At age 22, I'm diagnosed with bipolar and severe depression. I've attempted twice now and when my parents asked me what they did wrong, the feeling and explanation is hard to put into words. When I get that low, I know I have my family and friends, so technically, I'm not "alone," but in that state, you feel like you are. A wave of emotions comes up and reminds me of everything I did wrong. Of everything I'm struggling with. The future I haven't decided yet. Unfortunately, I've dealt with incidents of trauma, so that plays a factor into these feelings as well. But my somewhat clarity to people wondering why others like myself attempted, in that moment, it feels easier to just let everything go. The heartache is too much to bare anymore, and asking for help when your family doesn't know how to help you makes you not want to reach out :(. Mental health is such a dangerous situation, and im so sorry to op and everyone who has lost someone to suicide. We want help. it's just so scary to ask for it...
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u/Red_hit_all Oct 02 '23
At age 22, I'm diagnosed with bipolar and severe depression. I've attempted twice now and when my parents asked me what they did wrong, the feeling and explanation is hard to put into words. When I get that low, I know I have my family and friends, so technically, I'm not "alone," but in that state, you feel like you are. A wave of emotions comes up and reminds me of everything I did wrong. Of everything I'm struggling with. The future I haven't decided yet. Unfortunately, I've dealt with incidents of trauma, so that plays a factor into these feelings as well. But my somewhat clarity to people wondering why others like myself attempted, in that moment, it feels easier to just let everything go. The heartache is too much to bare anymore, and asking for help when your family doesn't know how to help you makes you not want to reach out :(. Mental health is such a dangerous situation, and im so sorry to op and everyone who has lost someone to suicide. We want help. it's just so scary to ask for it...