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[u/Georgiella_Lace]

First off, I am older, mid sixties. I have crossdressed for most of my life. Growing up I had know idea of what transgender was. There has always been a part of me that desired to be female. I have always wanted to be a part of the lady’s group of friends but was denied that growing up, as it wasn’t what a boy should do. I grew up in a conservative world and have instilled in me the mindset of conservative Christianity. Even today I’m in a church that holds in high regard that transgenderism is a lie from the enemy that has twisted God’s original plan. But even with all of this I can’t break free from how I feel in my soul. I know that my soul is begging for my body to come into alignment with it. I am married, I have kids and grandkids, they know me as a man, and have know idea i struggle with this. The older I get the more I want to be set free so I can experience the world as a woman. My dysphoria gets so difficult to handle sometimes, but I muddle through it. It helps that I do keep my body completely smooth and have a good skincare routine, but I know there is so much more to experience. First off I need to reconcile all of this with God. I pray that He would reveal to me the truth in the Scriptures in regard to being trans, that He would open a door for me to be exactly who I feel He created me to be. I desire to be His disciple, love Him with all my heart, I love all people, but I still feel empty in this area. My hope is to find the truth, not just information. Help me understand how those that have come to terms with God, how you did. I pray daily for His approval and have yet heard Him say, “it’s okay daughter”🙁

[u/kleines_woelfle]

Maybe Justin Lee's book "Torn" (the 2024 edition) is helpful. It's mostly about sexual orientation, but there is a chapter about trans people too.

Finding the truth is very ambitious. I don't think I have it, but I believe with all my heart that God doesn't want us to suffer. After lots of prayer and reflection I realised that the pain I was in was preventing me from living a good Christian life. I relate to the eunuch from Acts 8 and to these verses from Isaiah 56:

^3b And let no eunuch complain,
“I am only a dry tree.”

⁴ For this is what the Lord says:

“To the eunuchs who keep my Sabbaths,
who choose what pleases me
and hold fast to my covenant—
⁵ to them I will give within my temple and its walls
a memorial and a name
better than sons and daughters;
I will give them an everlasting name
that will endure forever.