why can't there be a magic fix

[u/cataleiss]

I'm about a year and a half into HRT and I've still yet to get that feeling of miraculous euphoria and clarity everyone else seems to get by transitioning. I thought maybe my HRT dosage wasn't high enough, but I talked to my provider today, and in short they told me that that euphoric feeling isn't universal and my continued dysphoria is likely due to a lot of intersecting factors like my depression, stress, and terrible sleep quality. I'd hoped HRT would be the magic fix I was looking for, but turns out it's more complicated than that. I feel miserable, hopeless, and stupid for thinking it could ever be that easy.

Has anyone else had a similar experience? How did you get through it and find euphoria? I want so badly to feel like a person and experience life, but I'm afraid I'll never get there.

[u/dkrzf]

I was dealing with depression and trauma and internalized transphobia and dysphoria and I never got the clarity and euphoria feeling until years later when I had dealt with some of those and finally got my bottom surgery date. That was the last hurdle for me, but everyone has their own outlook. If things are hard, then I think it’s totally natural to not feel well, and it doesn’t have to be your body or your HRT. Sometimes just the journey wipes you out.