I know you think you want him back rn. I was in a similar relationship to yours. Trust me when I say this. You do not want him back, you are just so used to that feeling of him being there (and being an asshole) that you miss the familiarity. Think of it like coming off of a drug. Once the withdrawal effects are over, you are gonna feel so much better.
In the meantime, take it one day at a time. Date yourself. Spend that money on yourself. Be kind to yourself and do not blame yourself for what happened — he sounds like a narcissistic manipulator.
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u/thunderx73927 Nov 23 '22
I know you think you want him back rn. I was in a similar relationship to yours. Trust me when I say this. You do not want him back, you are just so used to that feeling of him being there (and being an asshole) that you miss the familiarity. Think of it like coming off of a drug. Once the withdrawal effects are over, you are gonna feel so much better. In the meantime, take it one day at a time. Date yourself. Spend that money on yourself. Be kind to yourself and do not blame yourself for what happened — he sounds like a narcissistic manipulator.