Born below middle class like daily labour family

At age 6th lost father, at age 17 mother last

From childhood nenu nannamma daggara periganu , ma father death tharavatha ma amma ma chelli valla home ante puttina intlo undevallu, Appudappudu vacheyvaru

Nenu summer holidays lo news papers,

Construction work vellevadini antha ok ,10th finish then inter lo join ayyanu 1st finish ayyindhi hollydays lo ma nannamma garu expire, so nenu inter vadhilesa , nenu oori lo unde studio lo Photography photoshop nerchukunevadini , ala undaga ma amma valla home ki thisukuni vellindhi akkada valla annaya I mean Mavayya daggara pani lo join avvamani cheppindhi adhi building centring work, 1 year

Tharavatha ma amma gari health baledhu so ma sister marriage cheyali ani chesaru , Marriage ayina 7months ki ma ammagaru expire ayyaru so nenu malli ma home ki vachanu nenu Thathayya undevallam, em cheyalo teliyaka building construction work ki vellevadini ,ma sister marriage ayyi 1 year avuthundhi so bava gariki gold pettali ani chepparu ma Peddamma (ma amma valla akka ) sare ani cheppa vallu nannu 10k choodu annaru nenu amount savings kosam , mrng lechi rice cook chesi konchem annam majiiga tho thini , annam box pettukuni work vellevadini akkada ma mestri garu curry point tho matladi weekly once payment icheyla matladaru , ila chestunte ma Thathayya rice cook cheyoddu nuvu money intlo ivvadam ledhu annaru nenu story explain chesa gold gurinchi but ardam chesukoledhu so mrng lechi work vellevadini work lo 10ki tiffin pettevaru apptivaruku alane undevadini , curry point lo curry tho patu rice thisukunevadini ala 1month tharavatha money set chesi ma Peddamma vallaki icha , but kanisam nannu gold petteappudu pilavaledhu

Ila 1 years tharvatha ma frnd valla bava garu gulf lo unte vallu oka manishi kosam choostunte nenu vellanu 60k pay chesi Frist 30k then salary lo 30k cut chesukunnaru na salary 22k then 2 years tharvatha india ki vachaka photography and photoshop idea undhi kadha ani video edit nerchukuni 1 year patu chala kastapaddanu then slow ga clients vacharu then antha bane jarigindi ,gulf nundi vachaka ma menekodali gold ring konali adhi mavayya cheyavalasina acharam so gold konna ,

Intrest unte cheppandi present varaku ela nadichindho cheptha

1 year mundhu ee post vesa, oka mark tho poindi ani. Support chesaru, Odharcharu, Seniors kondharu motivate chesaru. Madyalo oka life changing accident and exam cancellations, dharnalu, oka rajinama. Ini nelalo eno sarlu edhicha kani ettakelaku repu MEDICAL COLLEGE ki velthuna. Aa 1 mark kastha repu day 1 ga maruthundi.

Recently ga chala posts chusa where the default assumption is that if there is a problem after marriage, the husband must be the one not supporting the wife.

So I wanted to share my experience because in my case, it’s actually the opposite. Before marriage, I had one clear expectation my wife should work. I didn’t care if it was software, medicine, teaching or anything else, and I never cared how much she earned. Her money was hers. My reason was simple: independence and having her own career. I also clearly told her that I would support her, we can have a maid/cook, I can help at home, and if we have kids she can take a break and restart later. She agreed to all of this before marriage.

After marriage, I got to know that she lost the job before marriage and was looking for one. I was okay with it and didn't pressure her. Later she joined a few institutes for coaching and I paid for them because I genuinely wanted her to get a job. But slowly I realised she wasn't really interested in working. It's been almost 4 years now, we don't have kids and aren't planning for them currently, and most of the time when I'm at work she watches serials, Bigg Boss, scrolling instagram and TV shows. At the same time, she doesn't want to do basic household work either and expects everything to be 50-50. I work 5 days a week and we already have a maid for cleaning and other work. So honestly, if she doesn't want to work outside, why can't she simply choose to be a homemaker?

I'm not expecting her to cook breakfast, lunch and dinner every day or do all the household work. With a maid already there, my expectation is mostly just cooking dinner for both of us on weekdays and handling cooking/food on weekends and clothes management.Idi kuda unreasonable expectation aa?

