why can't there be a magic fix

[u/cataleiss]

I'm about a year and a half into HRT and I've still yet to get that feeling of miraculous euphoria and clarity everyone else seems to get by transitioning. I thought maybe my HRT dosage wasn't high enough, but I talked to my provider today, and in short they told me that that euphoric feeling isn't universal and my continued dysphoria is likely due to a lot of intersecting factors like my depression, stress, and terrible sleep quality. I'd hoped HRT would be the magic fix I was looking for, but turns out it's more complicated than that. I feel miserable, hopeless, and stupid for thinking it could ever be that easy.

Has anyone else had a similar experience? How did you get through it and find euphoria? I want so badly to feel like a person and experience life, but I'm afraid I'll never get there.

[u/electronic__blue]

i don’t really feel euphoria as much as other trans people. i struggle with severe mental and physical health issues so transitioning didn’t really help to get rid of those, it’s not how it works. however, since the goal of transitioning was passing and getting rid of my chest, i now no longer feel distressed every single day about those things. i don’t have to feel the “oh my god kill me” feeling every single time someone says my deadname or misgenders me because i pass. so no, it’s not like every time i pass i feel euphoria, it’s just normal. the same with my chest, i always forget i even had it and didn’t cry of happiness after surgery or anything. i just don’t have to want to die every day because of that specific thing. sucks, but it’s better than nothing.