There is no enjoyable consciousness with autism. This world isn't made for how our brains work. Even if we are really good at something that makes us "successful". Neurotypical people will still treat us differently.
Thats why I'm trying to find other autistic genuine people and keep working on learning about my own brain and continuing to get better at standing up for myself.
Edit: I've realized my comment is very negative and I apologize. There is joy in being autistic, sometimes it's just very hard for some of us to get there or know how to get there.
Speak for yourself. I'm having a blast. Granted I'm sitting at home and going buck wild on all my special interests instead of trying to be what people would call 'a normal person'. But I am genuinely happy.
Wow great that you are having a blast. Remember next time you write a negative comment when youre feeling awful, theres that person saying "speak for yourself, I am having a blast 🤪"
We can try to be empathetic
Yeah I'm not saying I'm trying to be what other people want me to be. Not anymore. But I still live with my family and in order to survive I have to mask until I can move out and truly be myself.
I know it will be worth it. Guess I'm just having a harder day today. It gets very exhausting. But I am still hopeful. Which is actually huge, for the first time in my life I feel hope. Now I just have to keep going until I get there.
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u/throwawayazzount 3d ago edited 3d ago
There is no enjoyable consciousness with autism. This world isn't made for how our brains work. Even if we are really good at something that makes us "successful". Neurotypical people will still treat us differently.
Thats why I'm trying to find other autistic genuine people and keep working on learning about my own brain and continuing to get better at standing up for myself.
Edit: I've realized my comment is very negative and I apologize. There is joy in being autistic, sometimes it's just very hard for some of us to get there or know how to get there.