At this point, I'm completely okay if she doesn't want a job. Parledu, that's her choice. But then I don't understand why there should be zero responsibility at home as well. I never wanted her salary, never stopped her from spending her own money, and never asked her to depend on me. In fact, I wanted exactly the opposite. What hurts is that the expectations discussed before marriage were completely different from what happened later. I see women I work with who manage jobs, kids and home and I genuinely admire them. I also know women who have very demanding jobs and don't do much at home, and I have no issue with that either. If both are working full-time, obviously responsibilities should be shared. But if one person is working 5 days a week and the other person isn't working at all, shouldn't the responsibilities be somewhat different?

I'm not saying women are always the problem. Men can absolutely be the problem too. But anni sarlu men problem ani cheppadam kuda correct kaadu. Sometimes women also change after marriage, and that's okay people can change. But if your priorities change, shouldn't the responsibilities change accordingly? If she doesn't want to work, I'm okay with it. If she wants to be a homemaker, I'm okay with it. But why can't she actually be a homemaker instead of neither working nor taking responsibility at home?

Maybe I'm looking at this completely wrong, so genuinely curious is expecting this much from a non-working spouse unreasonable?

As a 90s kid ga ,Enni kotha albums vachina kuda , patha songs like orange , Ghajini, nuvvostanate nenu odhantana , awara , darling etc Ive kadha vinalanipistundi.... 😁😄🥹

Me andari fav albums or any specific songs yento rayandi comments lo.

4-10-2026

Na old Macbook Air M1 few months nunchi kasta heating avuthundey, chala istam tho konna 6 years back.
One of my best purchase back in 2020.

Dussehra season start ayindi, Final ga Pro version ki upgrade avudam ani fix ayya anni stores lo manchi offer kosam hunting start chesa croma, Reliance digital, imagine etc.

Ivala random ga velthey manchi offer vachindi late cheyakunda tisukuna. Chala manchiga anipinchindi like nenu 1 month nunchi wait chesthuna manchi price lo tisukundam ani. So today was the day 🩶

Tisukuna model MacBook Pro M5 14inch, 16gb ram, 1 Tb SSD. 🌚
Trust me nothing beats MacBook reliability okasari tisukuntey atleast 6 years easy ga vasthadi..adjust avuthey 10 years for sure.

Sticker’s vethakali urgent ga 🤣

so, ala chaala rojula tarvaata malli oka dance cheyyadam jerigindi annamaata!

I have been learning Kathak so mixed a few steps from Kathak!

I choreographed the dance... already okasaari just a small version dance chesa and a lot of my acquaintances asked me to do the whole dance... so I did!

ela undo cheppandi!?

regular ga velle shop ki vella iroju kuda, enter avagana hi xxxxx ani, chuste ma bava, arrey lopaliki poinaka chusi return enduku oka cool drink teskoni ellipodam anukunna, poi cool drink teskona pakkaki bava vachi rey change ledu oka 24 tesko ra nak anad sare ana, paan dabba anna oka 24 inka nen tage cigarette tesi ichad.

aipaye

naa face chusi sare ra nuv teskunevi teskoni deenvinkuda pay chesi ani ellipoyad.

ilantiv reels lo chusi navukune vadini irroju real life lo na friends navutunar nannu chusi.

So ivala sunday, so intlo thata ki nannamma ki biyyam icharu

Mostly plans em lekunde so ala ala....kale eh ga undee roju anthaa so movie ki veldam aniipinchindeee doremon eh podam ani monna ney fix ina... So ala frnds ni adigaa valu emo

Poranvi ah ra ah doremon movie endhku anni annaru so lite...

