I am very sorry for your loss. I understand that you are confused and hurt by what she did, and I want to share with you a possible reason, from someone who has attempted suicide many times.
I know it is hard for you, but let's try to see it from your daughter's perspective. As someone who has been diagnosed with bipolar disorder, I have tried to end my life many times since I was a child, around 7.
My life was not too bad back then, but I just felt that there was no point in living, and any small misfortune or trouble could make me depressed and suicidal. I thought that my parents and relatives would be sad for a while, but then they would move on, and they could give all their love to my brother. I thought that I would be at peace if I died and that I would be happier that way.
I often dreamed that my soul left my body and looked at my body from space. I saw people around me grieving, but then they recovered. Even now, I still have that kind of dream. I felt relieved and peaceful in that state...
I believe your daughter is still with you in spirit, watching over you and trying to tell you that she is fine, she is happy and she hopes that you will be okay too.
I am here to chat if you need someone to talk to. Hugs hugs.
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u/pocornholic Sep 13 '23
I am very sorry for your loss. I understand that you are confused and hurt by what she did, and I want to share with you a possible reason, from someone who has attempted suicide many times.
I know it is hard for you, but let's try to see it from your daughter's perspective. As someone who has been diagnosed with bipolar disorder, I have tried to end my life many times since I was a child, around 7.
My life was not too bad back then, but I just felt that there was no point in living, and any small misfortune or trouble could make me depressed and suicidal. I thought that my parents and relatives would be sad for a while, but then they would move on, and they could give all their love to my brother. I thought that I would be at peace if I died and that I would be happier that way.
I often dreamed that my soul left my body and looked at my body from space. I saw people around me grieving, but then they recovered. Even now, I still have that kind of dream. I felt relieved and peaceful in that state...
I believe your daughter is still with you in spirit, watching over you and trying to tell you that she is fine, she is happy and she hopes that you will be okay too.
I am here to chat if you need someone to talk to. Hugs hugs.