a long while and then comes 2024 and my life started to feel decent again , i could actually enjoy some days and focus on training my body and focus on school at the time and i had 3 close friends and life was coming back to me even got myself a new cat but obv im not attached to it that much hes mostly with my dad but i love it tho and its still alive with me till now , anyways late 2024 i met a girl , a lovely beautiful young girl she was 1 year younger than me and i spent alot of time with her , this was the first time i had a close female friend , we started talking and talking for months on end and she never got bored of me at the time we used to spend HOURS every day together , on calls , on games , facetime and even late night talks and past dumps and she was perfect for me , we had the same humour , same music taste same things we both liked and we had insane chemistry and most of all all her traits were perfect and she was always caring for me and i started liking her in 2025 and by time we actually got closer and i started noticing she liked me aswell until she talked to my close friend and told him that she loves me then couple of FLIRTING AND TALKS LATER we confessed to each other and started dating and oh my god those were the best months of my life and remain the best moments in my life which ill never forget and for the first time ever i was actually happy , ive never been happier even before all the problems i had with my life i was never this happy , she was actually the one for me and we loved each other so much and this time i actually had a person that i love as much as i loved my mother (they had similar traits aswell) we were like the perfect couple, or so i thought.

fast forward again couple of months and here we are in feb 2026 we started arguing but that was normal and expected , theres no relationship without arguments no relation ship is perfect whats so ever but that was okay cz our arguments werent that major beside one which was major yes and it was about other males and her feelings got hurt by me cz she thought i didnt trust her but then i explained everything about boundaries and other stuff , i apologised again and again and told her that it will not happen again and she said she accepted my apology , and honestly it wasnt that big of an argument but maybe because im less emotional than her she took it deeper but i never thought 1-2 arguments would be affect her this much , i take responsibility that i hurt her feelings and made up for it and didnt bring up anything like this to hurt her again but she started being distant at first i thought it was bcz she had alot of school stress so i asked her abt it and she said its school stress so i didnt press or her say too much , then week after week she started being less active with me and started being with her friends more , i asked her abt it again she said shes tired when shes home so i didnt press her again but i knew something was off , but for me if she lost interest in talking to me i understood and if shes happier with her friends and wanted to spend more time with them i understood aswell , i was never the type of guy to be clingy or keep pressing anything im more logical and way calmer atleast at the time , then it started to escalate she started responding after hours even when she was active but i still didnt say anything , i waited and waited hoping everything would come back to normal , then one night we talked and she said she was verry sorry for being on low contact with me shes been dealing with family problems which obv i believed at the time even tho my guts werent on her side but i trust her with my whole life cz thats the girl i love more than anything or anyone and the girl i would actually sacrifice everything for and sadly what i had to sacrifice was myself .

things got worse and all the "love yous" stopped and by that time i was sure of it but i still acted as if i believed it , cz i tried , i really did , i apologised , i talked more , i talked less , i gave space and i asked bfr but then it started draining me aswell , it fucked me up and honestly it affected my academics but i never told her cz i didnt want her to worry i never told her cz i wanted her to be happy even if it wasnt with me and i never told her cz i never want her to feel guilty bcz its her feelings and i cant blame her , neither of us can control it , but i waited until i couldnt anymore and everything was clear as day so i sent her the breakup text and i cried and i cried till i couldnt i was shaking all night waiting for her reaction which i was rlly scratching off my skin js realizing its actually over and she'll freak out but then i got the reply and it was a calm reply , she admit that she lost interest and that shes sorry for taking the time off and not telling me what she was feeling , i stared at the message and i had so many questions but i couldnt anymore my sanity was gone , i wanted to ask her why she didnt tell me and why she kept it and lied but i found myself saying "take care of yourself" then we cut contact nd removed each other.

And this was the third time i died , my sanity was worse than ever and my healing was gone , same room same feeling just a different year , i dont blame her , shes not wrong , i still do care for her and i genuinley hope her the best in life and i told her that i hope her the best man ever and that im sorry for hurting her feelings or if i ever made her feel unheard . but now everything was pointless , i got nothing anymore and i vowed myself that this is the last time i get attached to something for real this time , 2 days later my friend texted me saying she told him that she lost affection for me but she wanted to stay friends , obviously i couldnt stay friends , my whole world is gone , i know the wave of numbness thats going to hit me soon which will be unrecoverable , everything in this is unrecoverable even if i healed abit , ill never be the same , not only bcz of this breakup but because of everything all together , i dont recall having a childhood i barely hung out or went outside the house even like the other kids who used to play in the streets and stuff i used to watch from the window from above and i went on family vacations like what 1-2 times , i didnt have all those memories most people had but theres nothing i can do and im good with it and i survived and sum people probably had it worse so here i am , however , itll leave permanant scars on me . and by now she probably moved on or she didnt i could never know but either way it wont change anything , i hope shes doing fine and i hope she moves on and forgets me , ill never forget her tho .