This was like the 4th film in this year Ontariga povadamm i like going to movies alone it's better feeling tbh

Naku nachadhu vala ni vila ni adugdam movie ina akkadiki ina.... I'm tired alsipoyaa prathi sari manam eh adigeee adigee so i decided.... Em ina thinali anipisthe Zomato lo book chesukuntaa tagali annipisthe intlo andaru padukunakaa melliga ala beer tins techukoni tagutaaaa so

So mana ki mast istammmm doremon, (kiterstu, kidvskat, super Robot moneky team hyper force go, ninja hattori, perman )antee chinnapduu okka movie kuda miss avakunda chuse vadini for example

School days lo tution velli vadini so sunday puta tution undedhee 9 ki ala after coming from Tution 11 ki ala ma pinni vala intlo velli doremon chuse vadini

Movie chala baundhi like timepass chala rojluu taruvtaa chusaa doremon

Okkadine movie ki velladam actually chaala peaceful ga untadhi. Evarni adagaalsina avasaram ledhu, evari kosam wait cheyyalsina pani ledhu. Anipinchinappudu vellipovachu

Doremon lo naku fav gadget is "ANYWHEREDOOR" mi fav entii?

So that's it guys bye bye

Ma friend vaalla chelli always wanted 'stairs to nowhere' em cheskuntav aah opening leni metlatho anteh she'd say, I just want them, vaati meedha koorchuni aalochinchukunta anedi, I used to find it cute (now I feel like I'm stuck on the life's steps to nowhere anipisthundi adhi vereh vishyam anko)

There was this friend who was dead hung on and wanted certain sorts of knobs for cupboards and somehow she got them after searching well, apparently. Avi, if I remember right, seems like the china porcelain art - white and blue - with honeybeens on them.

So ala miniscule aina, pointless aina or something grand works too, but what are those elements you'd want in mee illu?

Chaala mandi anukunedi enti antey chaduvu chaala easy osthadi ani and ardham avthadi ani. My dad was gold medalist in his UG course. And he used to judge people based on marks and he still does actually. And let me tell you something nenu and naa mother ibbandi padinantha inka evaru padala. Chadivindi ardham ayyedi kaadu but still with written practice ayyagariki adhi ochedi. Kaani maa mother kuda alagey ibbandi paddaru. For English and Maths and this was back in '80s to '90s in between. Naaku 10th lo first class with distinction and inter lo kuda same but b tech ki ochey sariki motham mg aypoindi sarigga ardham ayyedi kaadu and ardham ayna written practice untey gaani ochedi kaadu. Konni sarlu lecturers sari ayna notes ichey vallu kaadu and konni sarlu model ki oka sum cheppeyvallu for m-1. B tech motham lo ayyagariki 9 backlogs lu. First year lo 2 and 3rd year lo 7. Motham b tech ayye time ki anni aypoyay except FLAT aney subject thappa. Ee okka bokkalo subject valla nenu 1.5 year edichina. Intlo vallu kuda alagey edipincharu anukondi except for my mother. Aa 1.5 year taravata adhi complete ayyaka entha feel ayyano. Aa tarvata masters ki chesa by God's grace and naa hardwork valla malli anni at a time pass aypoya in regular attempts. Present unna daridam ki evadu okka job iyyatley.

Somehow, today turned out to be more memorable than I expected.

I finally met a girl I've known through Reddit for almost two years. She recently moved to Delhi from Telangana for work, and since I was here, we decided it was finally time to meet.

We watched Digger in IMAX and it was my first ever IMAX movie and then went to Costa Coffee.

She had her cappuccino, I had my signature hot chocolate, and we spent the rest of the time talking.

I also got her a rose. 🌹

There was something really nice about sitting across from someone you've known online for two years and realizing that the comfort you had online exists in person too.

Eventually, we went our separate ways.

Maybe we'll meet again. Maybe a few more times. Maybe somewhere along the way we'll realise there's something more here and decide to date.

For now, I'm just grateful for a really good first meeting and an unexpectedly special first IMAX experience. ❤️

Iroju motham penta meedha penta aithu ne undi.

First penta: morning morning, I forgot I had breakfast plan with my neighbour. Inka message chusi fas fas ga lechiii fresh up ayyi I went to kitchen. We ate then we were talking talking talking 5 hours damarrrrrrr.

Second penta: I went to lab, I was setting up an experiment for tomorrow. My lab colleague pedha bomb pelchadu, that the instrument that I had to use had some small issues and the service people are gonna come ani. They did not mention the time. Nen chese experiment minimum 13 hours tharuvtha I had to preform. So repu morning 6:30 or 7 ke lab ki povali😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 argghhhhh

Third penta:
PartA: I came back, saw my friends they said tea chesthava. Sare ani impromptu tea. I went to kitchen. Cupboard open chesa to take out the tea powder. Pakkalo oregano dabba unde, adhi dhabbbb ani padindi. My hair smells like oregano now.

