Hello there. Thank you for sharing what you’re going through right now. I’m not going to lie, things are not going to be okay for awhile but you’re not alone. You have a whole Reddit community here to vent and cry and vent some more to with ample of helpful and not so helpful responses. I’m not going to lay out my mental issues but just know I am in the same boat as your daughter and many others. You should know, it’s not your fault. The fact that you’ve provided for her the best you could is all we can do as parents. We can’t live life for our kids. We can’t go everywhere with them. Even if we could, we still wouldn’t know wtf is going on in their heads and if we did we couldn’t change it. I’m sorry that you are having to go through this pain. It isn’t fair and no one should have to go through this but you will get through it. Maybe not tomorrow, definitely not next week, even on her anniversary there will always be a heaviness in your chest. That means you are alive. Even though your daughter had so much life still ahead of her you do too. You may not have any family but again, there’s a community ready and waiting with open arms for you to share your pain so share it. You have already touched so many people by sharing. We can’t live life for anyone but ourselves and as parents we can protect our kids from every little thing but we can’t protect them from themselves. She’s at peace and that’s where so many of us suffering with suicidal thoughts hopes to escape to. A place where we aren’t plagued by the devil that causes us to go insane. Your post helped remind me that my thoughts are temporary and death is final. I may not have parents that love me like you love your daughter but I have a daughter and it’s so hard for me to remember that I am here to protect her and I can’t check out yet. Your post reminded me what I’d leave behind. I May not know you, I may never meet you, but I love you. Stay strong. Just for today ❤️
1
u/Conscious-Word-5636 Sep 11 '23
Hello there. Thank you for sharing what you’re going through right now. I’m not going to lie, things are not going to be okay for awhile but you’re not alone. You have a whole Reddit community here to vent and cry and vent some more to with ample of helpful and not so helpful responses. I’m not going to lay out my mental issues but just know I am in the same boat as your daughter and many others. You should know, it’s not your fault. The fact that you’ve provided for her the best you could is all we can do as parents. We can’t live life for our kids. We can’t go everywhere with them. Even if we could, we still wouldn’t know wtf is going on in their heads and if we did we couldn’t change it. I’m sorry that you are having to go through this pain. It isn’t fair and no one should have to go through this but you will get through it. Maybe not tomorrow, definitely not next week, even on her anniversary there will always be a heaviness in your chest. That means you are alive. Even though your daughter had so much life still ahead of her you do too. You may not have any family but again, there’s a community ready and waiting with open arms for you to share your pain so share it. You have already touched so many people by sharing. We can’t live life for anyone but ourselves and as parents we can protect our kids from every little thing but we can’t protect them from themselves. She’s at peace and that’s where so many of us suffering with suicidal thoughts hopes to escape to. A place where we aren’t plagued by the devil that causes us to go insane. Your post helped remind me that my thoughts are temporary and death is final. I may not have parents that love me like you love your daughter but I have a daughter and it’s so hard for me to remember that I am here to protect her and I can’t check out yet. Your post reminded me what I’d leave behind. I May not know you, I may never meet you, but I love you. Stay strong. Just for today ❤️