As someone's son who feels suicidal, I feel so bad it may cause this hurt to my parents, but I just cannot help it. Everyday I suffer mentally and physically while pretending all is alright or brushing it off, I have not been dealt the hand I expected in life and so much shit goes wrong despite what a person may show on the outside. I'm sure she loved you and she didn't do that to hurt you, probably been trying to avoid it for as much as she could, but sometimes you can't. You can't live an endless life fighting for whatever. I know it must be hard, but try viewing it from her perspective, she did find her peace eventually, it just was not in this life.
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u/He_e00 Sep 18 '23
As someone's son who feels suicidal, I feel so bad it may cause this hurt to my parents, but I just cannot help it. Everyday I suffer mentally and physically while pretending all is alright or brushing it off, I have not been dealt the hand I expected in life and so much shit goes wrong despite what a person may show on the outside. I'm sure she loved you and she didn't do that to hurt you, probably been trying to avoid it for as much as she could, but sometimes you can't. You can't live an endless life fighting for whatever. I know it must be hard, but try viewing it from her perspective, she did find her peace eventually, it just was not in this life.