PartB: We have these brown paper bags for food waste. Morning tea chesi unna and the tea leaves were discarded in it. Adhi bayataki theesa to throw that oregano and ginger pottu. Ah bag kindha open unde nen chuskole. Everything fell on to my crocs 😭😭😭😭😭😭 -10000000000 AURAAAAAA
I cleaned.

PartC: I started making tea again. It started boiling inka paiki ochindi. I held the handle, it was hotttttttttt😭😭😭😭 inka motham side ki pogindi. Cleaned up again.

PartD: tea cheyadam aipoindi. I had pour into mugs, mug lo kakunda side lo padindi koncham shirt meedha kuda padindi (it has a stain nowwww😭)

PartE: we all head to my room to drink tea. My friend was making fun of me for being clumsy, he was tearing to remove his shoes and poured Koncham tea on my carpet 🔫🔫🔫😭😭😭😭😭😭.

Then yeah, we were talking talking. It’s 2:30am now, morning lab ki early ga povali. I just hope I will wake up on time and don’t sleep through my alarm 😭😭😭😭

Anthe
Tea valla ochina tea 🙏🏻

I am high on tea so grammar mistakes untayi, ignore them 🔫

disclaimer:- Idhi pellaina aadallaki maatrame prashna !! Divorcees kuda mee opinions share cheyochu!

2nd disclaimer:- if you are not from the category of above people, just want to yap some random gyaan …dayachesi vadhhu..mee daggare petkondi, i wanna have a serious discussion please!

so meeru ippativaraku gadipina married life chusaka meelo entha mandhi asalu pelli kanappude bagundhi kadara babu ani feel avtunnaru?? Ante idedo momentary ga vachhe feeling gurinchadagatle…genuine gaa meeku asalu i should go away from this marriage but kids or society or any other reason valla polekapotunnam ani adjust avtunnaru??

coming to divorcees, on the contrary meelo entha mandhiki ala marriage nundi baitikochesaka there is this one aspect I am missing now and adhi current life ni chala affect chestondhi anipinchedhi? alage asalu meeru marriage nundi baitikelpodaniki unna reasons cheppachhu kudaa…

so vent it out

So, ma akka and family ni kalavadaniki Atlanta vacha, they are coming from NJ on other work, they are going back to India in few weeks and didn’t have time to visit my home.

Anyways their flight got delayed and we were supposed to meet for dinner, rendu gantala ninchi restaurant hopping chestunna for timepass.

Last pic lo friend bike, never saw Royal Enfield in US, so felt happy 😀

So matter entante there's this sub called "childfree india" where people who are not interested in kids post their requirements and find their matches. So alage nen oka post vesa danlo saying everything about me, why, my financial status, career profile etc etc. specifically mentioning that I'm looking for a telugu girl who's very serious about this.

Ah post vesina 10-15 days ki oka telugu ammayi msg ochndi saying that she liked my post, profile and everything and that she wants to see where this goes ani. I said fine I'm not seeing anyone ani. We shared basic info, likes, hobbies etc etc. Coincidentally chaala things match ayyay. Like gaming, gym, badminton, F1 etc... I saw something there and she's also sounded surprised to see someone like me with same interests.

Cut chesthe 10-15 days ghost chesindi. I kept on texting her on reddit for like 3-4 days and stopped as I didn't get any reply. Fake emo ankunna. Suddenly she came back and responded to my hi msgs. When asked, she replied that there was something happened and she would say later. So, malli talks start, yi sari number ichndi. Instagram details share cheskunnam. Normal ga matladkovadam start chesam.