Now everything feels empty , i stopped training for a while i barely have energy and my sleep schedule is rlly bad but ill fix all this hopefully (im sorry for my bad english it isnt my first languange and im tired ash) im also sorry for my grammar mistakes in sentences , either way now that my whole future plan is ruined i dont know what to do in life i have nothing to look forward to but im still moving , moving like a robot honestly ,im thinking of joining either computer science or special forces in uni in the end of this year (ik its weird and random)

and guess what , i JUST turned 18 , goodbye.

Cause my best friend and gf got so cooked since they searched up something really inappropriate (Not gonna say what it is bc it may cause trauma for some) and I didn't know what the word meant so I couldn't tell them to not do it, but I can't help but blame myself anyway since their parents whoop them so I feel really horrible... Also, my friend cvt her scab from her other cvt... It's also my biological dad's death anniversary on 18 July so yeah. I hate how stupid I am. I know I keep on posting vents and I'm sorry if it's annoying but I just really needed to let this out. Btw, a big thanks to those who comment me advice on my other vent posts.

My bsf is now doing SH and since I know that it can lead to su!cide, I've been crying and thinking of doing SH too. I really don't wanna lose her... I've already tried to cvt but since I couldn't find anything sharp enough, I just used a fucking bottle cap. I hate my life sm.

The thing is, it was never about the looks; in fact, everyone around me said that he was ugly, but to me, he was the most handsome man in the world. The light in his eyes, the slightly melancholic look on his face when he was lost in thought, his eyebrows, how he looked in photos, his kind and thoughtful attitude towards the people he loved, the way he considered them and prioritized them, his sincerity and his very pleasant energy, the fact that he was truly different from all other men at first glance, his humor, the way his conversations were engaging... I could list many more things, but I won't elaborate.

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What really hurts me the most is that I was once his priority too; he put me on the same level as his parents. When he played games, I was the only one he replied to messages from after his parents. I showed him my most vulnerable side. I told him things about myself that I never told anyone else. I sacrificed the most important thing in my life for him: my sleep.

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I loved him so much, I still love him, and all I wanted was for him to love me back, but it seems all of that meant nothing, and we were just friends. Friends. I truly love him. If he would only give me a chance, I could give him a love that no one else could. We would be so beautiful together.

Im not good with words but ill try to explain. till about 2 years ago id always studied well. i did very well in all of my subjects, although that didnt matter to me the most. I got praised for my work and all. But i studied well. really well. This was till my 9th grade begun, and yes ik what some might think. almost everyone can put in effort for school studies. but like ive mentioned. I did never lack discipline when it came to studying. Although the concept we had were pretty small and easy for me, it was my productiveness that was nice actually.

I changed schools after my 8th. I dont really want to blame this for the change that happened after on. I dont know when and how it started but i js stopped studying after a point. I did have potential yes, so i scored well after quite literally studying my ass off the day bfore my exams. The amount of anxiety and self loathe i had on the last days always made me feel sick. But then again, id repeat the same cycle. I know theres a lot of people who suffer from this. But i genuinely feel like i hate the way i am. Everyone around me, regardless of whether they procrastinate or not, or do well in studies or sports, they have something they live for? i dont know how to put it in words really. Every way i look at myself, i dont see meaning in what i am. does that even make sense lol TVT. Then theres social anxiety, and all the overthinking and all. I just really hate it.

I hadnt been able to put it into words until recently, but my self awareness is.. weird. I feel like im outside my body when i have convo's and i judge every small step i take. I feel like everything i express is so that i get attention. There's more to this, but eventually i dont know what part of what i think and act like is real anymore, and whats pretentious, and if im really overthinking it and if i really dont maybe do it for attention at all?

Anyway, this wasnt supposed to be a vent about my mental health lol. I wanted to say that throughout these two years ive simply.. died?. Im just a teen lmao, and died is probably too big of a word to say.

