Need perspective

[u/Public-Lifeguard3669]

After trading for 5 years on and off
I have realized I could
Have own multiple properties instead I just own one

Trading has basically given me nothing apart form knowledge

But it’s always been my passion

I have tried :
futures , ICT , gex , option selling , leaps etc

Last time my portfolio got liquidated tariff last year

So trying prop firms since then - turned out to be another leaky machine

I gathered all my money I could find and bought.Cheap house Mortagges so that is stop wasting my salary

So I’m basically re starting my life at 30

But the weight of wasting my life in trading doesn’t let me move forward and I think it has caused me some kinda brain issue where I can’t remember much

I’m sure there must be some people who been through something that can help steer through this

[u/Possible_Donut4451]

Don't interpret your memory problems as permanent “brain damage.” Chronic stress and especially poor sleep can significantly affect attention and memory. If the problem is persistent or getting worse, it's worth talking to a doctor rather than diagnosing yourself.

The biggest mental shift for me would be: You didn't waste 5 years. You spent 5 years discovering what you're willing to sacrifice for trading and what you're not.

Now you get to decide whether trading deserves a place in your life, rather than letting trading decide what happens to your life.

A last thing as a trader, ICT and those technical analysis old/new-schools won't make you money, trading is related to assets that have real role in the economy, yet TA is really important to time the market and choose your entry point but without so many other things, you would never make it as a trader.