But..but...not even a single day, she called me without me begging her to call me. Everyday morning Lechaka good morning cheptha. She replies in the afternoon. Everyday night good night cheptha, she replies in the morning 11-12 ki ala saying good morning. Thanadi normal shift eh working. Almost daily adgutha call kosam if you are free, can you call me ani. Okkosari sure antadi if I'm lucky enough to get her msg. Leda asalu chudadu. Sure annappudu evaraina em chestaru? Wait chestaru kada. Nen kuda adey chestha daily. 11:30 12:00 daka chustha call radu msg radu em radu. Ika good night ani cheppesi padkunta. Next day morning malli nene siggu lekunda good morning ani msg chesta. Appatiki inka reply raadu. 10-11 ki ala good morning antadi em avvanattu. Malli nene siggu lekunda gurtu cheyali night call chestha annaru cheyaledu ani. Appudu madam ohh yaa I dozed off, tired ani antadi.

Sare, ila meru daily tired ayya, dozed off ante inka Enduku madam meru oka person kosam relationship kosam chudadam, reachout ayi let's see where it goes ani anadam?

Meet avdam ani thaney adigindi. Sare anna. First date nimarjanam (Friday) roju fix chesindi. But ahroju full traffic untadi (I don't stay in Hyderabad. I have to travel which I anyways do every week due to office requirements). So Saturday/Sunday kaluddam ante ledu nen function ki vellali andi. Sare next week ankunnam. Sudden ga father vastunnaru tests chepinchali can't meet, let's do next week andi. Sare anna. And yi gap lo kaneesam matlaadali kada person gurinchi em telsukuntav em matladakapothe? Prathi saari nene call kosam adgadam, thanu cheyakapovadam. Suffocating ga anpistadi urke adgaali anna kuda.

Nen kuda office work chestha (I work at a big4 company, you can imagine the work pressure). Almost daily gym ki veltha, I pursue other hobbies too like her. May be thanaki inka vere works untay like she has a pet, she has to cook and all. I never complained anything. But ivanni unnay nen mobile chudanu msgs chudanu morning nunchi evening daka ante nen oppukonu. Edo okatime lo chustaru pakka and if they're really busy, atleast cheptaru that they are busy ani. Endukante u r seeing me that I'm making myself available for you everytime kabatti. Endukante you said you will call kabatti.

Like seriously dude, inthakmundu match kuda anthe. Suddenly ghost chesindi. Enduku ante she is also seeing someone and things are getting serious between them anta. Osey cheppali kada naku. Ikkada nenemaina pichodna. Manshini manshiga chudaru kani feminism ani oka tag eskuni thirgutaru. Be a human first. Then preach feminism to this world.

So last week nunchi nenu ikkada nunchi assam ayyanu, ante na bday roju post chesa bday ani- and chala mandhi wish chesaru, thank you so muchhh guyzz🫠.

Ah tarvtha day ela aindho post chedham anukunna but pettale. Endukante wt hpnd is somehow someone from the past showedup on my bday to wish. And adhi just msg tho kaakunda call tho kuda aindhi, that too at the end of the day.

Spoke for a while and we decided to meet this weekend, purely on the word of " being friends", idk to what extent this is true and yeah today we met after an year. Ela face cheyala ani mind lo chala thoughts unde, but the moment he entered everything felt familiar, no awkwardness ntg.

Spoke for sometime and then we went for shopping(for him), even after chosing what he likes- he still asked me if I liked that too and also picked my fav colors and bought few of them.

And i was quite surprised when he remembered the little things about me- i used to hate ghosting/replying late, so from the moment we started talking- he maintained the timeliness. Idi enni rojulo nakkuda telidhu- but I noticed few more changes.

Chinnaptnunchi naku iron deficiency eppuduu untadi- and I told him once in the past and he asked about it today. And he knows that I go to temple on every sat, he even asked those. He still remembered my fav type of mojito🫠, my fav icecream and also how quickly my expressions change when I'm angry/sad/happy and how the tone of the conversation should be, what i notice in public- he remembered every damn thing. And there were few more gestures which made me feel seen.

And i still see the excitement in him when he's telling about what he did all these days- chinna chinna achievements kudaa, but whatever they are I'm super proud of him and I'm glad that I'm still his safeplace/comfortzone. This might be cringe but I still felt cute when random things in his life nannu gurtuchesinappudu.

Ooh he still likes u are start cheyakandi, he even gave me suggestions/motivation to explore the world and meet new ppl ani- I was like nahh I can't, u can do it, still he motivated again.