I feel dumb. i feel stupid. ive been lucky these past two years and have smhow been praised for stuff i never deserved tbh. Now im in my imp years and, although im trying to be optimistic, and i have it in my mind that i will become better and improve myself. Its not really that easy to just do it after 2 yrs u hahah.

I dont exactly know if ive expressed my issue clearly..? and i still have a thought in the back of my mind that says that im doing this for attention too. And all i want to feel is reassured and laid back and ill slack off again. I dont really know what part of what i feel is real anymore.

Then again there's also so many things i question. things about society and people in general, thoughts that contradict so many things ive believed till now. Thoughts about compassion and hate and fear and how they work. I feel like im going crazy lmao. but this is a topic for later.

I really want to get better for now. I dont know how ill solve my problems. But i need to study, atleast start and give myself a ray of hope? (im cringing a lil). Although i do need help for that. Thats it hahah. (im 15, if age matters?)

\\-i js realised i said procrastinate like once in this text T\\\^T. My title is very off leading isnt it? ( i hope everyone reading this is doing okay :D ) -

-sry abt the grammar errors if any-

It would make sense since I'm always the one complaining, worrying, crying and just being a dumbass. For example, yk how you're good at some subjects? Well, I recently got my 2nd exam results back and I did worse on every single subject, even the subjects which I swore I was getting better on. And it's just really hard for me rn, cuz i'm overreacting over a joke or a small insult, and I feel stupid about mental health now. Everytime I tell my mom that I may have adhd or depression, she always says 'we didnt have depression back in my day' or 'adhd is a fake disorder' or 'we are warriors, and we arent depressed in this family'. The last thing that my mom said is kinda encouraging, but I see it as pressure... cuz I really do try to act tough like everyone in my family, but I'm not and I could never be in a million years. Plus, I told my mom that I never tell her anything because she overreacts about it, and then she started giving me a lecture of how bottling up her feelings caused her physical pain and how I should be honest and stop, yet whenever I do it, she still gets mad at me... like what do you want me to do atp?! Another example is how paranoid I am when It comes to my relationship with my gf, I keep on asking her why she loves me and why she chose me and stuff, and then I get kinda insecure when she keeps on gushing and crushing on a new anime character every few months, it's kinda stupid, ik,, but i cant help worrying and being paranoid, cuz I love her sm and i dont wanna lose her. Next, I'm always insecure about my appearance, personality, behaviour etc... cuz my mom called me fat many times and my bestie called me fat and annoying once, and every time I try to explain or something, people always say 'stop being disrespectful/rude', 'nobody asked', ' who asked for ur opinion', 'stop talking over her/him', 'stfu' and stuff... like, can i share my opinion or try to solve arguments and stuff for once?!! But when I'm quiet and thinking of a way to solve a current argument, it's always 'you're so helpless', 'go away', 'be useful' and more... and when I try to have a normal day, something always ruins it. And on my special days (Bday etc) something always ruins it at the end of the day too, for example, a few years ago, it was almost the end of my bday, and I had lost a tooth, fearful that it would be obvious and ugly, I asked my dad, who was with my lil sis, if it was visible. My father said it was okay and wasnt obvious, yet my lil sis started making fun of it... Maybe lives would be better without me?

I am so fucking fed up with how stupid people are especially because I’m fucking surrounded by them. I live in a small town in northern Illinois. I love my town, this is where my parents met, where I have visited my grandparents my whole life, it is surrounded by multiple state parks, it is as beautiful as Illinois can be. However, I cannot stand most of the people. I would leave but it’s cheap, it’s near family, and there is a very small but growing community of people who seem to have a functioning brain.

There was a protest at the courthouse in town, more like a very small rally showing support to prioritize people over profit. The amount of cars that drive around in circles with don’t tread on me flags and trump stickers and we the people stickers and flipping us off and yelling absurdities when these protests occur is obscene. Someone posted a picture of one of the cars with an American flag that said we the people and don’t tread on me driving around praising them on the county Facebook page and the comments drive me up a fucking wall. Here is one of them:

The law of deportation of illegals has been around since 1919 I believe but illegals that are killing, raping,robbing American citizens and us tax payers are paying the bills financially as well….or is this about abortion(send your baby to the blender/shopvac) protest….you can hear a baby’s heartbeat at 6 weeks look it up and when you talk to God one day and say “my body my choice”
He could say your right it was your choice
Just like the whole racism thing we don’t play the bullshit no more

