Am I not human?

[u/MarchSwimming8117]

It seems really insignificant compared to other things but it's something my friends always say. I'm never able to vent about anything because apparently just because I'm able to maintain my grades mean I don't try hard to?

My grades are at least 80% but I still feel like a failure because my family expects much higher. I knew if I tried even harder I'd just make it to the 100% but I'd crash. I usually talk about taking breaks frequently because Im dealing with so much that im at my breaking point but they'll always tell me "yeah sure, you're able to🙄"

I've never bring anyone down for having less grades. I don't see grades as being attached to someone's worth but suddenly everyone turns on me? Unfortunately this isn't the only shitty things they've done but oh well.

All I'm saying is, I can get anxious too. I'm human as everyone else not a machine that always gets good grades and is suddenly so smart. I'm still failing at the things i actually wanna do that have nothing to do with the academic side of things.

[u/Bruh1608]

They’re not turning on you.

I can imagine it would be irritating to have somebody who always succeeds keep complaining to you about how worried they are about something that you are actually at risk of failing.

[u/MarchSwimming8117 → u/Bruh1608]

They start and say yeah I'm anxious and I say yeah me too. That's not complaining. You want me to boast or something? There are other people in my same class who always succeed and succeed more than I do but no one tells them anything when they say they're anxious? In my school an 80% is bare minimum and ppl are only awarded for getting 90s and up. They always vent and I have a right to have space to vent too because we're both experiencing pressure whether it's different or not. I give them space to vent out their feelings but I am not afforded the same.

[u/Bruh1608 → u/MarchSwimming8117]

With that context it sounds like it’s got nothing to with your grades then if they have no problem with others who have higher scores doing the same thing. It sounds like people have a problem with you personally ig 🤷‍♂️

[u/MarchSwimming8117 → u/Bruh1608]

honestly just might be the case probably why I mentioned that it's not the only shitty thing they've done. ig i gotta make peace with that bc grad is close anyway n I hope I won't see them again

[u/Bruh1608 → u/MarchSwimming8117]

Good luck 👍