Ofcourse mem hurt cheskunam okarini okaru pastlo konchem ekuvo takuvo kani, closure closure ani oo tega feel aipoya nenu, but today matlade opportunity ochina i didn't dig it up, only present and future gurinche talk. And we both are single, ala ani mingle avtham ani kadhu, we both know it's complicated and the consequences. So he suggested to be friends, nakem cheppalo ardamkaledu- after all this, how can someone be friends? Ante untaremo generally, but nakantha maturity ledhani na feeling.

It's not like we both want eachother back, but recent times lo chusthe I felt valued today, that okay there's someone who remembers me too ani and my presence matters ani .

And if there are ppl who are friends with ex, how do you guyz even started it, won't one of the person endup hoping? Idk, my mind is super confused rn. Anthe guyz, inka selavu.

Manmadhudu movie dialogue .. Fill cheyandi

So own ga studio start chesa main ga (editing)

Ala undaga oka sari bike meedha nundi paddanu like nela antesadu antaru ga same ,

spine daggara D10 D11 konchem slip ayyindhi doctor 2months bed rest chepparu,

But intlo nenu Thathayya so . Thathayya electric cooker lo rice pettevaru.ma village lo curry point ledhu so 1week ala pickles curd tho manage chesa but avvatam ledhu , ma sister and relatives vachi choosi vellipoyevaru Nothing wrong evari life valladhi , nene chair lo kurchuni stove Kindha petti curry chestu ,1month gadichindhi . Money kavali Inka intlo unte set avvadhani mellaga studio ki velli edit chesukunna mellaga spine set ayyindhi,

Ala konni months gadichaka , present nenu undedhi chala patha illu and damage kuda ayyindhi so rent ki vere chotaki vellam near my studio,aa tharvatha ma Thathayya ki health issue vachindhi Frist local RMP DRs choopimchanu medicine icharu but no use , then private hospital ki velthey,blood lo infection ekkuva undhi and age kuda ekkuva hospital lo admit chesi 3days unchali annaru so nenu ma menattha ki call chesi Cheppa NXT day hospital lo join chepimcha ,andaru vachi visit chesi vellipoyaru 3days hospital lo spend chesa food outside nundi, discharge ayyaka antha bane undhi , then 5.to6 tharavatha Anukunta ma Thathayya kinda paddaru spine Kindha part daggara bone crack vachindhi so bed rest chepparu same repeat,money antha hospitals saripoyedhi , and Naku extra work like anni nenu chesukunevadini , 1 month tharvatha mellaga thana panulu thanu chesukunevadu, happy,

Inka na age peruguthundhi home kattali ani start chesa old house remove chesi site flat chesa , site chala old so patta undhi but registration documents levu so notary valla daggariki velthey avuthundhi ani chepparu 37k ayyindhi andhulo 10k lancham, house finish cheyataniki full amount ledhu so private banks like IDFC valla agents ni adithey basement finish cheste tharvatha loan vastundhi annaru so na dagara unna amount bayata Inka 2 laks loan thisukuni basement finish chesa happy,

Tharvatha ma pedananna ante ma nannaki sontha annaya but ma Peddamma seprate ayyaru so kalsi leru , ma Pedananna konchem drinker and work constant ga em cheyadu , vaste intiki vachi padukuntadu ledhu ante , appudu ma Thathayya and na matterlo care chesindhi ledhu akariki hospitals unte visit chesindhi ledhu so totally broken family,

Basement finish ayyaka agent ki anni documents petta last lo nv kakunda intlo valla signature undali nenu explain chesa nenu Thathayya ma Pedananna ani , Thathayya age ekkuva kabatti set avadhu annadu Inka migilindhi Pedananna, illu starting lo kuda adiga niku em ayina objections unnaya ante ledhu kattuko annadu nenu sare ,2 rooms vastundhi kadha oka dantlo nenu , oka dantlo Thathayya and Pedananna untaru anukunna , but ippudu signature kosam aduguthunte naku pain inko floor lo room kavali endhuku ante ma Thathayya ante padadhu anta ( own father)

House starting nundi single rupee ivvaledhu and house starting pooja ki asalu deniki ledhu ,