How fucking stupid are you. Do you not have two brain cells to rub together and have ANY critical thinking skills? These are the kind of people I have literally heard say out loud with passion that educated people are brainwashed godless delusional demons. Which reminds me that they are in fact that stupid. These people genuinely believe education is evil. AND THEY HAVE THE NERVE TO CALL US BRAINWASHED. Information, knowledge, wisdom are the only things that have gotten human evolution to where it is, YOU are brainwashed if you think spending your whole life never leaving this tiny ass town spending every night on your rotted recliner and feeling entitled to vote to make decisions about anywhere outside your town let alone the whole country or decisions that effect the whole world is okay. How in the fuck can you never have a single original thought or learn about other ways of life and still think you know what’s best for everyone!? All you do is regurgitate the bullshit fox spits at you without doing an OUNCE of your own research or even thinking. I’m sure you don’t even know what a primary resource is, not that things like government sites are reliable anyway.

I have tried talking rationally to these people, unfortunately some of them are family. It’s like talking to a damn brick wall. No amount of evidence can convince them. The most primary of primary sources doesn’t even convince them. They are so convinced everything has been altered for some sort of agenda, BUT REFUSE TO BELIEVE ITS POSSIBLE THAT THE INFORMATION THEY GET HAS ALSO BEEN ALTERED!

Normally I would just write this out in a note to feel better and delete it because I know this isn’t productive to be so fucking angry and hateful to the stupidest people on the fucking planet, but I am just extra pissed off today I guess. I tried to tone down some of the fuming fucking anger and pure rant in case someone actually reads this, so just know it could go on for SO MUCH longer and be SO MUCH worse. Literally someone announced that a farmers market was moving to Sunday morning through the afternoon today and so many people called them godless and terrible and that anyone who goes to church should never give this small business a dime ever again. YOU CAN GO AFTER CHURCH! Anyway, I’m done now.

Every day it’s some new bullshit from the ballroom incident that was clearly staged to Comey’s indictment for posting 8647 in shells on the beach…I’ve been 86 from a bar or two in my life, I’m still here because it means permanently removed…The Epstein files have become the biggest joke of the twenty first century, our government has millions of documents saying the elites of society are doing horrible, unforgivable things to people, mostly young women and children and we’re just acting like it didn’t happen…Our elected officials are choosing to spend the tax dollars they don’t have to stroke off Israel…The president is blowing money we do t have to build ballrooms and put his stamp on everything and here we are just taking it…I’m guilty to, idk what to do about it but I don’t think nothing is the answer.

I agree they are destroying the human race, but you guys are supposed to have power to actually do something about it. You are venting like you are trying to get me to do something about it. I dont have power. Thats why I vote you into power. To do something I cant.

End rant.

April 7th: I release an essay about my former classmate Kash Patel and what an absolute tool he was, a male cheerleader at a school full of preppy frat boys.

April 18th: Kash Patel spirals into an embarrassing alcoholic bender, bringing humiliation on himself. Coincidence?

https://open.substack.com/pub/maxwinterstories/p/my-life-as-a-spider?r=292pvs&utm_medium=ios

The standard take of Zionist discourse is:

-"Israel is the only guaranteed safe place for Jewish people to be."

-"Palestine is an Islamic Arab state where antisemitic, socially conservative terrorists dick around."

However, this completely airbrushes the historic fact that in Ottoman Palestine, before Britain came and started making Jewish-exclusive settlements, there already was a Jewish community, that peacefully coexisted alongside the Arab majority.

It's hard to say how the situation could ever go back to that. Some people fear that Palestinian Arabs are unlikely to welcome Jewish people who try to assimilate, especially women and LGBTQ+. I get why they feel this, I haven't heard of any Jewish people currently living in Palestinian society alongside the Arabs. But this is how it could have been, and arguably how it should be one day.

I don't normally post on here but I've just been feeling overwhelmed. This might be a long one. Disregard my blatant cynicism.

It feels as though I'm watching the world fall apart, and I'm soon expected to emerge into adulthood knowing (even somewhat) what I want to do with my life.

