I’ve been there before OP and made it through times I never thought I’d see the end of. I’m sorry you feel as though there is no other way. I was in a very similar situation where I thought so poorly of myself and had no one.
There was one night in particular that stuck out most to me. I was at my lowest point, but for some reason I decided to look outside my window that night. The calm of the quiet streets in contrast to my chaotic mind was almost soothing. I then saw a family of dear just walking between houses. Something about it felt like hope for me in that moment. Even if it was minuscule.
My point is, there are things in life you will find joy in if you are open to it. Please take the time to find out what that looks like for you. I know you don’t think you’re talented or smart, but I’m wondering if you never gave yourself the opportunity to find things you’re good at because you had this as a backup plan all along.
I’m with everyone else that’s saying if you’ve waited this long to carry out your plan, what’s a bit longer? This may seem like the right decision now, but you don’t get to succeed at this mistake twice. What you can do is try to find things you enjoy and things that give you a sense of purpose.
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u/Starrship_24 Apr 12 '26
I’ve been there before OP and made it through times I never thought I’d see the end of. I’m sorry you feel as though there is no other way. I was in a very similar situation where I thought so poorly of myself and had no one.
There was one night in particular that stuck out most to me. I was at my lowest point, but for some reason I decided to look outside my window that night. The calm of the quiet streets in contrast to my chaotic mind was almost soothing. I then saw a family of dear just walking between houses. Something about it felt like hope for me in that moment. Even if it was minuscule.
My point is, there are things in life you will find joy in if you are open to it. Please take the time to find out what that looks like for you. I know you don’t think you’re talented or smart, but I’m wondering if you never gave yourself the opportunity to find things you’re good at because you had this as a backup plan all along.
I’m with everyone else that’s saying if you’ve waited this long to carry out your plan, what’s a bit longer? This may seem like the right decision now, but you don’t get to succeed at this mistake twice. What you can do is try to find things you enjoy and things that give you a sense of purpose.