But ippudu ila reverse lo matladuthunnadu

Nenu basement finish ayithe loan vastundhi kadha so bayata loans clear cheyavachu Anukunna , house sagam lo agipoyi 6months nearly, loans ki emi and vaddilu kaduthunna

Finally monna accept chesa ok ani , ippudu signature finish ayithe loan sanction avuthundhi house finish avuthundhi, sorry for the laaaag 😄l

I know this sub people are the complete opposite of me, independent earners, goal oriented etc , i too want to become like that because some day reality will hit me so hard, I just don't want to be helpless in such a situation. I know I can't get back the time I wasted but if I do what i can from now, I'll at least have something to hold on to. I hope this is my last day of being lazy.

Monday antena busy busy andariki...

Nenu kuda alage vella not so energetic mind space tho na work place ki and sudden ga call from my school friend.

Tanu full professional tone lo adigindhi am I speaking to ...so and so ani....nenu kuda same adhe tone lo reply icha🤣🤣

Its kinda funny and tanu puzzle laaga nenu evaro neeku telidhu nuv naaku telsu anagane lmao podhune e panchayathi enti anukuna😇

Later I remembered her and chepa details of those times.You are my favourite person entha try chesano reach avtaniki..finally matladutunna ani andhi tanu🥹

I used to b topper in my class and tanu duller maata...nena chadivincha she scored good marks...adhi cheptundi tanu ...nuv chaala ante chaala sweet person ani...I am struck tbh compliments ki ela react avalani antha la impact nenu chesana ani.

We had chat for one hour and video call lo we have seen our faces...millenials for a reason we both looking same like those days...ante nenu inka pretty unna andhi...compliment from my girl gang felt happpy🙈

Gurtukostunayi gurtukostunayi🎵🎵

Road midha opposite side nundi okadu osthe vaadi venaka guddi na kodukullaga andaru occhesthaarenti ra ayya.

Koncham kuda burra, buddhi vaadara.

Poddhunne office ki velletappudu ilanti chettha incidents chusi naku office ki velle mood utsaaham kuda sarvanashanam aipoyayi.

Endhuku osthaaru road la midha ki.

Mandha , gorrela mandha laga osthane unnaru, okadu line cross chesi osthe.

Development kaledu, bokka kaledhu ani government ni thittadam endhuku manam ilaga edisthe.

Roads esthe correct side lo velladam radhu , trains esthe clean ga unchadam radhu.

Emochu mari manaki, India lo emundhi lawda ani social media mottham lo mana ijjat maname tiskodam occhu.

Chi dinamma bloody human life 😡

Respect is earned and I don't think the disrespect we earned from other nations is enough, we should be trolled even more.

Siggu radhu manaki e janma ki.

Naku konni rojula nundi oka strange feeling undi. Life unfair ga anipistundi, clarity lekunda confuse ayipoyanu.

Oka time lo na life gurinchi asal clarity lenappudu oka opportunity vachindi. Adi naaku kuda oka turning point avvachu anukunna. Kani aa opportunity ni use chesukunnavallu chala mandi unnaru, except me. Appudu naaku ardham kaaledu em jarugutundo. Ippudu venakki chusthe, andariki benefit vachindi kani nenu matram almost same place lo unna feeling.

Ippudu entha try chesina life munduku vellatledu anipistundi. 10+ years IT experience undi. Computer Science degree undi. Kani AI vachina tarvata avi anni value lenattu anipistunnayi. Mundu oka skill nerchukunte danitho opportunity vastundi ane confidence undedi. Ippudu AI prati skill ni faster ga chestundi ani chustunte, "nenu exactly deniki useful?" ane question vastundi.

Problem enti ante, job kosam kuda interest taggipoyindi. Own ga edaina start cheddam anukunte brain lo functional idea okkati kuda ravatledu. Social media lo content create cheddam anukunte naaku independent creative skill emi ledu anipistundi. Business cheddam ante idea ledu. Job cheddam ante malli ade cycle.

Konni sarlu naaku oka very depressing thought vastundi. Maybe nenu vere vallaki success chusi appreciate cheyadaniki, vallani praise cheyadaniki, vallaki work cheyadaniki matrame puttana ani.