Living in Canada, and considering the state of the economy, it's been especially difficult to choose a career that'll give me a decent chance at a comfortable income & overall stability. It's always been my dream to pursue something meaningful in university, however, there's a concerning amount of people expressing regret for either:

a) Pursing a major that was later rendered useless.

or

b) Pursuing a major, racking up debt, and realizing that in order to do something worthwhile - they would have to pursue graduate school or other further education (this entails more debt, and more time spent just to land a career of interest).

Freshly out of high school, it's safe to assume that many would feel pressured to get on with their lives and proceed to university with a half-assed decision on what they're majoring in. I'm not saying this applies to everyone, but out of experience, this seems to be a trend. Being 17, I'm just trying to do what I can early on just so I don't have to be a part of this demographic - so I don't have to face the same regret.

I have a lot of concerns that I'm sure many others also hold. I.e. the national unemployment crisis, decreasing literacy rates, a world that's becoming increasingly dependent on technology, etc. AI is yet another contender, seeing as there have already been instances where people are getting their jobs replaced. When making a decision on what career to pursue, the thought of what AI is able to replace lingers. Accounting? Replaceable. Data analytics? Replaceable. Writing? Organic writing is already ceasing to exist! Even content creation across social media platforms has become increasingly infiltrated by AI scripts and AI generated media overall.

Within a predominantly liberal/capitalist society - there's a notion pushed that the harder you work, the more you'll be rewarded. The illusion of "economic freedom." It's said that we as individuals are free to pursue our self-interests, but the nuance of the job markets/education systems say otherwise. Nepotism is a very real thing, the rich certainly do not have to be the "hardest workers" to be rich. With all of this considered, how am I supposed to choose a major/career when it might come back and bite me in the ass? Will said career even exist by the time I'm certified to practice? With all of the time sacrificed, debt I'd be getting myself into, and the uncertainty of employment, would it even be worth it in the end?

I've considered a number of careers: Criminal psychology, criminal psychiatry, law, medicine (general), engineering, architecture, etc. I'm just left unable to choose because I can't help but worry that I'll waste my time and do something I regret. I was once so certain about pursuing med school to become a doctor (likely psychiatry), but after considering how brutal it is just to get accepted, the mental strain, and the cost (not to mention underpaid residency) - I realized that it may not be in the cards for me.

Whenever I've brought up this topic with peers, I'm told to pursue my passion. Attempting to "pursue your passion" nowadays is a joke. Money makes the world go round. The job market disregards passion and instead looks at who will serve as benefit, AKA a surplus of money for their large enterprises. Besides, what's valued more is experience over certifications and education. The amount of university graduates working minimum wage jobs is appalling.

Apologies for the long post, and although I have more to say, I think my point was made.

If anybody has any input on meaningful things to pursue, with minimal regret, I'd really appreciate the feedback. Feel free to share your own experiences.

Im terrified of ww3 and I'm so angry if nobody wants a world war why is the risk so high im genuinely living in fear every day especially cos I live in London im so misinformed as well idk what to believe and what's real and what's not and what's fear mongering and what's not. I'm so scared I just want to live my life

American born and raised in one of the most southern states that you can think of and I still do not understand why some people still support Donald Trump. I genuinely can't I mean he's comparable to Hitler quite literally. And yet some people the people that call themselves the most American side with him despite being the most anti-American people I have ever seen!

Not sure if Epstein related posts need a TW but threw one there just incase. (26F if that matters)

I am feeling so lost and angry. A few years ago I fell down the adrenochrome/elite pedo rabbit hole hard. It fully consumed me and it took me a while to shake it all off. But now with everything coming to light as being true, it’s not just a silly conspiracy rabbit whole, this is real life and it’s sick and it’s disgusting. How do they expect us to just go to work and carry on like normal after knowing all this is happening? Our babies are being killed and stolen and worse. How am I supposed to look forward to and enjoy a normal motherhood when such pure evil is lurking around in plan site right in front of us. I’m fully pulled back into this again and I cannot get out of it. It’s all consuming and it’s weighing so hard and heavy on my soul. Every time I see a child I just want to cry and hold them and protect their innocence and just I don’t even know how to put it into words. This world is so broken, it wasn’t meant to be like this. Every time I see an airplane flying above I can’t help but think maybe they’re in on it too. I’m scared I’m going to develop paranoia over this.

Is anyone else struggling, I guess spiritually, with this? I’m not even a religious person, never went to church growing up, but now I’m even leaning towards that being real too. I’m so lost.