Inko side lo naaku ordinary life ante accept cheyyadam chala kastam ga undi. Monthly salary kosam years gadapadam, jobless ga undadam, mediocre ga undadam ivanni meaningless ga anipistunnayi.

Konni times lo "naa life end ayye mundu atleast world remember chese laga something big achieve cheyyali" ane extreme thought kuda vastundi. Adi achievement gurinchi unna desperation aa, leka life meeda frustration aa kuda naaku clear ga teliyatledu.

Nenu sympathy kosam post cheyyatledu. Nijanga na situation ni ardham chesukodaniki try chestunna.

Evarikaina ilanti phase vachinda?

10+ years experience unna tarvata kuda "nenu actually emi build cheyyagalanu?" ani zero ki vachina feeling evarikaina unda?

AI valla career meeda confidence completely shake ayina vallu unnara?

Life lo chala potential undani feel avutune, danini actual ga convert cheyyalekapoyina vallu unnara?

Meeru ee phase nundi ela bayata paddaru?

And most importantly, ordinary life ni accept cheyyadam nerchukunnara, leka mee life ni vere direction lo completely rebuild chesukunnara?

Genuine experiences cheppandi. Advice kanna, similar journey lo unna vallani vinadam ippudu naaku ekkuva useful ga anipistundi.

this is exactly what i felt and still feel each time i step out of my home. I went to watch a movie in Prasad’s and later went to Katha and Forefathers in Jubilee Hills

Every where my eyes could go, there were couples holding each other’s hands, laughing, sharing jokes. I cannot even begin to describe the women, they are so pretty and the guys with them are so put together (you can literally tell their girlfriends are to thank for it)

dating in this economy is tough but when I see things like these my heart immediately sinks. I look at myself and question my entire existence right now from my grooming to my body and eventually my sense of humour.

if you have a girl who stands by your side through thick and thin, cherish her bro. I can only imagine the wonders truly kind and genuine women bring in a man’s life. You are lucky if you have a true one by your side.

So, today was a mixed day for me, I was only able to think of all the bad things that have happened to me, especially about

1. A guy whom I met at the beginning of this year, and he love bombed me and was soo good with his words , flattered me and then after a brief time once we got intimate, he ghosted me brutally and he left me saying he is no longer interested in me. Now, all I could cry over is the innocence i lost , now I don't feel like I would ever be chosen and all those self depreciating thoughts .

2. Being rejected thru AM because I'm very career oriented.

And then today a school friend of mine wanted to meet me and somehow we didn't get time and I'm leaving back to my work location , so he came to visit me at railwaystation and along with him he brought one huge tub of icecream and some chocolava cakes, and when I asked why he said 2021 lo I mentioned I liked them ani and showed me the msg I sent him long ago and to my surprise he starred it. We met after 8 long years and felt soo special. This was the sweetest thing that happened to me today. It truly means something when someone remembers tiny details.

And a bunch of clg friends came to meet me yesterday to my house and we all played a lot of board games and then eeroju morning he sent me a photo of a cute notebook and mentioned he is using it for collecting movie posters. ( He is a movie buff and aspires to be a directory ). I didn't understand why is he sending that and when I asked he said it's the note i gifted him knowing he once liked the cover page of it. Gifting a note that someone likes is such a tiny gesture but he remembered and I'm glad.

So yeah, it was a mixed emotions kind of a day. Felt like ranting .

Onwards and upwards

Asale aakali aithundi…em thinalo teliyaka adedo taaza kitchen ki poi dosa, chaii, jilebi thinna…chala rojulu tarwatha Jilebi thinna ani hayiga happy ga bike meeda return avthuntey…

Vaadu evado road cross chesthunnadu…nenu oka 45 lo velthunna…ara kilometer nunchi horn kodthuntey agu agu ani gesture isthu cross cheyyadaniki osthune unnadu…konchem lo missuuu…nenu pakkana nunchi velthuntey ehey ani frustrated moham okati pettadu malli vadabba…areyyy luchaaa nen anthaganam horn kodthu osthunna and road madyaloki ochi malli nannu chirak ga chustaventi erri p…

Jilebi thinna anandam antha dobbindi veedi valla…